06-10-2016, 09:39 PM
The first 20 days or so:
So I decided to write a journal at the end of stage 5 but I wanted to write something now because I felt a lot of resistance in the past few weeks. I've felt like I've been shifting back to the old self and the women who I attracted or my attractive self is no longer there. It's like the manifestations aren't working even though I had women manifestation in stages 3 and 4. It's like my mind noticed that I was getting women and changing and just flipped the script and it was frustrating
Last few days leading to stage 6:
I feel more confident in my ability to attract women. I've been chatting with 3 different women. One is a friend with benefit and says she's interested with that and I am too and I told her and she thought it was awesome. She might be staying at a hotel so if all goes well I could be spending nights with her at the hotel lol. Second girl I met at pof, we chatted then she gave me her number but I'm not sure about her though. Texting her, I feel like she's playing games with me because she keeps saying that her sister took her phone, then I'm talking to her sister and her sister is saying that she needs a boyfriend. So I don't know what to think anymore though it's funny lol. The other girl I haven't talked to for a while she stopped answering my text so I kinda just forgot about her but she was kinda cute.
I've also realized that deep down my mind is pushing me to be a better version of myself. For one thing trying to find a good job for me. Right now the job I have is affecting my social life, sleep and mood. So I randomly applied to jobs and got interest from a hooters resteraunt and hotel. So I'm feeling pretty good. I feel like I might need to run the new Ephra only because the different emotional things that have come up in my woman magnet run. At this point I feel tired mentally and exhausted.
I'm hoping I can push thru my fears and insecurities to close with all 3 girls and turn them into something like a friend, lover, gf etc
So I decided to write a journal at the end of stage 5 but I wanted to write something now because I felt a lot of resistance in the past few weeks. I've felt like I've been shifting back to the old self and the women who I attracted or my attractive self is no longer there. It's like the manifestations aren't working even though I had women manifestation in stages 3 and 4. It's like my mind noticed that I was getting women and changing and just flipped the script and it was frustrating
Last few days leading to stage 6:
I feel more confident in my ability to attract women. I've been chatting with 3 different women. One is a friend with benefit and says she's interested with that and I am too and I told her and she thought it was awesome. She might be staying at a hotel so if all goes well I could be spending nights with her at the hotel lol. Second girl I met at pof, we chatted then she gave me her number but I'm not sure about her though. Texting her, I feel like she's playing games with me because she keeps saying that her sister took her phone, then I'm talking to her sister and her sister is saying that she needs a boyfriend. So I don't know what to think anymore though it's funny lol. The other girl I haven't talked to for a while she stopped answering my text so I kinda just forgot about her but she was kinda cute.
I've also realized that deep down my mind is pushing me to be a better version of myself. For one thing trying to find a good job for me. Right now the job I have is affecting my social life, sleep and mood. So I randomly applied to jobs and got interest from a hooters resteraunt and hotel. So I'm feeling pretty good. I feel like I might need to run the new Ephra only because the different emotional things that have come up in my woman magnet run. At this point I feel tired mentally and exhausted.
I'm hoping I can push thru my fears and insecurities to close with all 3 girls and turn them into something like a friend, lover, gf etc
