(Cross posting the relevant information from my personal log)
It will be six months of listening tomorrow, time to evaluate and I am having difficulties doing that, it’s not easy to objectively watch my own fear.
I think I can safely say that all conscious, logical fears are gone. E.g. I got an aggressive form of Covid last month, after seeing a specialist I knew it was a real possibility that it would not end well (I was already using oxygen and it kept getting worse) and yet I did not feel any fear at all, not for one second.
I also don’t get emotionally overwhelmed any more. There was a time before using OF when my resilience was so low that even the smallest emotional stimulation, positive or negative, would make me cry.
What did it not do? It didn’t get rid of an undefined, vague anxiety that prevents me from doing things. That’s still an issue that affects the quality of my life majorly. It’s worse than procrastination, it’s paralysis. Maybe it’s not even fear, I don’t know, but it does feel like a knot in the stomach that I associate with fear and anxiety.
Overall, I am very happy with the results. I knew I would need to run other subs to deal with some deep seated emotional issues (mainly PTSD) but I do think that OF has given me, besides good results in itself, a good primer and a stable foundation to work on.
It will be six months of listening tomorrow, time to evaluate and I am having difficulties doing that, it’s not easy to objectively watch my own fear.
I think I can safely say that all conscious, logical fears are gone. E.g. I got an aggressive form of Covid last month, after seeing a specialist I knew it was a real possibility that it would not end well (I was already using oxygen and it kept getting worse) and yet I did not feel any fear at all, not for one second.
I also don’t get emotionally overwhelmed any more. There was a time before using OF when my resilience was so low that even the smallest emotional stimulation, positive or negative, would make me cry.
What did it not do? It didn’t get rid of an undefined, vague anxiety that prevents me from doing things. That’s still an issue that affects the quality of my life majorly. It’s worse than procrastination, it’s paralysis. Maybe it’s not even fear, I don’t know, but it does feel like a knot in the stomach that I associate with fear and anxiety.
Overall, I am very happy with the results. I knew I would need to run other subs to deal with some deep seated emotional issues (mainly PTSD) but I do think that OF has given me, besides good results in itself, a good primer and a stable foundation to work on.
E3+DRS -> LTU6 -> IYE -> DRS -> LTU6 Refresher -> OF3