Shannon's Journal

[Shannon]

Yeah i've once again dropped the other subliminal and am focusing just on Alpha.

Though all along i've still been doing EFT and other stuff which could have a similar effect. But if I don't I will have to put my life on hold as i'm working on becoming independent, earning more money etc.. which i'm starting to get more drive to do.

I actually found an interesting inner conflict.

It's like everybody gives me crap for not having a 'proper job' or 'working more'. So I feel bad and feel guilty I don't have a job.

But at the same time I don't want some crap job that I hate, so if I look for a job I also feel bad and guilty about it.

Hmm.. interesting so I decided to let go of even looking for a job and find other ways, i've actually started a online blog where I am offering skype EFT sessions to people who want to let go of what is attracting violence/fights to them. As i've made alot of progress with that.

I'm not really getting interest for it yet, though that is partly because of my own conflicting beliefs preventing that.

-Ben

Getting off the beaten path and away from "conventional wisdom" that says go to school, get a job, work hard, and die, is not going to be easy.

It always amazes me how people try so hard to force everyone who wants to walk their own path to walk the path they are walking instead.

To get to where I am, I have had to fight hard and put up with a lot of dissent and BS from a lot of people. There have been a lot of times I was uncertain if I was doing the right thing because there was so much dissent. What got me here was having carefully planned my goals in the first place and sticking to my guns through thick and thin, never backing down, and never accepting less than what I genuinely wanted.

That's the secret. Plan, build a solid reasonable and effective goal focus, and then persistently work towards it regardless what happens or who says what. It takes a while, but it's definitely doable. Shifting from herd member to leader is not an easy transition, but it only makes your success that much more impressive and your victory that much sweeter.

Guilt, shame and fear are your enemies. Reject them, destroy them, and respond to those who would seek to use them to CONTROL you by redoubling your efforts to prove them wrong. Just make sure you take care of yourself in the mean time. Starving artists are usually starving because they love what they do and would rather starve than follow the herd. But they still have to eat something, like it or not.