11-02-2016, 04:01 PM
I'll be honest, today's been irritating. It wasn't like this the whole day, but as the day went on I got more irritated. I'm a bit better now though.
-I'm getting irritated about my sex drive being back (not as strong near the end of E2 yet...) and not having sex when I see all these hot girls around
-in the library, I got on the elevator at the same time as this hot girl. She asked me about one of the floor options. The elevator has two different stops for the same floor. I don't know if she was new to the campus or what. Not enough concrete evidence. She didn't say anything else after I answered her question and she had already pressed the button for both stops. I got out and went straight ahead to refill my water bottle. She came the same way, made a right, and then another right. She could have came out the elevator and just made a right and gotten to where she was going quicker probably (I didn't watch where she was going, but it looked that way). So either she was new or just wanted to walk the same direction as me. Either way, she was hot. And no, I didn't just have something to say to her. And I was in a hurry to change clothes and get my class. So that was not a manifestation. For me, a manifestation is when a hot girl appears, approaches/initiates convo with me (I can take it from here, but she should be getting my number too), and ultimately it results in sex. If it's not that, it's not a manifestation.
-I didn't talk to this girl in my dance class and I felt irritated at myself for not doing it. It's been a few weeks since I felt like that. I just have conflicted feelings. She needs to gym, really. And if she did, she'd be hot. I don't have time right now to train anyone (as my friend suggested lol), I barely have time to burn my own fat let alone someone else's. I'm just conflicted. I don't like feeling like that.
-btw, no I haven't watched porn/masturbated since I said I'd seriously stop. Usually, I'd watch porn and go ham on it and afterwards feel better. But starting at the end of E2, porn didn't satisfy me in the longer term anymore. I'd go ham on porn one night, wake up the next morning, see a hot girl and STILL get a semi, so that doesn't work anymore...
Thoughts
It's just irritating dealing with my sex drive. Seriously.
Like I just want the hot girls to come to me now so I can have this whole sex thing taken care of. I'm not even in college for a degree. I'm "getting a degree" in something I'm interested in so my parents will pay for me to be here so I can have fun and new social experiences. That's really my main reason for being here. Sex is near the top of the list. So that's what I'd like. At the same time, I know this is still in beta testing so I can't expect it to work 100%.
The only compelling reason for me to use DMSI at the moment is for the clearing. I know that I can use as much clearing as possible in this area of my life. I just don't feel as loose and free as I did during my week off. I'm really hoping that NSFM in 3.0 brings back the carefree feels.
-I'm getting irritated about my sex drive being back (not as strong near the end of E2 yet...) and not having sex when I see all these hot girls around
-in the library, I got on the elevator at the same time as this hot girl. She asked me about one of the floor options. The elevator has two different stops for the same floor. I don't know if she was new to the campus or what. Not enough concrete evidence. She didn't say anything else after I answered her question and she had already pressed the button for both stops. I got out and went straight ahead to refill my water bottle. She came the same way, made a right, and then another right. She could have came out the elevator and just made a right and gotten to where she was going quicker probably (I didn't watch where she was going, but it looked that way). So either she was new or just wanted to walk the same direction as me. Either way, she was hot. And no, I didn't just have something to say to her. And I was in a hurry to change clothes and get my class. So that was not a manifestation. For me, a manifestation is when a hot girl appears, approaches/initiates convo with me (I can take it from here, but she should be getting my number too), and ultimately it results in sex. If it's not that, it's not a manifestation.
-I didn't talk to this girl in my dance class and I felt irritated at myself for not doing it. It's been a few weeks since I felt like that. I just have conflicted feelings. She needs to gym, really. And if she did, she'd be hot. I don't have time right now to train anyone (as my friend suggested lol), I barely have time to burn my own fat let alone someone else's. I'm just conflicted. I don't like feeling like that.
-btw, no I haven't watched porn/masturbated since I said I'd seriously stop. Usually, I'd watch porn and go ham on it and afterwards feel better. But starting at the end of E2, porn didn't satisfy me in the longer term anymore. I'd go ham on porn one night, wake up the next morning, see a hot girl and STILL get a semi, so that doesn't work anymore...
Thoughts
It's just irritating dealing with my sex drive. Seriously.
Like I just want the hot girls to come to me now so I can have this whole sex thing taken care of. I'm not even in college for a degree. I'm "getting a degree" in something I'm interested in so my parents will pay for me to be here so I can have fun and new social experiences. That's really my main reason for being here. Sex is near the top of the list. So that's what I'd like. At the same time, I know this is still in beta testing so I can't expect it to work 100%.
The only compelling reason for me to use DMSI at the moment is for the clearing. I know that I can use as much clearing as possible in this area of my life. I just don't feel as loose and free as I did during my week off. I'm really hoping that NSFM in 3.0 brings back the carefree feels.
