OFv3 being fearless

[Kol]

Seeing people mention possible DMSI TID on the forums, I wondered the same today and am geared towards yes on TID. fears around sex are surfacing seemingly from deep within my subconscious due to experiences and its feeling really good adressing it. I also feel really suave and sexy, the way I think and move.

[NOMAD]

I also feel really suave and sexy, the way I think and move.

I feel this way too, but I think it's a natural consequence of overcoming fear. We're removing the shackles that have held us in place for so long. Maybe we've all been looking at ourselves through a distorted lens and now we're beginning to see ourselves as we really are.

[Kol]

Profound.

[Kol]

I also feel really suave and sexy, the way I think and move.

I feel this way too, but I think it's a natural consequence of overcoming fear. We're removing the shackles that have held us in place for so long. Maybe we've all been looking at ourselves through a distorted lens and now we're beginning to see ourselves as we really are.

I considered that aswell.

[Kol]

Sub is doing big things, my whole body feels sore. Just finished 3 loops US after break. Amidst second loop, headache showed up aswell as wanting to stop. Good thing im successfull and no quitter. Keep going.

[Kol]

Maaajor thing going on. I feel im sitting in a cocoon, feeling fear on some level yet am not identifying with any of it, realizing it all bs. Its just...there. numb to it, unaffected in a weird way.

[fab10]

Hang in there bro. Shit is shifting. I can’t wait for that to happen to me lol.

[Kol]

@fab10  thanks bro.

Im loading up loops right now. Just back ftom the gym, and was not in the mood. Angry, just in a funk. High loops will balance out over time I believe, as I was reading @Benjamin journal about loop quantity.

Also, im getting myself some meal prep boxes. Im doing it now straight from the product itself, applying math and what not, but preparation saves time + its used to be something I wasnt to happy about. Now, thanks to OF, my physique is looking great, improves day by day, my nutrition is way clearer and am finding joy in it since I started this sub. Im approaching it as work and am finding it an asset in my goals + I like to experiment and learn. Mealprep used to be a huge hurdle for me, a chore, but it aint no longer. Its kinda lit. Feeling mature and responsible mayne 

Now that I write this, im experiencing dejavu. Now that I think about it, im having more dejavu moments on this sub and my intuition tells me it is due the sub doing great things inside.

[RTBoss]

Now that I write this, im experiencing dejavu. Now that I think about it, im having more dejavu moments on this sub and my intuition tells me it is due the sub doing great things inside.

Very interesting!  Now that you mention it, I realize I also have been having increasing incidences of deja vu.

[Kol]

Very cool @RTBoss

Update:

Today is ordinairy, like the eye of a hurricane.

[Kol]

Im diving deep in closing deals, leadership, making money, innovation, creativity, psychology, sociology mixed with a little bit of dark triad. Things are manifesting and unfolding. Got myself some books. Its gonna be real fun.

[Kol]

Having lots of dreams lately involving wealth, being part of groups, hanging around with people, communication and what not.
When I close my eyes before sleep and start to drift off and start my loops, interesting visions take place.
This morning I remember something about a girl ive known before, who was hurt in the dream, broken foot or something. Checking her up on it became massage and it escalated from there. It became sexual. The energy shifted.

Interesting to see im handling my sexual energy and this is s clear subconscious association due to pmo. Great!

[Kol]

Had this morning guilt coming up, as quick as it came, it went. Im thinking of why I wont bite the bullet on some cases with females ( this might be a snspshot moment, me still processing last night loops, and wouldnt be the first time snspping out of it and be a ball of sunshine ) but there seems to be something subliminal going on, beliefs and thought processes just subtle enough to passing right under the radar. Age, whatever, adressing this bust those beliefs out of the water. Guilt is a thing with this, sabotage, fears, wrong beliefs. Adressing the hold back. Censoring. Might be OF pressing on the issues right now, making them more pronounced temporarily, but adressing it will improve my life.

Regarding books. I used to be a hoarder. Im way more discerning, guided by my internals and execute on them relentlessly. Weapons for war. I just "need" a couple and thats it. Reading 52 books a year? Only to up reading skills and speed, other then that? Its utter bs. "Oh but some millionaire says it" doesnt fucking matter. Even me, just reading sun tzu- the art of war and having it finished just now, has to read it again to get the gist of it.

Edit: seeing the semi conflict on the forums has me reflecting on my own. Im like "it aint my fight, yall are old enough" but it comes down to fear & guilt and future imagined things. It aint a way to live, and tbh, I DO want to jump in, because of the overreaction.not to be condensing or anything, but from a detached standpoint and what being pointed out, its a helpfull response imo to be held accoubtable. Again, I can see why someone would respond like it, been there, the "dont tell me shit, you dont know"
But having other people holding you accountable is pretty neat. + I enjoy journal activity. Make it seem not so ghosttown-ish

[Kol]

I start to see im in this fixing mentality. Fixing all, never good enough, perfectionism.
Dont forget to live. How much stems from insecurity?