Woceyes journal

[woceyes]

I think i have figured out the meaning of one of my most powerful negative thoughts that pretty much was holding me back with a lot of things. Mostly my looks and women, I realize its the ego trying to keep control over me. Saying this negative thought to me to protect me from embarrassment or anything else damaging to the ego.

I couldn't understand the meaning behind it and it was driving me a tad bit crazy and insecure. I know the mind is a powerful thing and can use imagery or sensual things to get a point across to me. What it has been telling me (at least in my mind) was not a direct definition of the negative word but more of a symbolic meaning. It was this meaning behind it that made me realize what i was most fearful of. I never thought it would have been that with out some careful pondering.

What I was most fearful of was freedom. Freedom to be me the true me weather or not people like me or not. Whether through expression in art or appearance, or even being and loving with a passion of things i enjoy. Alpha Male helped me cure a lot of things and i would say killed most of this negative thought. This realization, it feels has landed the final blow.

I feel life is coming together and when i start sex magnet. I will be the best dam magnet of pleasure to beautiful women