The Journey to Freedom: DMSI 3.1

[FREAK4LIFE]

The word "creepy" is inherently a shaming word. It's a non-descript word that has no concrete meaning, very nebulous. It's only function is to elicit feelings of shame in the target so they'll change their behavior. Hence why women use it against low value males that exhibit sexual attraction.

Protect yourself. I, for one, will keep recording anything I choose, regardless of how "creepy" it seems. My personal safety is now important than any "morality" involving the modern woman, who has no morality of her own.

No man you have to "TRUST" the "LADY" to do the "RIGHT THING".

She is after all "THE FAIRER SEX".

How dare you "QUESTION HER"?

Her "MODESTY" "NEEDS" to be "PROTECTED AT ALL COSTS" even at the cost of your "BOZACK"!!

That is what "REAL MEN DO BRUH"!

[Nox]

You guys ever consider the idea that you're stuck in a paradigm that you're vehemently speaking out against?

Just thoughts

[chaosvrgn]

No, we're responding to an established pattern of behavior that's easily observable in western culture and western women. And you're playing into that pattern by subtly suggesting that we're inherently wrong and misguided and should follow a paradigm that clearly wouldn't benefit us as men.

[Nox]

I never said that, but thank you for the reply. Was just curious.

[Raikahoken]

Hi all!! It's been a long time since my last update! Hope everyone's been doing well. Really glad to see everyone getting better results from DMSI.

The past two weeks I was on holiday in the UK. I was still on 2 loops of B. I had a great time! What they say about solo travel is really true. I heard more and experienced more than if I had someone to travel with. I saw so many things, it will be hard to describe them all! And above them all, I had an amazing time at Wimbledon. That's the main reason I went there in the first place. To see the Maestro Federer on the grass at Center Court was a dream come true!! I was starting to enjoy being with myself more at the end of the two weeks. Next time I will travel longer.

I saw so much beautiful nature in Scotland. I have considered myself more of a city boy but I want to see more nature from now on.

On the women front, it wasn't great unfortunately. The British ladies were certainly not interested in me lol. I was absolutely ghosted in the streets. I think it has to do with the fact that I am Asian and I am not calibrated with the British/European culture. I have the skinny and geeky Asian look. I did have some matches on Tinder and I went out with a girl in Edinburgh, but there was clearly no attraction from her. Most of the conversations with the matches also didn't go anywhere. At least they are more polite than Asian girls. When I come back to Europe I will be back with a better physique, better fashion sense and better vocal projection.

While travelling it finally dawned on me that I really can be anywhere in the world. I had my laptop with me and was running my business fine. This thing works. I don't have to do anything I don't want to do and I can do whatever I want, be wherever I want.

With that realization, I felt something has shifted. I no longer worry as much about what I lack. Now I only want to think about what fun I can have. I want to have as much fun as I can have in my life. How fit can I be? How rich can I become? How creative can I be? How hot can my women be? It's time to find out.

My mental state has also become more resilient overall. I had to camp for two days while queuing for Wimbledon tickets. On the second day, it rained the whole day and night. It was cold and dark and wet in my tent, but I was fine. In fact I saw the positive of the situation, if I can get through this, watching the match tomorrow in the sunshine would feel all the sweeter. The Chinese girl in the tent next to mine was on the phone and crying over the situation. I invited her over to my tent but she wasn't having it lol.

I am now looking at getting back to the gym (haven't gone for 7 months) and doing voice training. The last one is especially important, because while overseas I realize that my stutter is really putting a limit to my success in life. I can mumble in my home country and get by fine, but speaking softly with a stutter really doesn't cut it overseas. I want to squash this for good. I am also looking at learning martial arts. Krav Maga looks good. I will start that once I come back from my Malaysia trip at the end of next month.

