09-20-2011, 09:44 AM
Stage 3 - Day 3,
This stage is having a noticeable enough effect, so that I can distinguish from the previous stages. I was thinking about what the specific differences I noticed was but right now, I don't seem to remember.
I've had some inner turmoil hmmmm.. it feels like something is going on inside of me.. changing.
Ohh yes.. it's the thing that actually in mid Stage 2, till the end, I was much more needing to have something done, sometimes even more frustrated and aggressive than I usually was BUT I was aware of it most of the times and I told myself to stop and retired from it.
Stage 3 takes the neediness more away, which is really great and I still go after what I want, like for example today;
Our class was just done and I go out and get my bike. I see this girl, from my class, I find physically attractive and she seemed sweet too so I went over to her and walked with her, from the school to our homes (we live 10 mins away from each other). Talked and had fun about each others interests, hobbies, the past, passions etc.
So as we had stopped walking and stood there for a bit talking, I told her to join me for a drink Saturday night. She said she had brunch early next morning. So I gave her another option, which she wasn't sure about. She didn't knew what my intention was or she pretended to. Then I said, "You can get my number and call me sometimes this week". She hesitated and asked if I had facebook...
Anyway she said, yeah.. we could hang out.. as friends and I said my honest truth. She said sorry she couldn't because she isn't available or she has been in a relationship for 2-3 years and there's still something going on there. I told her she shouldn't be sorry about it, I'm just glad she was honest. We talk a little bit more about our class and the people in the class, which I kinda got bored about and then I ended it, hugged each other and talk a little more and I ended it by saying "well.. see you at next class" walked away but I forgot I had to get some groceries. So as we walk this 20-30 seconds of walk, none of us said anything haha.
The thing about the story is, I wanted to know her better, which I got the chance to and I took action for it. I liked her sexually and I got to find out about her personally, which I like too and in the end I expressed my interest in her to "know" her better but that's when it became a bit awkward. I had nothing wrong with that and I was actually sincerely fine with her not accepting the invitation.
- LM
This stage is having a noticeable enough effect, so that I can distinguish from the previous stages. I was thinking about what the specific differences I noticed was but right now, I don't seem to remember.
I've had some inner turmoil hmmmm.. it feels like something is going on inside of me.. changing.
Ohh yes.. it's the thing that actually in mid Stage 2, till the end, I was much more needing to have something done, sometimes even more frustrated and aggressive than I usually was BUT I was aware of it most of the times and I told myself to stop and retired from it.
Stage 3 takes the neediness more away, which is really great and I still go after what I want, like for example today;
Our class was just done and I go out and get my bike. I see this girl, from my class, I find physically attractive and she seemed sweet too so I went over to her and walked with her, from the school to our homes (we live 10 mins away from each other). Talked and had fun about each others interests, hobbies, the past, passions etc.
So as we had stopped walking and stood there for a bit talking, I told her to join me for a drink Saturday night. She said she had brunch early next morning. So I gave her another option, which she wasn't sure about. She didn't knew what my intention was or she pretended to. Then I said, "You can get my number and call me sometimes this week". She hesitated and asked if I had facebook...
Anyway she said, yeah.. we could hang out.. as friends and I said my honest truth. She said sorry she couldn't because she isn't available or she has been in a relationship for 2-3 years and there's still something going on there. I told her she shouldn't be sorry about it, I'm just glad she was honest. We talk a little bit more about our class and the people in the class, which I kinda got bored about and then I ended it, hugged each other and talk a little more and I ended it by saying "well.. see you at next class" walked away but I forgot I had to get some groceries. So as we walk this 20-30 seconds of walk, none of us said anything haha.
The thing about the story is, I wanted to know her better, which I got the chance to and I took action for it. I liked her sexually and I got to find out about her personally, which I like too and in the end I expressed my interest in her to "know" her better but that's when it became a bit awkward. I had nothing wrong with that and I was actually sincerely fine with her not accepting the invitation.
- LM
1. Do whatever you want.. risk whatever your gut tells you because.. you know you have good intentions.
2. Pressure forms the man.
3. Clarity gives space for better decisions.
