08-03-2011, 04:41 PM
Anyway, barring my need of venting last night. I was pretty upset that my female friend didn't hold our friendship at the very least to the same regards as I did. Nothing I can do about that. Moving on.
That resistance I talked about the other day seems to be gone. Something in me is snapping into place. I'm finding myself a little trapped when I'm living at home with my family and unable to move out until I finish MT school, so what I guess I'm trying to say is that I really want to get out of here and live on my own (or with roommates, but away from family).
I have a few more days to determine whether or not I want to start SM2011 directly after AM2011. I think I could, although I'm not sure. For me, I have no job, no car, and no money, so I can manage doing social things that involve money. I've been wanting to get more of a social life lately as well.
So I guess even though I am in school, the first step is finding a job. I've never held both a job + school but I know I can manage this properly. But now to find a job...
Anyway, a note about the sub, I have difficulty discerning what is going on because it all just feels so natural as it's coming out. The earlier stages, it was somewhat easier to see what was going on, but now I can't really see the changes going on. I'm guessing that little resistance the other day was just me overcoming something in my subconscious.
That resistance I talked about the other day seems to be gone. Something in me is snapping into place. I'm finding myself a little trapped when I'm living at home with my family and unable to move out until I finish MT school, so what I guess I'm trying to say is that I really want to get out of here and live on my own (or with roommates, but away from family).
I have a few more days to determine whether or not I want to start SM2011 directly after AM2011. I think I could, although I'm not sure. For me, I have no job, no car, and no money, so I can manage doing social things that involve money. I've been wanting to get more of a social life lately as well.
So I guess even though I am in school, the first step is finding a job. I've never held both a job + school but I know I can manage this properly. But now to find a job...
Anyway, a note about the sub, I have difficulty discerning what is going on because it all just feels so natural as it's coming out. The earlier stages, it was somewhat easier to see what was going on, but now I can't really see the changes going on. I'm guessing that little resistance the other day was just me overcoming something in my subconscious.
