AM6 Users Request

[Noctis]

I will never be the same because of AM6. I was pretty messed up and AM6 pulled me up by my bootstraps. It doesn't feel like a big deal now, but holy shit I almost wish the naturalizer didn't work just so I could look back and realize fully how much I changed.

I was the biggest pussy. I remember first joining this forum and I posted my first journal post and I was so self conscious and approval seeking that instantly after posting I was upset that nobody replied right away. And after when somebody did, I posted like 4 times in a row to their one post because I was so needy. I get it that that might be kind of like anyone just starting out, but take into account that this was a full on identity crisis type mega level bad feeling shit. It's so out of my reality now that I can't relate to it now enough to fully describe it.

I went from talking to people and them ignoring me while talking to them to people eager to listen.

I would have loops after loops after loops of me thinking about dumb shit that made me feel bad, debilitating me. Waves and torrents of bad shit in my head, so much that I almost wasn't a real person because I wasn't really making my own choices and I was so in my head and stifled.

After AM6 I became more assertive, confident, all that good shit. I actually miss AM6 because now after WM, even though I'm less stifled, I'm more submissive. Although on WM I feel better. Lol you can't have it all .

Thanks, sounds like you might have a good journal to read I'll try and see if I can find it. Thanks for summarizing your experience!