08-24-2011, 04:45 PM
(This post was last modified: 08-24-2011, 04:57 PM by LionMonkey.)
Stage 2 - Day 12
I'll tell a story this time and then you can get a feel of how things are going around with me...
Earlier today I went to a Salsa Class I've signed up to. Never taken classes in any forms of dancing. Just wanted to try something new out and how fun it was! (Strangely though, when I was about to leave the house, I said "I don't even understand why I've taken this class.. I don't feel like doing it..).
Got there, met up, 2 older couples 30-50 years and... me. Time passes, 15 people had not showed up.
A thought of, wtf?! popped up in my mind but before it could have an emotional effect on me I let it pass and just steer my direction positively that I was there to learn some Salsa.
So we begin to learn the basics. 10 minutes later the 15 people shows up. Misdirection they had got.
We were about 10 who came without a partner, and 5 couples. One of the couples were around my age and I noticed the girl quickly.. "she could be fun".
Social it got, changing partners, fun basic moves. Some clumsiness and laughs. Getting closer to each other. Arm around the partner, hands on her back. Never got to dance with the girl though.
Had a fine flow in my moves, (6 years of martial arts has definitely also helped me with the movements and the hips! 8-))
I did my thing.. focusing, smiling, laughing (sometimes for no reason) and very little talking. Just had a positive, light but a bit intense, subtle vibe. Looking at my partner, in the eyes. Many partners wasn't comfortable looking back, yet I keep catching the other women looking.. like starring sometimes. I've always been the more non-verbally explicit guy. I usually don't talk to just to talk, yet I do try to be polite and not rude when I meet new people.
Me and the petite, curvy blond girl around my age caught each others eyes in a moment and she looked away after 2 seconds or so. She was standing in front of the guy she came with. After that I just knew. We made eyecontact again a few times, when I looked at her, how sexy she moved her hips.
Had a ton of fun. Time passed. Class was over. Sweaty sexy people
I find my seat to change shoes. The blond girl takes a chair and change hers so I had to get pass her in order to get out. She sent the guy away for a moment. I just knew she did it on purpose
She noticed that I was about to get out and said something "polite" and moved to the side. I just looked at her for a brief moment when I walked past.
On the way out I hear the couple behind me. I go over to get my bike and when I looked up, I see the guy looking at me and smiling at his bike. I gave a sly smile back and thought lol. The girl was standing in the open with her bike and he went over to her. She sent him inside. I thought, on purpose again!!!
Anyways.. I get on my bike and as I got close to her, she expected I would come, she looks up and we said bye as I cycled past her.
I have no idea why I didn't do anything about it though. So many opportunities! So many signs! Yet I didn't do anything.
Actually lately I've just been doing very brief interactions with girls I find interesting and I know that I'm gonna see them again.
Besides that, I've had some sexual dreams. I had one where there was this girl that was deformed. Very odd.
Self-assurance has increased a lot and I'm much better at making my own fun in moments, where I just feel bored.
- LM
I'll tell a story this time and then you can get a feel of how things are going around with me...
Earlier today I went to a Salsa Class I've signed up to. Never taken classes in any forms of dancing. Just wanted to try something new out and how fun it was! (Strangely though, when I was about to leave the house, I said "I don't even understand why I've taken this class.. I don't feel like doing it..).
Got there, met up, 2 older couples 30-50 years and... me. Time passes, 15 people had not showed up.
A thought of, wtf?! popped up in my mind but before it could have an emotional effect on me I let it pass and just steer my direction positively that I was there to learn some Salsa.
So we begin to learn the basics. 10 minutes later the 15 people shows up. Misdirection they had got.
We were about 10 who came without a partner, and 5 couples. One of the couples were around my age and I noticed the girl quickly.. "she could be fun".
Social it got, changing partners, fun basic moves. Some clumsiness and laughs. Getting closer to each other. Arm around the partner, hands on her back. Never got to dance with the girl though.
Had a fine flow in my moves, (6 years of martial arts has definitely also helped me with the movements and the hips! 8-))
I did my thing.. focusing, smiling, laughing (sometimes for no reason) and very little talking. Just had a positive, light but a bit intense, subtle vibe. Looking at my partner, in the eyes. Many partners wasn't comfortable looking back, yet I keep catching the other women looking.. like starring sometimes. I've always been the more non-verbally explicit guy. I usually don't talk to just to talk, yet I do try to be polite and not rude when I meet new people.
Me and the petite, curvy blond girl around my age caught each others eyes in a moment and she looked away after 2 seconds or so. She was standing in front of the guy she came with. After that I just knew. We made eyecontact again a few times, when I looked at her, how sexy she moved her hips.
Had a ton of fun. Time passed. Class was over. Sweaty sexy people
I find my seat to change shoes. The blond girl takes a chair and change hers so I had to get pass her in order to get out. She sent the guy away for a moment. I just knew she did it on purpose
She noticed that I was about to get out and said something "polite" and moved to the side. I just looked at her for a brief moment when I walked past.
On the way out I hear the couple behind me. I go over to get my bike and when I looked up, I see the guy looking at me and smiling at his bike. I gave a sly smile back and thought lol. The girl was standing in the open with her bike and he went over to her. She sent him inside. I thought, on purpose again!!!
Anyways.. I get on my bike and as I got close to her, she expected I would come, she looks up and we said bye as I cycled past her.
I have no idea why I didn't do anything about it though. So many opportunities! So many signs! Yet I didn't do anything.
Actually lately I've just been doing very brief interactions with girls I find interesting and I know that I'm gonna see them again.
Besides that, I've had some sexual dreams. I had one where there was this girl that was deformed. Very odd.
Self-assurance has increased a lot and I'm much better at making my own fun in moments, where I just feel bored.
- LM
1. Do whatever you want.. risk whatever your gut tells you because.. you know you have good intentions.
2. Pressure forms the man.
3. Clarity gives space for better decisions.
