10-19-2016, 08:47 PM
So, I had my blood tests done. I will be seeing the doc next Tuesday for results.
To be a bit more clear, My health has been poor for the last 2 months I would say. Of course I've had the odd day where I've gotten laid (I didn't expect it either to be honest lol). This journey with subs can go from elatation to frustration in the span of a day, but it's never without growth and learning something new about your experience.
As for lessons, I've had a few wake up calls the last few days. Namely, not treating people who care about you like shit. I reached a bit of a dark place and took out my fears and sadness out on my family and friends. It was a bit of a slap in the face (much needed one) to really take a good look at the man I'm becoming and who I want to be remembered as. All is good now, I did some clean up, took responsibility, and faced a big fear to boot.
Another interesting thing is how creative and inspired I've been the last 2 days. I guess I've been sort of transmuting my fear of dying young and having achieved nothing into motivation to leave a legacy when I die. I practiced rapping and played music for hours yesterday (even whilst fatigued as hell). I felt so inspired. Time to record and get my stuff out there. Life's short.
Welcome to my bi polar journal
To be a bit more clear, My health has been poor for the last 2 months I would say. Of course I've had the odd day where I've gotten laid (I didn't expect it either to be honest lol). This journey with subs can go from elatation to frustration in the span of a day, but it's never without growth and learning something new about your experience.
As for lessons, I've had a few wake up calls the last few days. Namely, not treating people who care about you like shit. I reached a bit of a dark place and took out my fears and sadness out on my family and friends. It was a bit of a slap in the face (much needed one) to really take a good look at the man I'm becoming and who I want to be remembered as. All is good now, I did some clean up, took responsibility, and faced a big fear to boot.
Another interesting thing is how creative and inspired I've been the last 2 days. I guess I've been sort of transmuting my fear of dying young and having achieved nothing into motivation to leave a legacy when I die. I practiced rapping and played music for hours yesterday (even whilst fatigued as hell). I felt so inspired. Time to record and get my stuff out there. Life's short.
Welcome to my bi polar journal
