07-19-2011, 07:12 AM
I came to the realization today that in a sense everything is as it is, not as it should be. This concept does spread over a lot of different areas, but the more specific insight that I gathered was that after I wasn’t aware of a certain fact and made an error in judgment because of this. I quickly started to journey towards the thought “That’s so stupid, I should’ve known that!” But shortly after it hit me, I didn’t know. I couldn’t possibly have known, my current circumstances never led me towards the understanding of that fact. Until today. So in that situation, how could I act accordingly without the proper knowledge to do so? I couldn’t. Did I choose willfully to not know this? I wasn't aware of it, so there wasn't a decision to be made. And what’s the point in negating and shaming myself for this? Does it improve the situation, no. I already have learned what there was to learn from this situation and I won’t make the same mistake again. Also it’s not like people after shaming myself will go on patting me on the back saying “You shamed yourself wonderfully, son. By demeaning and robbing yourself of your self-esteem you showed yourself worthy of my (superior and everlasting) forgiveness for the things you couldn’t possibly know, but should’ve known.” It just doesn’t make sense.
There have been more realizations and changes due to the subliminals that I want to share here, I do have to confess that it's hard for me to be exact about them and being able to put them in words that do justice to the things that changed so far. But if all fails, I'll at least be able to summarize them.
There have been more realizations and changes due to the subliminals that I want to share here, I do have to confess that it's hard for me to be exact about them and being able to put them in words that do justice to the things that changed so far. But if all fails, I'll at least be able to summarize them.
