DMSI V3.3.1 5.5G Shadow's Awesome Journal PART 1(Closed)

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Day 17 (meetings)

I had my weekly meeting with dancer girl, and nurse girl. Nurse girl was crying a lot cause her mom is very sick. And although she's attracted kind of not in the mode for much. Dancer girl also attracted but wants to keep her feeling secret from nurse girl. Pretty ending up nothing happened. Latter that evening at a 3pm meeting after had some pop eyes fish combo was a girl working was totally OK getting in my space as I was getting a drink refill. At the afternoon meet it self mostly older crowd of people but was a shy girl that sat next to me that seemed to get after she even started some conversation before I had to move. Another girl that was sit in front of me pretty much the prettiest girl there had a mild reaction to had to look my way a few times. And lastly a older cougar girl seem to be extra nice as I opened the door for her when leaving. So over all a minor day as far as results and also the time change messed up my sleep habits so I was tried today. Should get back to normal sometime this week. Also got a 3 day evening meeting so should be a lot of chance to see how the testing goes

[Shadow2200]

Day 23 (Work)

Took a break from work and had my 3 day meeting was interesting in a way. Was lots of signs of attraction going on. One of the older women put the word that maybe some the girls shouldn't mess with me. So a lot of them wanted to come talk but was like something was stopping them form going through with it. Did however get lots of attention. Eye contact,stares, open body language, people bending over in front of me, a few did mange to initiate some conversation so was good. A few days of frustration because little was happening but bounced back, also had a interesting dream along the way.

[Shadow2200]

Day 24 (meetings)

Had my weekly meeting today, and came out of having meetings all week. Things should be getting back o normal. Dancer girl has been a lot less attentive giving m some but a lot more laid back. She'll respond but I'll have to chase after her if I don't nothing is happening. Had my single mom with benefits visit spend the might so that was fun pretty much a monthly thing. Sex was a lot more intense that it normally is. I think DMSI is helping with that also. My other announcement girls is out of town for the week. She's been very insecure and is having trouble getting used to the new me that's a lot more attractive then when we first meet. So lot of my time is spent getting her to be able to accept that I'm in demand and other people like me. Her sister even will shamelessly flirt around with me even in front of her, Drama. ALso been running into girls I've been into a lot more. Like I ran into my 18 la girl that used to work with me she came in and she still has some feelings. Lot of that kind of of thing. Had a late dinner after meeting on Friday and my 2 pua hangout buddies got to be talking about girls and who's messing with me and all the girls their chasing after. I had to be honest that it's more little subtle things little to brag about. Other than girls do chase and find me whether I chase after them or not. And will find me no escape.
I switched over to the masked version today going to give it a try cause I've seen to hit a wall in that yes they attracted, I feel like a celebrity. It's still up to me 100% to make sex happen. We'll see if that makes a difference. Also no flap that's completely gone.

[Shadow2200]

Day 29 (work)

Been lising to the masked verson and it difenitly has a diffentt feel to it than the hybird version. This version mkakes me alot more horny i guess is the word. More desireto go back to falpping again. Things going great as far as internals and i'm getting massive attraction from girls every where. However i'm been a state of stale mate where girls just stop it atthe attraction level and nothing more if i want anything more i have to chase her in some way and make it happen. I am feeling no desire to chase after them so for most part last week or so in this stuck. I do have a evening meeting this weekend so this sill be a good final test for the month of this program. Big improvment over the last one. Having more of a effect on the affected would be a great addition. Well see what happens

[Shadow2200]

Day 31 (break)

taking my 2nd break from sub today. It's been a good ride the last month on this 3.2 version. Overall much better than 3.1 super positive,helps with releasing to pron awesome attraction magnet with celebrity effect confidence, eye contact. kind of remind me of what women magnet was like, very positive upbeat program. I said many times it's major improvement over last years sub leaps and bounds. Glad to see the meet them half way is gone. Girls are so attracted to me in this it's crazy. I feel like and the sub has helped me get used to thinking it's girls job to pursue me and I'm like here i am I'm ready. I used to think that be nice if I felt like that now I do feel like that she should do 100% of the work. Another bonus to the program another work of art.
All that said I'm here I thinking girls supposed to chasing me I've giving up self pleasure for the most part.Girls checking out left and right, deer in the head lights are happening more and more, girls that already like me stepping up ttheir game on me Amazing. There is only one thing left out whether it's fear on there part or the effect of the sniper or aura needs to be strong enough to get them to take action. So it's just been like a month of feeling like a celebrity girls supposed to take action on me, but something is holding them back. And because I'm a celebrity I shouldn't be chasing after me until that changes it's a stale mate. That being said once Shannon get the aura sniper going things will really start going forward.

