Superman's DMSI v3+ journal

[Superman]

First update on DMSI 3.2
Day 2:

Not enjoying it so far. Day 1(trickling stream FLAC) was quite uneventful but I started feeling a little down. Urge to masturbate down. Urge to watch porn down. Nothing really in the way of attention or abnormal behaviour from anyone. Got hit by a wave of tiredness halfway though listening and just fell asleep completely.

Day 2(ultrasonic mp3) , I'm now feeling quite down and depressed. A lot of memories of the past are coming up. Bitterness and jealousy towards females and my life because while I was waiting for love and believed that girls were good and pure. They were actually out ***** all the other guys while I was lonely and desperate for any female attention. A little bitterness and disappointed in my life thus far how it's turned out and where it's heading. Also some bitter feelings about my gf having a fwb when she was in high school who's still her best friend now. I just can't shake the feelings I have right now. So day 2 so far while it's not over just yet is not going well.

I really want to be over my feelings of having wasted my youth and be over the past. That alone would lift a huge weight off my chest and my life. You can't be positive about the future if you're always thinking about your negative past.

Dude, I'm feeling somewhat the same way. Though I would add I'm probably feeling mainly anger, yes, but primarily hatred at the moment. I'm also realizing a few things Mr.Anderson said in his journal. I have a feeling as to what is going on and might write about it later but like you not quite feeling this sub at the moment.

I think I'd benefit from running side A once it's released

[Shannon]

Side B is going to get to the goal by getting you to deal with the issues you have blocking you also, as you can see. It's just not going to do so in a slow or "fun" way. It's goal is to achieve it's goals, and everything in the way can just take a hike.

This is going to require some dealing with and purging of things holding you back, because The Wall will not allow you to run and hide this time.

It may not always be pleasant, but rest assured, it will be much faster getting to the goals with B side than it is with A side. B side will just go right through whatever stands in its way.

[Superman]

For the past 2-3 weeks my ex has been on my mind so much. It's gotten so bad to the point where I almost call my gf by her name a few times. I have to consciously stop myself from saying it. But in my head I'm thinking it. I'm referring to my gf by my exs name. I assumed this was TID or the bloom but it's still going

[Superman]

I'm hesitant to run the sub before work or during the day. The last sub really drained a lot of energy and I can't afford to be tired during the day now. So I've been listening when I get home. Although I did try it a little earlier today. Well see how it goes.

Effects wise, no major incidents thus far. Although I am experiencing decreased hunger and decreased urge to watch porn or masurbate. Even if I do, the pleasure derived from it is decreased as well so I guess that helps. I've probably lost 2-3lbs from since 2-3 days before 3.2 released until now.

While running the sub I get a feeling of relaxation and calm. I quite enjoy it. As for the depression I was feeling a few days ago, it hasn't even crossed my mind until right now when I thought to read my last update for any changes.

Set it and forget it.

[Superman]

Today was a good day, Very calm and comfortable. Work was good, I kept busy and time flew by.
Nothing much in the way of effects though. My mind is still on my ex. Hunger is down, mindfulness of nutrition and fitness is up. Urge to masturbate down, but I still feel compelled to do it. But I dont

[Superman]

I'm not really keeping track of the days since I'm in this for the long haul. Anyways, results wise I didn't notice much. But I did run into a girl I know whom I have a strong suspicion that she's into me. I thought she was a sniper target of the previous versions of DMSI, 2.3 or 2.5 I think (I can't even remember if there was a 2.5). She used to ask me to hang out with her but I didn't act on it. Then she just dropped off the radar completely.

Anyways I ran into her randomly today and we had a little chat for about 20 min. Nothing too inspiring but it was nice seeing her.

Aside from that I have so much more energy than I did running all of the previous versions, AM6 and all the other subs included. I used to never be able to make it through a full day without needing rest. but now I'm able to go a full day with no nap and still have energy at bed time. I've noticed the energy slowly increasing since about a day or two before 3.2 released.

I'm feeling healthier and making conscious effort to get more calories burned and less taken in. Junk food craving a greatly reduced. No ravenous hunger causing me to eat everything in sight.

I think the majority of users are looking too hard for results. Taking every little thing out of proportion. That's just my opinion though. Until something major happens I'll hold off from judging the effectiveness of the sub. But it is doing something

As always, set it and forget it.

[Havana]

We need to count days in order to keep ASRB2, 14 days on for 1 day off.

[Superman]

We need to count days in order to keep ASRB2, 14 days on for 1 day off.

Ah, right. I forgot about that. Thanks.

I'll count my days and mark them here

Today(March 2) would be day 7

[Superman]

Forgot to update yesterday so I'll do that first :

Day 7,
No major incidents in the form of external attention. Chatted with some girls at work, everything seemed natural, no nerves but I did get a bit tongue tied and stuttered once or twice.

Internally, I had a really vivid dream involving my ex about her moving on. The dream made me upset when I woke up. Throughout the day I just feel so comfortable in my skin. Almost no regard if others are watching or what others think. I walk with a more confident stride and more up right posture. I know others have said this but music sounds amazing. Especially through headphones. I just feel an overall confidence boost. No urge to fap or watch porn. Conserving money and avoiding junk food, still trying to stay active.

Day 8: ive only just woken up but I had a really strange dream which I can't remember at all right now. I haven't had a dream in a long time so these 2 are new phenomenon for me.

[Superman]

Day 10: not much has changed. Music sounds amazing. Feeling confident in my body language and my attitude. Urges to fap and watch porn increasing. Still conscious of health and trying to get fit. Saving money being frugal. All good things

[Superman]

Day 11: trying my first morning loop, let's see how this goes

[Superman]

Day 11 End of day update:

Nothing really happened. Lol I just feel good about myself and how I look. I feel attractive and confident.

Externally, nothing much. I fapped yesterday so I feel like I have a little less energy. I thought I was over it but oh well. Didn't take too much effort to keep off it today. Music still sound great. Still have a positive attitude.

[Superman]

Day 12: did a morning loop. Didn't like it too much. Nothing really happened. Still feeling ok

Day 13, did a night loop. Good feelings are starting to subside. I'm starting to think 3.2 isn't going to be the one to do it for me. I'm still going to run it regardless

[Shannon]

Pleas pick a time of day and stick to it. Otherwise you are interfering with the ASRB.