There are many things I’d like to talk about. Hopefully I remember them all!
I’m realizing I’ve been living in this “fantasy world” that is not quite accurate to reality. I have a subjective reality I project onto reality that is not entirely accurate. It has its uses, but the map is not the territory. The map should be a guide for reality not a substitute.
I’m constantly coping instead of thriving. I self protect and avoid losing instead of pushing for wins. I also shrink away from a lot of proactive action due to pain.
I’m in a lot of pain even though I’ve come so far. It’s not really as debilitating, but it is still hindering me from being as effective as a person as I’d like. My desires are starting to wake up and I hate that I’m not living the life that I want. Funny that not long ago I was constantly bed ridden with emotional pain and just hoping to not be having constant panic attacks. Now I’m worried about how I’m gonna achieve an awesome life!
My brain lately has been working on some deep childhood issues. Not just as simple as calling it gsf or trauma. I also seem to be doing stuff like giving my inner self certain needs.
All my desires come back to a few root things that need tackled. First I need to deal with the roots by healing, then focus on money. But yeah, after I finish my full run of OGSF2 I’ll go from there.
P.S just wanna say for anyone reading this, that OGSF2 is an awesome program. You don’t run OGSF2 because it feels good. You run it to do the hard work of healing yourself. That is what it’s doing right now for me, even if the process isn’t always fun or enjoyable. It’s like exercise. Do hard thing now, get good thing later. Basically don’t judge OGSF2 by how brutal/hard it sounds from all the journals. The results are what you’re after.
I’m realizing I’ve been living in this “fantasy world” that is not quite accurate to reality. I have a subjective reality I project onto reality that is not entirely accurate. It has its uses, but the map is not the territory. The map should be a guide for reality not a substitute.
I’m constantly coping instead of thriving. I self protect and avoid losing instead of pushing for wins. I also shrink away from a lot of proactive action due to pain.
I’m in a lot of pain even though I’ve come so far. It’s not really as debilitating, but it is still hindering me from being as effective as a person as I’d like. My desires are starting to wake up and I hate that I’m not living the life that I want. Funny that not long ago I was constantly bed ridden with emotional pain and just hoping to not be having constant panic attacks. Now I’m worried about how I’m gonna achieve an awesome life!
My brain lately has been working on some deep childhood issues. Not just as simple as calling it gsf or trauma. I also seem to be doing stuff like giving my inner self certain needs.
All my desires come back to a few root things that need tackled. First I need to deal with the roots by healing, then focus on money. But yeah, after I finish my full run of OGSF2 I’ll go from there.
P.S just wanna say for anyone reading this, that OGSF2 is an awesome program. You don’t run OGSF2 because it feels good. You run it to do the hard work of healing yourself. That is what it’s doing right now for me, even if the process isn’t always fun or enjoyable. It’s like exercise. Do hard thing now, get good thing later. Basically don’t judge OGSF2 by how brutal/hard it sounds from all the journals. The results are what you’re after.