[Shadow2200]

Day 2 Version A (Off Work)

Trying the masked tracked this time around. Last month I was normally using the hybrid which was working good with self effects and with shutting down any desire for porn release which is good. However it was giving me the feeling that my sex drive was shut off or much lower as a whole. When I switched to masked my sex drive came rushing back although my desire for porn also increased again.
Meanwhile On Sunday I had a evening meeting to Kansas City MO only about a hour trip. Crazy trip I was sitting in back with dancer girl snugled up next to me, in front 2 seats had nurse girl and announcement girl. All of them where trying to help me with my tablet phone and how to set it up. It was the first time all 3 of them where there at the same time and I was at the center of everyone attention so good stuff. Had a few ioi's form some young girls at the meeting so that was good.
Later that night on the way back dancer who I was snuggled up next to was semi sleep so I escalated a bit with some light touching since it was dark. When we got back to Topeka I asked dancer to give a ride back home. Still had a bit touching going on. After she got me home had a little talk about her Boyfriend problems and it's bad so she's kind of conflicted about how she feels about me. I decided to pick it up another day instead of pressing escalating on her more as she seemed a bit upset about her boyfriend. On Friday I'll see dancer again cause she has a program she has to performance plus she's agreed to give me a ride after it's over so we'll see what happens.

[Shadow2200]

Day 8 break

Things going well for the most part. Having healing is A good thing. With all this increased attention comes jealousy and insecurity among various females . So far I,m able to handle it. Been spending a lot of time chatting to some of my friends with benifets girls. One of them is jealous of my dancer friend who despite her having a man she been making a effort to sleep with me at times. Like Shannon said girls try to make I happen indirect and she has issue with her and you drama. Dancer has offered to go me rides from my meetings, and offered to go out to the gym. This of course will lead to trouble, but it,s too late to stop now

[Shadow2200]

Day 17

Tried the hybrid version this last week. The a version of hybrid vs masked is less difference of a effect than b. Healing is great feeling at lot less fear more positive on a. The main difference overall is that the few relationships or friends with benifets that I have managed to keep has been amped more intense they wantings to be with me even more. Also much even if they have a man on the side, they are more willing to have me on the side also or around in there lives. As manythis v have said I would like to see more physical sex from new people, a lot more of them iniating stuff. Hopefully sooner than later

[Shadow2200]

Day

Been rocking the A version with increased healing clearing. It has helped even though my aura is much weaker on a a lot of my issues are clearing up than on B. Me and dancer girl continue to get closer started working out in the gym. She even went so far as taking me out for lunch. Although nothing physically has happened with her what she dose is constantly falls asleep cause of her work setup. So what's she,s doing is falling asleep all the time with me around her holding in a way that I do something but at the same time could say that she didn't cheat on nobody cause She was sleep. This time I had more time so I did some light Kino and esculated things much further that I normally go. So of think what's going to happen she going to quot let her guard down enough ether by sleeping, napping up next to me that something is going to happen and thanks to the sub I felt like I could exculate a lot further with much less fear than I had been. My other friends with benifets as useful get way more attacte6 to me, wanting to chat in the phone all the time ,leaving thing at my house so they can come back more and of course buying me stuff even more than they had been. Same with dancer girl we ae constantly on the phone chatting. Things seem to be heading forward

