benjamin Wrote:Ok something i'm noticing here. It may or may not be true, but will give you something to think about.
Your saying stuff like "I don't want to sleep with somebody just to lose my virginity" and "I think in society guys are pressured a lot more to lose their virginity just for the sake of getting laid."
Which on the surface sounds perfectly reasonable.
But be sure you aren't saying this stuff because of some fear or insecurity, which I think may be the case.
Either fear or insecurity is definitely a factor, I won't lie about that. I lived in fear for so long that the normal desire for interaction with women pretty much dissolved on it's own and alpha male just compounded that. I see what you are saying though and trust me there have been times where I've deluded myself into believing that I'm a virgin by choice. But you know you get to a certain point after not having something and you generally don't care anymore. It stops being a necessity and you see it as more of a luxury. Or maybe my sex drive isn't that high, who knows. Or maybe it is fear masking itself as something else. I'm not saying that I don't want to have sex, but I'm more of a guy that just lets things unfold and when the opportunity arises I'll take it.
Also after finishing alpha you really just feel complete by yourself. I've pretty much dropped any self help and I just do the subliminals now and occasionally meditate. But my fear is still present and it manifests itself as extreme indifference which is what I would like to get handled.
