11-03-2016, 03:03 PM
It feels like any program with healing in it limits me in one way or another. That's fine though as long as the end goal is achieved.
A bus driver who hasn't seen me in a long time noticed me and was glad to see me. I was quite surprised. I only got on his bus maybe 5 times or less over the past few years. It kind of surprised me that he remembered me and was so glad to see me again.
Outside of that, nothing else really stood out.
I realized that I equate power to sexiness and vice versa.
I feel like at this point in my life, I deserve a whole solid year of doing whatever I want. And no matter what I do, it goes my way. I legit feel like I deserve this.
In my mind I thought to myself today that in terms of girls, if things happened in my favor at least 50% of the time, I'd be much more likely to act. I'd be WAY WAY happier with a pure 50/50 chance everytime I talked to a new girl. If I could roll a pair of dice of if I get a certain number it'd be an epic day, I'd like that. Because then I'd know that the chance of that happening is fair, it's known, and it's something to look forward to.
I don't care what Shannon says about being a jellyfish. I really don't want to invest time in approaching girls until I'm 100% sure that whatever "block" I had with achieving sex is gone. Once that block is gone and I know I'm not wasting time, I'd be much more willing. As I said earlier, if a hot girl would just come up to me and call me hot I'd have no problem taking it from there.
And sex drive is a bitch atm. I'd rather have no sex drive and be a bit happier than to have sex drive, see hot girls, and not have sex.
A bus driver who hasn't seen me in a long time noticed me and was glad to see me. I was quite surprised. I only got on his bus maybe 5 times or less over the past few years. It kind of surprised me that he remembered me and was so glad to see me again.
Outside of that, nothing else really stood out.
I realized that I equate power to sexiness and vice versa.
I feel like at this point in my life, I deserve a whole solid year of doing whatever I want. And no matter what I do, it goes my way. I legit feel like I deserve this.
In my mind I thought to myself today that in terms of girls, if things happened in my favor at least 50% of the time, I'd be much more likely to act. I'd be WAY WAY happier with a pure 50/50 chance everytime I talked to a new girl. If I could roll a pair of dice of if I get a certain number it'd be an epic day, I'd like that. Because then I'd know that the chance of that happening is fair, it's known, and it's something to look forward to.
I don't care what Shannon says about being a jellyfish. I really don't want to invest time in approaching girls until I'm 100% sure that whatever "block" I had with achieving sex is gone. Once that block is gone and I know I'm not wasting time, I'd be much more willing. As I said earlier, if a hot girl would just come up to me and call me hot I'd have no problem taking it from there.
And sex drive is a bitch atm. I'd rather have no sex drive and be a bit happier than to have sex drive, see hot girls, and not have sex.