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Day 45 Version A

Things have been advancing slowly with the increased healing. I could be like nothing is happening but the truth be told lots of powerful changes are far as inner game things. Fear way down, eye contact up, just in general very strong presence and a lot less being intimidated by anyone. Also a lot my issues that I've had for years are getting cleared up. Over in the process of being a much stronger me much more mature. Of course I can't wait for 3.4 as I would like to see more of affect on the affected but like Shannon said not through manipulation but by persuasion. If they make that choice it should have a very strong effect on them. Until this is moving forward.
On the girl side of things I been seeing most results if you can call it that with girls in my social circle or workplace. The longer I'm around them the more effect the aura has on them. Been working on dancer for a long while and what's been happen over time even though she has a man he's bad news for her and has a history of bad choices with men. So she likes and with this new sub has been spending a lot more time around me pointing out to me her man sucks and his issues. Clearly trying to trade up there is a part of there that still wants to be with old boy friend which is fine. But as things continue it becoming clear that whether she has a man or not she spends most of her time with me. So something bound to happen. My other benefits friend been like extra nice buying me stuff that most of time don't ordinary get which is cool. Announcement girl is very insecure and is trying to buy my affection so I will be just with her. That's never going to happen and part of her knows that. She knows how I feel about being in a one on one relationship. Other thing I've noticed is old flings crushes or girls that used to like me have popped up more. One exercise girl that I wanted to have sex with for so long started showing up at the gym. And now she likes all my pages clearly trying to get my attention. She could be trouble. I am thinking about trying B again see how that works after all this healing maybe well see how this goes.

[Shadow2200]

Day 50 Version B

Switched Back to B again. I was have been making serious gains on version A with all the healing and clearing and getting over my issues. That was good stuff. The self effects on A are a lot stronger the effects on others is less so as the aura is weaker it dose however get over my problems some of which I've had for a long time or really ever knew there where so.
I listen to it today before my weekly meeting today little difference for the most part today until after. I was riding with dancer and she had to take her daughter to cash her check her daughter had to use the restroom and there was no where for her to go anywhere close. So she decided to since she was giving me a ride home she would stop by my place so her daughters kid could use the bathroom. Which seems like that was a little deal. However me and dancer had joked about that same thing coming up, Because she had boyfriend and all she has been resistant to coming to each others house or anything because how that might look or what might happen. So to say the least I was shocked when she suggested that she stop by my place to let the kid use the bathroom. Plus I got a hug after so that was good. I have been spending more time with her as things with her boyfriend are not working out so well. She was been suggesting doing a lot of things little get together more often and staying in contact more texting calling. As well as my other friends with benefits. DMSI has differently increased all the connections I have with everyone that's close to me. Whether it be liking all my photos on facebook etc trying to get my attentions.
With all the healing and clearing with version A I feel a lot stronger than the first time I ran Version B well see if this time I'm able to execute more than I did the last time.

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Day 60 verison B 8 loops

I went back to B cause i thought i might seem more an effect form the aura. Turns out to be about the same. I was getting some break throughs with A with inner stuff. In 5 days probably switch back to A. The funny thing is when i switched to B at first all was well me and dancer seemed to get closer. On B had a lot less time for people taking advantage of me. I felt after helping her out she was ignoring me so got in a big fight over it. Now although dancer and me have lost alot of closness were stil some what friends. Things are way different in how close we were. If it continues like this i,ll have to completely move on. Hopefully things can be fixed

[Shadow2200]

Day 67 version a (8 loops)

Switched back to A again. Judt much easier to run than B. Have made up with dancer kind of. Were still getting back to the point before the fight. At least things going in the right direction hopfully. Thing were rolling good on A switched to B had a massive fight kinda of wrecked things. With the increased assertiveness i let her know how ifelt on some thinking which was good just kinda handled it in bad way. Much more laid back and easy going on A. Dancer has been taking most of my attension for the group of girls in my social circle. My friends with benefits announcement girl very jealous of dancer and i,ve been getting into it with her all the time. I had to let her know that even though dancer and i will always be friends she can,t stand her at all and how close we,ve become it,s funny cause dancer totally pays her no attension.
Although me and dancer have yet to be intimate or anything everyone else thinks ether we,re going together or have had sex. I was opening with these new generations of dmsi thing can move to a physical level. Granted i hzve othrr girls i,m sleeping with been working on her quite a while with very little physically to show for it. Hopdfully 3.3 can push me over the top

[Shadow2200]

Been doing loops and loops of version A has helped alot with my internal stuff. Nothing external to right home about now. Thing my dancer friend is kind of like a game of chicken. As of this moment we not tslking and i seem to be low importance . Shebeen changing plans and not communicating them to me till the last moment. Her fsmily is in town so i wanted her to be supportive to them and family time. In thr mean tkme it,s like a total shut down on her in. And of cpurse i called her on it. Snd now we fighting. Basicly trying to see who will break first.