Day 36
My last post for DMSI V2.4.
I haven't done a very good job of recording everything that happened over the past 36 days with DMSI, so here's some of the major changes that happened.
I spoke about someone I lost - this is the biggest one because I never talk about her. I buried her so deep in my heart, that I never bothered to look back. This was, in and of itself, one of my biggest breakthroughs.
I changed my diet - I've gone the keto diet for the past 3 weeks and holding strong. My body has finally adjusted and I've learned to cook more dishes that suit my palette and new diet.
Cooking - I love cooking, but haven't been doing it much over the past few years. Now I do it regularly. It's actually really therapeutic because of all of the cutting, chopping, frying, grilling, roasting. It really does relieve stress.
Joined a startup - still at my 9 to 5, but as of last week I started working with a new startup. It's pretty exciting stuff and I see potential with where this one can go.
Recently got in touch with some women I had locked out of my life - the reason for locking them out had nothing to do with anything they did wrong or anything they said. It was because they had gotten too close to me. And I tend to shut people out when that happens. Looking back, I regret that happening, I lost time with them. And at the end of the day, the only thing we all really have is time. And it's always running out on us.
Dealt with a lot of emotional garbage - It had gotten so bad that I ended up taking a few days off from work and didn't leave my place. Basically ended up staying indoors for roughly four days while I tried to process my emotional issues.
That last ones been coming and going - I haven't been outside since Saturday afternoon, and I spent most of today in bed.
I had somewhat of an emotional breakthrough again this evening when something from long ago re-surfaced and I somehow processed it. I also realized after that happened that I needed a break from Subs. I've been doing the subs pretty consistently everyday and or night since 2.3 came out.
I'm going to wait until Thursday before I start DMSI 2.5. I need a few days to just taper off of 2.4 and let my brain process whatever it needed to process.
Looking back, there are huge changes that had occurred in the time span of a month. I didn't journal a lot of it probably because I mostly posted from my phone and it's hard to write out long posts from a mobile device. Today I had a chance to sit down on my laptop and really think it all through.
I wanted to take a moment to thank everyone in this community. Reading everyone else's journals, and knowing that so many of us had similar experiences made this journey a lot more fruitful for me. The community was also my one place of interaction several times over the past three weeks when I would go into hermit mode. At those times I didn't really communicate with anyone as I tried to process what I was feeling and what was happening.
To everyone who is taking on the 2.5 journey now - I'm looking forward to reading about all of your successes and hopefully sharing a few of my own.
Onwards and Upwards...
My last post for DMSI V2.4.
I haven't done a very good job of recording everything that happened over the past 36 days with DMSI, so here's some of the major changes that happened.
I spoke about someone I lost - this is the biggest one because I never talk about her. I buried her so deep in my heart, that I never bothered to look back. This was, in and of itself, one of my biggest breakthroughs.
I changed my diet - I've gone the keto diet for the past 3 weeks and holding strong. My body has finally adjusted and I've learned to cook more dishes that suit my palette and new diet.
Cooking - I love cooking, but haven't been doing it much over the past few years. Now I do it regularly. It's actually really therapeutic because of all of the cutting, chopping, frying, grilling, roasting. It really does relieve stress.
Joined a startup - still at my 9 to 5, but as of last week I started working with a new startup. It's pretty exciting stuff and I see potential with where this one can go.
Recently got in touch with some women I had locked out of my life - the reason for locking them out had nothing to do with anything they did wrong or anything they said. It was because they had gotten too close to me. And I tend to shut people out when that happens. Looking back, I regret that happening, I lost time with them. And at the end of the day, the only thing we all really have is time. And it's always running out on us.
Dealt with a lot of emotional garbage - It had gotten so bad that I ended up taking a few days off from work and didn't leave my place. Basically ended up staying indoors for roughly four days while I tried to process my emotional issues.
That last ones been coming and going - I haven't been outside since Saturday afternoon, and I spent most of today in bed.
I had somewhat of an emotional breakthrough again this evening when something from long ago re-surfaced and I somehow processed it. I also realized after that happened that I needed a break from Subs. I've been doing the subs pretty consistently everyday and or night since 2.3 came out.
I'm going to wait until Thursday before I start DMSI 2.5. I need a few days to just taper off of 2.4 and let my brain process whatever it needed to process.
Looking back, there are huge changes that had occurred in the time span of a month. I didn't journal a lot of it probably because I mostly posted from my phone and it's hard to write out long posts from a mobile device. Today I had a chance to sit down on my laptop and really think it all through.
I wanted to take a moment to thank everyone in this community. Reading everyone else's journals, and knowing that so many of us had similar experiences made this journey a lot more fruitful for me. The community was also my one place of interaction several times over the past three weeks when I would go into hermit mode. At those times I didn't really communicate with anyone as I tried to process what I was feeling and what was happening.
To everyone who is taking on the 2.5 journey now - I'm looking forward to reading about all of your successes and hopefully sharing a few of my own.
Onwards and Upwards...
