SargeMaximus: Blooming to Alpha

[SargeMaximus]

Got the next 2 days off tho I might work today, we'll see.

Mainly I want to get some understanding of pick up and social stuff.

I still have NO IDEA why sometimes people like me and want to hang around me while other times they don't. No idea at all. It's like magic and I don't like that, it makes me a victim of circumstances/other people.

With pick up, been trying some things that have worked for me in the past but now they don't seem to work at all.

I just don't get it.

Often times I've been asking myself "Would I be ok with just 'getting lucky' with the hottest women? Even if I had no clue why they wanted me and what I was doing would I be ok with that?" and the answer is always "no"

I like to understand things, I don't like being in the dark and "getting lucky" in anything. Plus, as I said, "getting lucky" makes you the victim. And I won't tolerate that. I'd rather lose a hot girl because I couldn't schedule her in than be "on call" for any girl that comes my way.

I've already lost many girls because they wouldn't conform to my schedule. Ironically, PUA's and some members of this forum claim that being like that gets girls MORE attracted to you. I can attest that it doesn't. But I digress.

The point is: I believe, if you are skilled enough, you can make your own luck.

SO yeah, that's where I'm at.

It's frustrating but it's all part of learning I suppose.

I'm hoping 3.2 can help with this in the training modules.

EDIT: Part of my research involves watching the Fast and Furious Films. Blackdragon said they have good examples of sexy male archetypes. Gotta say, I never wanted to watch those movies, but you gotta do what you gotta do.

[SargeMaximus]

*sigh*

Went out to do approacbhing today. No confidence whatsoever. I'll get to the negative shit in a minute, first I have something Shannon may want to know about.

An interesting thing happened on the way to the mall. I don't know if this is TID but Shannon please take note!

So I'm on the bus, it's fairly crowded. It's also a double bus, so very long and I was sitting all the way at the back cause I was feeling anti-social today.

Then I notice 2 very attractive women come all the way to the back (where I was) and sit down in that area. The one was my particular type (I have many types, but she was one of them) but I never looked at her, and she never talked to me or sat next to me.

I didn't want to talk to her because I reasoned in my head how, while I may have gotten her interest (maybe, maybe not) if I talked to her she would completely LOSE all interest. So I wanted to keep what little I had.

Anyhow, that wasn't what I wanted Shannon to note. Fast forward to the last 15 minutes of the bus ride, an absolute 9.5/10 (That's the highest I'll ever rank a girl without knowing her personality also fits my desires perfectly. So physically, she was perfect. A different type from the one who had come on previously, but one of my types nontheless) comes on the bus. As soon as I see her I'm thinking "oh my f*cking god!" I lock eyes with her, she looks into mine, then looks down. Then she keeps walking and sits down RIGHT BESIDE ME!

That's not the crazy thing. Honestly, something like that could happen randomly to anyone. The crazy thing is, I felt like I was going to cum in my pants.... and I didn't even have a hard on. Not even a quarter hard on. It was nuts. My dick just started tingling like I was on the edge of orgasm so I adjusted my body, tried to make room for my dick by tugging at my pants, all while this girl is next to me. I didn't look at her and I didn't say anything cause I was too focused on NOT blowing a load while I sat there. I spent the rest of the ride trying to do mental gymnastics and kegels to keep it in my balls. I succeeded.

BUT...

Crazy.

Anyhow, being able to talk to these girls is obviously a key, but we can't do that if we feel like we're about to cum.

It was nuts.

She was so hot.

Anyhow, that was what I wanted to mention. Feel free to leave now, the rest of this post is negative.

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So, ever since learning about social skills and "how to be" I've lost all my confidence.

Years ago, it was just do whatever the f*ck I wanted, now it's like everyone is watching me and I have to do everything perfectly.

When saying hi to a girl, my voice comes out as a whisper.

When I'm finally able to run some lines on her, she doesn't seem interested.

Seems like I can't win.

Be myself, girls don't go for me, try to do what works and I'm a timid mouse.

FML.

EDIT: Oh yeah and I got my haircut today. Pretty sure the guy was gay. He was Asian, super cool dude. Gave me an $8 discount. Didn't like the job he did on my beard tho. But the hair is fantastic.

[SargeMaximus]

Reading "The Like switch" atm.

