03-18-2016, 12:50 PM
So this week was actually pretty awesome just to note a few things. So I started the week feeling like shit sitting in my lecture hall alone. Then my professor told the class that we had to work a problem with someone near us. So I was kinda alone but after a few minutes I walked and approached a girl and started working out everything I was shocked. Before I would've say alone like a loser and just not bother having the balls. The funny thing is when I approached her every girl in my class took notice and others kept looking back at me. Then today when I started my other class I was just flowing talking to the girls in my class just vibing. Then later during the class one girl that I kinda thought was attractive came into the class and it kinda threw me off. I was kinda intimidated by her a little bit but she came in and since we were working on something already(my group and she came in late) she joined the group. And I noticed her lean in across the table with her ass sticking out next to me I was like dang. I think it was a butt display because it just seemed un necessary but it was still undetected. Then after class we just talked it was great. Nothing serious or anything like that just talking about class and whatever with her and her friend. The funny thing was the whole time I was so insecure, I was thinking " man these girls are probably are just waiting for me to leave because I'm just hogging their conversation". I thought I was a third wheel because I was the one who went up to them and started talking. So after minutes of talking I just thought I should go home and leave the 2 talking. So I told them I had to leave but funny thing is the girl's friend also decided to leave and walked with me to my car. The other girl left to see her other professor. To conclude I have to fucking clue what's going on lol. I feel one way(very insecure about a lot of things feeling like shit ) but I end up doing the things I said above and it seems like girls are starting to open up to me but not all the time. I'm guessing these are the effects of stage 2 kicking in in full gear. I can't wait to finish stage 3 because I know that's when ease of socializing with women comes in. I haven't been soacilizibg with women with ease often times it's been kinda hard because I'm battling my insecurities and trying to do what needs to be done. On a gut level I feel like I'm the shit I just haven't lived up to the mental shift/attitude yet.
Also another thing I noticed is I'm 300 more times playful now than I was in AM6. I'm kinda like acting like a kid with all smiles enjoying life but still manly when I need to be but just not all the time.
Also another thing I noticed is I'm 300 more times playful now than I was in AM6. I'm kinda like acting like a kid with all smiles enjoying life but still manly when I need to be but just not all the time.