06-03-2016, 02:34 PM
So now that I am sure I'll stick with EPRHA2 consistently (although its really tempting to get AOSI ;-) ) I'll post some of my observations.
Been listening for 1 week so far and have found that every night there has been intense fear based dreams. Last night I dreamed I was being chased by a spider that was half the size of me and no matter where I hid it would find me and chase me, even somehow coming through walls it ended with one of the spiders legs going through my arm. There have been many dreams like this, the surprising thing is unlike say AM in the past I'm not affected by the dreams emotionally when I wake up.
Onto real life, there has been a few subtle changes going on. I started a new job this week and noticed I have been rather social there and have been able to talk to people without fearing they will judge me, this is the stark opposite to what usually happens. I was also out with a mate the other night and he couldn't believe how good I seemed within myself. With him I was able to also tell him to turn down the music because I could hear him. This may not seem like much but for me this is huge and it felt so natural, in the past I would have been afraid that someone would get angry at me if I spoke up and vocalized what I needed and this would lead to them rejecting me or not accepting me.
I've also noticed a lot more smiles from people women in particular, I've been feeling a lot more self love lately and this seems to be emanating off onto other people. Pretty unexpected but I'll take it
So as much as I want to do AOSI I know I need to to EPRHA so the journey will continue...
Been listening for 1 week so far and have found that every night there has been intense fear based dreams. Last night I dreamed I was being chased by a spider that was half the size of me and no matter where I hid it would find me and chase me, even somehow coming through walls it ended with one of the spiders legs going through my arm. There have been many dreams like this, the surprising thing is unlike say AM in the past I'm not affected by the dreams emotionally when I wake up.
Onto real life, there has been a few subtle changes going on. I started a new job this week and noticed I have been rather social there and have been able to talk to people without fearing they will judge me, this is the stark opposite to what usually happens. I was also out with a mate the other night and he couldn't believe how good I seemed within myself. With him I was able to also tell him to turn down the music because I could hear him. This may not seem like much but for me this is huge and it felt so natural, in the past I would have been afraid that someone would get angry at me if I spoke up and vocalized what I needed and this would lead to them rejecting me or not accepting me.
I've also noticed a lot more smiles from people women in particular, I've been feeling a lot more self love lately and this seems to be emanating off onto other people. Pretty unexpected but I'll take it
So as much as I want to do AOSI I know I need to to EPRHA so the journey will continue...
The only person in life that can ever hold you back is yourself. So get out of your own way and start living the life you always dreamed of
