11-08-2016, 05:37 PM
Today was objectively speaking one of my better days on DMSI
-I made sure to wake up, say the anti-resistance statements and imagine DMSI executing. I think doing this is key for me to make progress faster. I've been doing it once a day since starting the program. Starting today, I'm doing it more often.
Now something sticks out to me here. Feel free to comment. I was walking to my class. And then this really hot looking girl comes out of nowhere from behind me and walks in front of me. She was like 5-6 ft ahead of me. I had my reflective shades on. She turns to the side and is maybe looking over her shoulder. Either that or she's looking to her extreme right. She does this twice. I thought she might be someone I know. My heart started beating a million miles a minute out of nowhere. I walked a bit quicker so I could get ahead of her and see her face to see if I knew her. Right before I could pass her, she goes up the stairs of the building that I had to pass by to get to my class which is in a building further ahead. Soon after this my heart rate comes back down. I was thinking to myself wtf afterwards
I feel like I was more social than I have been lately which is nice. Interestingly, at the end of class, that girl I mentioned earlier in my journal actually came over to talk to me and walk out of the classroom at the same time as me. Of course, we always talk during class, but usually I have to engage her at the end of class if she's gonna stay around. She didn't take the elevator down with me and the others after class, but still her initiating with me after class was over and waiting for me to pack up and walk out was new.
My female friend who's in the same class who I usually talk to afterwards texted me that I didn't wait for her today. Ever since the first day I've been on DMSI, she has been walking straight to her shuttle after class. We talk and walk usually and when we get to the sidewalk that goes to her shuttle she says bye and leaves. Before DMSI we would talk, pass that sidewalk, keep talking, and maybe she'd even follow me while I grabbed food and keep talking. I'm not attracted to her at all, so I thought DMSI was "repelling" her. I guess not since she texted me "Thanks for leaving me" and then a couple of minutes later "I was just joking. (Didn't see either text until a few minutes later)
When I got on the elevator, I noticed this one girl look and make eye contact for a good second or two. I realized that's the same girl that I saw outside the elevator another day. Both this time and the last time it was my voice that grabbed her attention when I wasn't talking to her.
Oh yeah, this morning, a random guy on the bus asked me what date it was. I told him the 8th. Then I realized he has a fricken iPhone in his hand and yeah it's functioning because I see him texting on it. So I guess he just wanted to talk to me? I have been noticing extended looks from guys since I've been on this sub.
I went to subway today (second time today at the same one). I don't know if the guy messed up or if he did it intentionally. I asked for a deluxe (1.5x the meat), the guy gave me 2x the meat which costs a bit more, but I was still charged for deluxe. Nice.
Thoughts
If any of these girls are "manifestations", then I expect to cross paths with them again and for one of the two to happen:
A. I initiate with them, it goes well and we end up having sex and it's great.
B. The girl initiates with me, it goes well, and we end up having sex and it's great.
I definitely feel like I need to will myself into a good space, but I'm fine with that. If that willing myself is what I need to do to have more enjoyable days and help the sub then I'm fine with that.
I downloaded v1. It's sitting on my computer.
For v3, since Shannon is going to stop making additions on the 21st, I hope that he'll include the latest and greatest anti-resistance tech, enhance the celeb vibe, include NSFM, and have the brain and body optimized for DMSI success.
-I made sure to wake up, say the anti-resistance statements and imagine DMSI executing. I think doing this is key for me to make progress faster. I've been doing it once a day since starting the program. Starting today, I'm doing it more often.
Now something sticks out to me here. Feel free to comment. I was walking to my class. And then this really hot looking girl comes out of nowhere from behind me and walks in front of me. She was like 5-6 ft ahead of me. I had my reflective shades on. She turns to the side and is maybe looking over her shoulder. Either that or she's looking to her extreme right. She does this twice. I thought she might be someone I know. My heart started beating a million miles a minute out of nowhere. I walked a bit quicker so I could get ahead of her and see her face to see if I knew her. Right before I could pass her, she goes up the stairs of the building that I had to pass by to get to my class which is in a building further ahead. Soon after this my heart rate comes back down. I was thinking to myself wtf afterwards
I feel like I was more social than I have been lately which is nice. Interestingly, at the end of class, that girl I mentioned earlier in my journal actually came over to talk to me and walk out of the classroom at the same time as me. Of course, we always talk during class, but usually I have to engage her at the end of class if she's gonna stay around. She didn't take the elevator down with me and the others after class, but still her initiating with me after class was over and waiting for me to pack up and walk out was new.
My female friend who's in the same class who I usually talk to afterwards texted me that I didn't wait for her today. Ever since the first day I've been on DMSI, she has been walking straight to her shuttle after class. We talk and walk usually and when we get to the sidewalk that goes to her shuttle she says bye and leaves. Before DMSI we would talk, pass that sidewalk, keep talking, and maybe she'd even follow me while I grabbed food and keep talking. I'm not attracted to her at all, so I thought DMSI was "repelling" her. I guess not since she texted me "Thanks for leaving me" and then a couple of minutes later "I was just joking. (Didn't see either text until a few minutes later)
When I got on the elevator, I noticed this one girl look and make eye contact for a good second or two. I realized that's the same girl that I saw outside the elevator another day. Both this time and the last time it was my voice that grabbed her attention when I wasn't talking to her.
Oh yeah, this morning, a random guy on the bus asked me what date it was. I told him the 8th. Then I realized he has a fricken iPhone in his hand and yeah it's functioning because I see him texting on it. So I guess he just wanted to talk to me? I have been noticing extended looks from guys since I've been on this sub.
I went to subway today (second time today at the same one). I don't know if the guy messed up or if he did it intentionally. I asked for a deluxe (1.5x the meat), the guy gave me 2x the meat which costs a bit more, but I was still charged for deluxe. Nice.
Thoughts
If any of these girls are "manifestations", then I expect to cross paths with them again and for one of the two to happen:
A. I initiate with them, it goes well and we end up having sex and it's great.
B. The girl initiates with me, it goes well, and we end up having sex and it's great.
I definitely feel like I need to will myself into a good space, but I'm fine with that. If that willing myself is what I need to do to have more enjoyable days and help the sub then I'm fine with that.
I downloaded v1. It's sitting on my computer.
For v3, since Shannon is going to stop making additions on the 21st, I hope that he'll include the latest and greatest anti-resistance tech, enhance the celeb vibe, include NSFM, and have the brain and body optimized for DMSI success.