In the first few pages he says:

"The techniques are similar to the power tools
used by construction workers. The key is to let the tools do the
work. When I was young, I routinely used a handsaw to cut wood.
One day my father let me use his newly purchased circular saw. I
took the power saw in hand and began to cut a piece of wood. I
applied the same pressure to the power saw that I would have ap-
plied to a hand saw. My father tapped me on the shoulder and
told me to ease up on the pressure and let the saw do the work.
The techniques in this book are based on similarly sound prin-
ciples. Simply apply the techniques and relax, be yourself, and let
the techniques do the work. You will be amazed at the results."

I like that. He knows how tools work.

[SargeMaximus]

Here's hoping that DMSI 3.2 can finally get the women I desire to want to be used by me sexually in NSA FWB arrangements!

[SargeMaximus]

Backstory: I've been wearing the pheromone "Hypnotica Social" every day for the past few days. Must say I'm liking the results.

But today I had a hit that I think was more DMSI related than HS. But since I was wearing the mone, I can't be sure. So I thought I'd post it here.

Hypnotica Social
Application:

1 Drop to left inner wrist.
Rubbed two wrists together then rubbed each wrist on the sides of the neck.

So here's the deal:

I'm walking doing D2D. This cute milf was walking towards me on her phone. As soon as we get within range (10 feet or so) she waves at me and starts talking to me.

She's slurring her words, obviously very drunk, but she was walking ok.

She kept winking at me and asked for directions to her house. I found her house on google maps and gave her directions.

I was working so I couldn't be inappropriate but I did ask her if she needed me to accompany her home (she was drunk, I wanted her to be ok) but she's like "nah, I'm fine" and stuff.

Anyhow, we talked for a bit and she laughed a lot, gave lots of winks then gave me a fist-bump as she left when I stopped at a house to knock the door.

Definitely seems more of a subliminal occurance but the convo may have been HS.

Who knows.

Either way, was a fun experience.

[SargeMaximus]

Just want to say how grateful I am working sales at my current company. Seriously.

I was on the phone today with some customers helping them sort out an issue they had with the service agreement. I just love helping people come towards a positive outcome. I love being a part of that. And I love people trusting me to help them. It makes me feel all warm and fuzzy and renews my faith in humanity.

I think it was Brian Tracy who said that being a bad salesperson will destroy your customer's faith in humanity, while being a good salesperson would renew it. It also works the other way, in that having good customers renews your faith in humanity.

I can't think of a better job. And I'm so scared I'll f*ck it up and lose it. I want to succeed, and I want to be able to keep doing this in this company for many years.

There aren't many good sales companies, but this one it seems good. From what I've noticed, and we have a great product and I can be the great customer service.

Just love it.

[rayrocanaldo]

Just want to say how grateful I am working sales at my current company. Seriously.

I was on the phone today with some customers helping them sort out an issue they had with the service agreement. I just love helping people come towards a positive outcome. I love being a part of that. And I love people trusting me to help them. It makes me feel all warm and fuzzy and renews my faith in humanity.

I think it was Brian Tracy who said that being a bad salesperson will destroy your customer's faith in humanity, while being a good salesperson would renew it. It also works the other way, in that having good customers renews your faith in humanity.

I can't think of a better job. And I'm so scared I'll f*ck it up and lose it. I want to succeed, and I want to be able to keep doing this in this company for many years.

There aren't many good sales companies, but this one it seems good. From what I've noticed, and we have a great product and I can be the great customer service.

Just love it.

I am happy that you are speaking positively and something is making you feel good Sarge.

[SargeMaximus]

Just want to say how grateful I am working sales at my current company. Seriously.

I was on the phone today with some customers helping them sort out an issue they had with the service agreement. I just love helping people come towards a positive outcome. I love being a part of that. And I love people trusting me to help them. It makes me feel all warm and fuzzy and renews my faith in humanity.

I think it was Brian Tracy who said that being a bad salesperson will destroy your customer's faith in humanity, while being a good salesperson would renew it. It also works the other way, in that having good customers renews your faith in humanity.

I can't think of a better job. And I'm so scared I'll f*ck it up and lose it. I want to succeed, and I want to be able to keep doing this in this company for many years.

There aren't many good sales companies, but this one it seems good. From what I've noticed, and we have a great product and I can be the great customer service.

Just love it.

I am happy that you are speaking positively and something is making you feel good Sarge.

