09-14-2011, 05:56 PM
(This post was last modified: 09-14-2011, 05:58 PM by LionMonkey.)
Stage 2 - Day 30
Today I started my day by teaching a class of kids with my trainer. I was uncomfortable on the way to the hall we were going to meet the class. My voice cracked and I just didn't feel very comfortable talking with my trainer and I had a hard time looking people in the eyes when I talked with them, except my trainer. (I found it very weird.. maybe it was because of my only 5 hours sleep and that I was in a rush this morning).
We dealt the class up in 2, so me and my trainer got half each. The kids were great today. I was proud of what they had learned when I tested them.
After the lesson I felt much better and was way more authentic. I also noticed that my head was held up and my vision was over the horizon, which made people look at me like they couldn't do anything about it.
Wanted to meet some buddies, now when I was nearby but no one were home or took their call. So I decided to go home but in the last minute, I met an old friend of mine from back in mid-school. He had a date tonight. Good for him. Would love to heart how it went later this week though I kinda felt that it was a "date", coffee and cake on a café, which sounds a bit too tight to me.
Took home, did my affirmations and felt great!
When I arrived at the Salsa class I had never felt so comfortable with myself before. Women, who I used to doubt a bit (judged, by their body-language and actions) wanted me to like them and they were much more open than ever. The mood was also high and fun which definitely had an effect on that too. I could see out of my corner of my eyes that the girl around my age sometimes couldn't stop but stare at me for a while or just stealing a moment when all I did was just gazing and "knowing" ;-)
It's funny I didn't doubt at the first salsa class but I got off balance and I actually got a bit needy, not a lot but it was needy since I felt I wanted something to happen and now I kinda see something new and more grounded belief.
- LM
Today I started my day by teaching a class of kids with my trainer. I was uncomfortable on the way to the hall we were going to meet the class. My voice cracked and I just didn't feel very comfortable talking with my trainer and I had a hard time looking people in the eyes when I talked with them, except my trainer. (I found it very weird.. maybe it was because of my only 5 hours sleep and that I was in a rush this morning).
We dealt the class up in 2, so me and my trainer got half each. The kids were great today. I was proud of what they had learned when I tested them.
After the lesson I felt much better and was way more authentic. I also noticed that my head was held up and my vision was over the horizon, which made people look at me like they couldn't do anything about it.
Wanted to meet some buddies, now when I was nearby but no one were home or took their call. So I decided to go home but in the last minute, I met an old friend of mine from back in mid-school. He had a date tonight. Good for him. Would love to heart how it went later this week though I kinda felt that it was a "date", coffee and cake on a café, which sounds a bit too tight to me.
Took home, did my affirmations and felt great!
When I arrived at the Salsa class I had never felt so comfortable with myself before. Women, who I used to doubt a bit (judged, by their body-language and actions) wanted me to like them and they were much more open than ever. The mood was also high and fun which definitely had an effect on that too. I could see out of my corner of my eyes that the girl around my age sometimes couldn't stop but stare at me for a while or just stealing a moment when all I did was just gazing and "knowing" ;-)
It's funny I didn't doubt at the first salsa class but I got off balance and I actually got a bit needy, not a lot but it was needy since I felt I wanted something to happen and now I kinda see something new and more grounded belief.
- LM
1. Do whatever you want.. risk whatever your gut tells you because.. you know you have good intentions.
2. Pressure forms the man.
3. Clarity gives space for better decisions.
