09-07-2016, 06:13 PM
(09-07-2016, 05:59 PM)Duke.Togo Wrote:(09-06-2016, 07:49 PM)chaosvrgn Wrote:(09-06-2016, 06:56 PM)Duke.Togo Wrote:(09-06-2016, 05:53 PM)Shannon Wrote: What you are describing is the effect of the significant increase in power level between 2.3 and 2.4.It's funny though, in some ways, I feel like I'm having an out of body experience. Not from an astral sense, but more like, I'm living someone else's life and the person whose reflection I see in the mirror isn't me.
I realize though that is partially resistance and partially transformative. As I change, there is an image of who I was before and the outer takes time to conform to the inner.
It's surreal though.
Yes, experiencing this same thing. I described it as waking up in some parallel reality. Something that's really weird... I can't even remember what it was like to be my old self. It's almost like that reality never existed.
I thought I wanted v2.3 with healing, but v2.4 is on another level awesomeness.
I had less of that feeling today. I actually felt a bit more grounded this morning. It comes and goes though. I think the midday rage that carried into the early evening for me helped really ground me, because it was my anger I was feeling, not someone else's.
Still, when I look in the mirror, I don't completely recognize the person staring back at me. I feel like that's not the person I want to be anymore.
With 2.3 I felt really aggressive all of the time. With 2.4 I haven't felt that way until what happened today.
Part of me likes that aggression, and part of me is trying to rid myself of it.
Not sure it's an alpha male thing as much as it is my pride was unnecessarily bruised. I need more time to understand everything that's happening to me though.
How are you feeling? Do you still feel like you're in a parallel universe?
Somewhat. It's hard to explain. It's like I'm pulling a future reality into existence. Like, I already believe that I have MSI, or I'm moving in that direction and that reality is also being drawn towards me. And within a few months, we'll meet together in the middle.
Oddly enough, I'm also feeling very optimistic about business and my finances. Was talking to my partner today, we were going over future numbers and what we wanted to achieve in October. He said my goal of $7.5k in profit (meaning about 10k in revenue) was aggressive, yet realistic. He noted that in the past, I always undershot my earning potential by overthinking things...