Thank you Ray.

[SargeMaximus]

So no surprise on the forum. I speak the truth and people can't deal. The sky is also blue, btw.

Anyhow, as for DMSI 3.2 I truly hope it can be useful to me. I do believe I will be able to resist the anti-porn/masturbation shit tho.

Game on Shannon.

[SargeMaximus]

Went to a club tonight. Was wearing bad wolf. I have no idea why anyone would be into clubbing. Lame experience. I do have a few notables but I'm on my phone so I'll post them when next I'm at the computer.

[SargeMaximus]

What a f*cking awesome day.

Just now was driving home with a few of the guys from my company house. Me and the driver were singing along to Johnny Cash.

Pure Bliss.

I LOVE this company.

And if this is in any way a result of DMSI, thank you Shannon, from the bottom of my heart.

For whatever reason, singing along to music was looked down on in my family, but not here.

I can't understate how grateful I am to be able to be me and be supported. It's freaking beautiful.

I could cry right now but I'ma watch some porn instead.

[Raykon]

What a f*cking awesome day.

Just now was driving home with a few of the guys from my company house. Me and the driver were singing along to Johnny Cash.

Pure Bliss.

I LOVE this company.

And if this is in any way a result of DMSI, thank you Shannon, from the bottom of my heart.

For whatever reason, singing along to music was looked down on in my family, but not here.

I can't understate how grateful I am to be able to be me and be supported. It's freaking beautiful.

I could cry right now but I'ma watch some porn instead.

Glad your happy right now. I'm very happy for you. Personally I'm going through an emotional roller coaster/rough time so to see you happy is great. btw im not expecting pity from anyone, i'm aware I will come out of my slump stronger then i've ever been with even more awareness of how to react in relationships in the future.

But yeah man it's nice to be able to be yourself and be appreciated.

[SargeMaximus]

What a f*cking awesome day.

Just now was driving home with a few of the guys from my company house. Me and the driver were singing along to Johnny Cash.

Pure Bliss.

I LOVE this company.

And if this is in any way a result of DMSI, thank you Shannon, from the bottom of my heart.

For whatever reason, singing along to music was looked down on in my family, but not here.

I can't understate how grateful I am to be able to be me and be supported. It's freaking beautiful.

I could cry right now but I'ma watch some porn instead.

Glad your happy right now. I'm very happy for you. Personally I'm going through an emotional roller coaster/rough time so to see you happy is great. btw im not expecting pity from anyone, i'm aware I will come out of my slump stronger then i've ever been with even more awareness of how to react in relationships in the future.

But yeah man it's nice to be able to be yourself and be appreciated.

Thanks bro, glad to have you in my corner.

Yeah I read your latest about the girl. I've lost more girls over text than I can count! But yeah, maybe this will help. I did the math a while ago and if there are 3.5 billion women on the planet and only .1% of them are HOT, that's still 3,000,000 (I may have calculated wrong but you get the idea)

[Raykon]

What a f*cking awesome day.

Just now was driving home with a few of the guys from my company house. Me and the driver were singing along to Johnny Cash.

Pure Bliss.

I LOVE this company.

And if this is in any way a result of DMSI, thank you Shannon, from the bottom of my heart.

For whatever reason, singing along to music was looked down on in my family, but not here.

I can't understate how grateful I am to be able to be me and be supported. It's freaking beautiful.

I could cry right now but I'ma watch some porn instead.

Glad your happy right now. I'm very happy for you. Personally I'm going through an emotional roller coaster/rough time so to see you happy is great. btw im not expecting pity from anyone, i'm aware I will come out of my slump stronger then i've ever been with even more awareness of how to react in relationships in the future.

But yeah man it's nice to be able to be yourself and be appreciated.

Thanks bro, glad to have you in my corner.

Yeah I read your latest about the girl. I've lost more girls over text than I can count! But yeah, maybe this will help. I did the math a while ago and if there are 3.5 billion women on the planet and only .1% of them are HOT, that's still 3,000,000 (I may have calculated wrong but you get the idea)

Yeah me too lmao. So many. some things that i've learned that have helped me allot is to wait at least 5 - 10 minute and actually think of the perfect thing to say. Usually my first instinct / thing i would want to say is wrong or boring.


Also be interesting whenever possible. Interesting = not boring. = fun = enjoyable to talk too.