It's exciting to see MLS5.5G finally released! Although MLS is really tempting, I will stick with DMSI for now as I still see powerful gains from it. This weekend I would have completed three weeks of B. I'll see how I feel at the end of the week. Maybe I will switch back to A. In the meantime, I'll be reading the MLS journals with excitement

[Raikahoken]

Day 64 (Day 22 of B)
5 loops of B ultrasonic

I have noticed a strange thing on B. These days my IQ seems to have taken a hit. Just this morning I realized that I left my earphones in the plane two days ago. It's a real bummer because it's a custom IEM that cost me almost $2K. The airport lost and found didn't find it. Looks like it's gone forever. I really liked that IEM! Today on the way to seeing my FWB I also miscalculated the travel time badly. I should have left home one hour earlier. Ended up very late. I never made these kinds of mistakes! In London I also got lost multiple times despite using Google Maps. It's really frustrating. I feel like my brain is not focusing on these details anymore, it feels these are not important. Instead it focuses more on my sensory inputs.

On the flipside, I am beginning to feel the autopilot. This autopilot was more pronounced on 5 loops. Met my FWB today. The whole interaction felt very effortless and smooth, almost without conscious thinking. It's quite eerie now that I think about it. She was very turned on once we were alone. She was wearing a naughty lingerie, and I had my way with her in an animalistic way. No performance issues. Afterward she was very lovey dovey.

Frankly I am not liking this loss of cognitive focus. I have always valued intelligence highly so I am bewildered why my subconscious doesn't think it's important to be intelligent and on top of my shit to be sexually irresistible. I am running B until the weekend's up. After that I really think I will switch back to A. Or maybe switch to MLS. I miss being mentally alert and on top of things. I'll take stock of priorities again on Sunday and see.

[JackOfHearts]

It's not making you stupid, it's more like your brain is busy working on something so you don't have access to all your brain capacity. I don't like it either, I guess it's the price to pay.

[RTBoss]

It's resistance, and it will fade, eventually. Plus what A360 said. I had this same problem, on multiple versions of DMSI.

[Dr. Strangelove]

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Day 64 (Day 22 of B)
5 loops of B ultrasonic

[Duke.Togo]

I echo what RT and Strangelove said, it's basically resistance you're dealing with. I've had many days of brain fog, and that's mainly due to the fact that the sub is trying to overcome an internal fight within yourself. You have two competing thoughts going against each other.

It will pass. The only thing I can recommend for you to try out is take two days off from the sub a week. That helped me immensely. It gave me time to process the sub and still run the loops. I found that things balanced out for me quite a bit after that.

[Raikahoken]

If in similar situation when outclassed intellectually, do as I and f*ck her stupid, thus meet her halfway.

LOL


Thanks for all your suggestions! It doesn't feel like resistance though. Maybe it is, but it feels more like my subconscious is disregarding those as unimportant details. Even when I lost my expensive IEM I was like oh well whatever. I'll do what Duke suggested and take a few days off here and there. Actually I won't listen tonight.

But really, the loss of my IEM is a big hassle. Now I can't listen to subs on the road anymore. Which means I can only use ultrasonic when I sleep. Can't sleep with noise. I can always buy new earphones but once you go custom, it's hard to wear anything else... Won't shell out the dough for a new custom pair yet...

[Raikahoken]

Day 65 (Day 23 of B)
5 loops ultrasonic

This weekend was quite fun overall. On Saturday I went to the jeweler to collect a dog tag that I printed with my company logo. It's a frivolity. But I found that I didn't specify that I wanted it engraved. They printed it instead. It doesn't look nice. Again another braindead mistake, I would have specified it last time. I was so annoyed with myself.

Then I met a friend and watched a movie. I didn't enjoy spending time with him anymore, it becomes more obvious that he's someone with lots of limiting beliefs and lives to avoid pain rather than seek fun.

After that I met the 19 year old girl from 2 weeks ago. I was still annoyed from the dog tag and from my friend, so I wasn't in the best mood. I just stuck to the game plan and executed it to get into her pants again. Chill conversation over coffee. I wasn't in the mood to talk honestly. I casually mentioned let's go to the hotel we went last week, she was like ok. It's surprising to see how low this girl's ASD is. So we went there. No resistance at all. She was very horny. I was quite lazy to escalate but she helped me along. I lasted not very long but longer than the last time with her. Afterward she asked me about my experiences. She herself only had only been sexual with one guy and one girl. No emotional clinginess, I feel a FWB vibe from her. Well that's all I want from her anyway. Let's call her M1 now.

