10-04-2016, 11:46 AM
(This post was last modified: 10-04-2016, 11:48 AM by OberynMartell.)
Don't know how to change the title, I used v2.3 and now on v2.4.
A lot has changed since my last update. I'm guessing I need a lot of healing, because last Friday shit hit the fan. What happened was the following:
I had a blast with the girl I was seeing, but something seemed of the last 2 weeks. It seemed like she was avoiding me a bit, her tone in her texts changed. The last time that had happened (pre-DMSI) she was seeing another guy. I never talked to her about that. So, we were at a birthday, and again I noticed some subtle ways she tried to avoid me. Small things, but also when I was in the middle of a story she leaves and goes to talk to some other guys. That was strange. At the club, while the alcohol was flowing richly, again the same thing. Now I should tell you, I'm currently on the keto diet, a diet I had great success with in the past, and starting again. I kinda forgot that drinking on this diet is not a good idea. I got drunk, very quickly. At first I had fun, but then I exploded. Every fear, every time she hurt me, all came out at the same time. I cried. Yeah, not my best moment.
So we talked last Sunday. It was a very difficult talk for me, I adored this girl. I felt devastated when she told me she wanted to stop seeing me and not only because of Friday. She wasn't feeling it anymore. She did not see another guy, she assured me.
Yesterday was horrible...today I felt great. I have this feeling that it's good that it happened. My head feels so much better, it's a liberating feeling I'm having. I think it has to do with all of the worries I had. She's gone, they're gone. I'm asking myself how it is that I'm over it so quickly? Is it the healing of DMSI? Because in the past, there was a time that I was crying for 3 months straight. And now 1 day and with the girl I thought at some point was the one?
This is a long story, but all thanks to DMSI. There was a time I wouldn't even believe a girl could like me. Now I rather have my heart broken, than never to felt love in the first place. And now my experiences with v2.4:
-I need the healing, maybe that's why it manifested in such a crazy way, I will have to learn from this
-Often I do notice girls looking at me, but still not like AoSI
-Very easy talking to people
I am anxiously awaiting for v3.0, the things I read from Shannon's journal are quite exiting
A lot has changed since my last update. I'm guessing I need a lot of healing, because last Friday shit hit the fan. What happened was the following:
I had a blast with the girl I was seeing, but something seemed of the last 2 weeks. It seemed like she was avoiding me a bit, her tone in her texts changed. The last time that had happened (pre-DMSI) she was seeing another guy. I never talked to her about that. So, we were at a birthday, and again I noticed some subtle ways she tried to avoid me. Small things, but also when I was in the middle of a story she leaves and goes to talk to some other guys. That was strange. At the club, while the alcohol was flowing richly, again the same thing. Now I should tell you, I'm currently on the keto diet, a diet I had great success with in the past, and starting again. I kinda forgot that drinking on this diet is not a good idea. I got drunk, very quickly. At first I had fun, but then I exploded. Every fear, every time she hurt me, all came out at the same time. I cried. Yeah, not my best moment.
So we talked last Sunday. It was a very difficult talk for me, I adored this girl. I felt devastated when she told me she wanted to stop seeing me and not only because of Friday. She wasn't feeling it anymore. She did not see another guy, she assured me.
Yesterday was horrible...today I felt great. I have this feeling that it's good that it happened. My head feels so much better, it's a liberating feeling I'm having. I think it has to do with all of the worries I had. She's gone, they're gone. I'm asking myself how it is that I'm over it so quickly? Is it the healing of DMSI? Because in the past, there was a time that I was crying for 3 months straight. And now 1 day and with the girl I thought at some point was the one?
This is a long story, but all thanks to DMSI. There was a time I wouldn't even believe a girl could like me. Now I rather have my heart broken, than never to felt love in the first place. And now my experiences with v2.4:
-I need the healing, maybe that's why it manifested in such a crazy way, I will have to learn from this
-Often I do notice girls looking at me, but still not like AoSI
-Very easy talking to people
I am anxiously awaiting for v3.0, the things I read from Shannon's journal are quite exiting
"It is a big and beautiful world. Most of us live and die in the same corner where we were born and never get to see any of it. I don't want to be most of us.'"
