09-16-2016, 06:45 PM
Day 12
I ran 3 loops while I slept and then another 2 this morning. I needed a few days before I could run the 5 again back-to-back. I'll be running them again from tonight and use this weekend to recuperate some.
Today was nice - I wasn't euphoric but I also wasn't as angry. It was a pretty calm, serene day. I didn't feel much in the way of sexy so much, more just comfortable.
A couple of things to note - I did catch a few women's eyes and held their gaze for a few seconds. I thought of a lot of things to say to them, but I didn't actually say anything. This was mainly due to the fact that I was tired and didn't want to interact. This again could also have been my own deep rooted fears stopping me. I can't say for certain today. I am sure there is some resistance that I am working through, but after only 12 days, my personal progress in terms of how I feel has changed significantly.
One interesting observation from yesterday and today is that I have become much more empathetic to people. I almost feel like I can read their minds and understand what they are thinking. It's only happened with a few of the guys I know, but, that has been something that I noticed just recently.
I've also grown a bit more comfortable with the sub and much less impatient in terms of an expected outcome or result. I suppose the only way that I can describe it is that I am enjoying the journey more than the destination.
For now, it's one day at a time.
I ran 3 loops while I slept and then another 2 this morning. I needed a few days before I could run the 5 again back-to-back. I'll be running them again from tonight and use this weekend to recuperate some.
Today was nice - I wasn't euphoric but I also wasn't as angry. It was a pretty calm, serene day. I didn't feel much in the way of sexy so much, more just comfortable.
A couple of things to note - I did catch a few women's eyes and held their gaze for a few seconds. I thought of a lot of things to say to them, but I didn't actually say anything. This was mainly due to the fact that I was tired and didn't want to interact. This again could also have been my own deep rooted fears stopping me. I can't say for certain today. I am sure there is some resistance that I am working through, but after only 12 days, my personal progress in terms of how I feel has changed significantly.
One interesting observation from yesterday and today is that I have become much more empathetic to people. I almost feel like I can read their minds and understand what they are thinking. It's only happened with a few of the guys I know, but, that has been something that I noticed just recently.
I've also grown a bit more comfortable with the sub and much less impatient in terms of an expected outcome or result. I suppose the only way that I can describe it is that I am enjoying the journey more than the destination.
For now, it's one day at a time.