Watched a dance show at night. I had a good talk with my mates. One friend drove me home.

A girl on Tinder messaged me first. It's rare a girl messaged me first. She's hot too. I replied slow and she would reply very fast. Maybe just an attention ho. We'll see.

Day 66 (Day 24 of B)
5 loops ultrasonic

Today was just a day full of dance classes and rehearsals. 7 hours of dance in total. Really exhausting. The instructor of the afternoon class was really cute. She touched me a few times to correct me and we held nice eye contact a few times.

Another hot girl flirted with me on Bumble. Quite a rare thing for me. She's a pole dancer and agreed to show me some pole dancing. In the past I would have gone after setting up the logistics more aggressively but I was too lazy. Resistance? Anyhow, it's nice to have hot girls showing interest finally.

M1 asked me out for movie and drinks. As I was noting her down in my spreadsheet, I realized she's the worst among all the girls that have been my FWB and above. She just barely passes my standard. I resolve not to taint my hall of fame again!

I thought long and hard of what I want in life right now. It seems to me that DMSI is bringing out a more primitive part of me. My conscious thought has less control now and my instincts are amplified. I think it is a good thing for now. I haven't been in touch with my instincts and I don't really know what I am really interested in. What I want from DMSI is a knowledge of what I am really interested in deep down. Once I have a clearer idea, I will move on to MLS. Right now I feel that if I move to MLS it will be like stepping on the gas without a clear direction. So it's DMSI for now. I'll give version B at least one more week.

[CatMan]

I echo what RT and Strangelove said, it's basically resistance you're dealing with. I've had many days of brain fog, and that's mainly due to the fact that the sub is trying to overcome an internal fight within yourself. You have two competing thoughts going against each other.

I can also confirm the brain fog phenomenon.

Like a hazy, sleepy feeling so often. It's annoying, but no doubt indicative of the huge conflict and struggle going on inside, and energy expenditure from it all. Eventually, it should be overcome once the old programming is replaced.

[Raikahoken]

This week has been fun. I was admitted to the hospital for two nights. I've had this abscess on my right butt cheek for over a month now. It's right on top of the bone that I sit on. It comes and goes and it's generally tolerable, but this week it just got worse to the point it's too painful to sit. So I just decided to cut the damn thing off for good.

I didn't know that I would get admitted to the hospital, I thought it'd just take a few minutes to remove. But apparently I need full body anesthesia for the small surgery. Ok...

Well nothing dramatic happened. They put me under and the next thing I knew it was over. The hospital staff were very nice and treated me very well. There were a handful of cute nurses and they acted giggly around me, that's about it. Nice food and a private bed. I don't have to pay anything, it's all covered by insurance. Though it is an annoyance because I was just starting to gather back the momentum for my daily routine and work after the two week holiday to London. Also, I won't be able to do any exercise for the next two weeks at the very least. Damn!!

But I feel very chill about it overall. These days on DMSI 3.1B it seems I can't be bothered to worry anymore. I just saw the upsides and try to enjoy myself in the hospital. At least I had the downtime to finish 2 books (about Richard Branson) and I had a relaxing time cared by pretty nurses. My sister also came to bring me my laptop, so I could still do my work and listen to DMSI.

I plan to switch to MLS on 21 August. I still have much to gain from DMSI, but there are more important goals than women right now. The holiday season is coming and I have been dragging my feet in learning marketing properly. I want to nail it so I can rake it as much $$ in the holiday season. After that, I will switch back to DMSI 3.2 in December. Hopefully DMSI would have been released then, Dec and Jan are good hunting time. From now till 21 Aug, I have one date planned. Let's see what happens with her.