Rayhon's Emotional pain healing v2 - Heal the pain, let me love again.

[Raykon]

Just decided I've been wanting to use DMSI 3 for the wrong reasons. For the healing aspect and not the getting laid part. Realized my anxiety/depression is coming back and I no longer want to be social or extroverted like the past.

I carry allot of shame from the porn i've seen and guilt from selling drugs and fear from having went to jail and might be going to jail again in 5 months although it's very unlikely and percentage is less then 5 percent now.

I noticed I'm no longer as mentally healthy as I was after AM v6 and during WM/SM.

Social anxiety and confidence wise externally i'm still 1000 times better then before using subliminals. Before I lived in constant social anxiety and it was my norm.

I've become overly introverted and I have allot to heal I feel.

This is going to be a good run. 5.5 technology

[Raykon]

going to run EPHRA 2 until Jan 1st. So about a month at I'l be using the program. I already feel it's effects 4 days in running it 8-12 hours a night.


I feel happier in general, find myself bursting out in a laughter and it's more pure. My laugh even changed subtly. I'm also thinking about issues in my life and relationships with people.

I purchased MLS 5.g SHannon, I was wonder which program is better and more efficient in regards to learning how to rap and flow and produce rap beats / music.

MLS has allot of modules that I find would enhance things like freestyling and memory of words.

That being said Natural song and lyric writing is specific and exactly what I want to happen but the technology is 4g.

What do you think would be more beneficial? MLS to help my memory and learning ability when learing how to produce music. Or Natural song and lyric writing that hits the heart of the matter.

[Raykon]

So far EPHRA 2 has been exactly what I needed internally and felt was missing last few months.

[Bwarrior]

E2 helped me become more extrovert in just 2 months. E2 will help you too, just believe.

[Raykon]

This program has made me realize that I want to lower my Testosterone Replacement therapy dose and go back to a lower / average testosterone life versus the extremely above average replacement doses I give myself.


I noticed my personality is naturally feminine (not gay, not metro sexual ,) feminine in the same since that most artists, musicians dancers males are.

Also I noticed my extreme empathy which is natural in my personality becomes extremely diminished when I do higher doses of Test. My personality isn't nearly as lovable and awesome.


I never had high test growing up and even while on AM and Sex magnet I was always low test. It was after woman magnet I decided to use steroids which led me to ruining my natural production until I decide to go for 6 months without any test at all in my body to heal my body naturally. waiting for a better situation my life before I heal my body.. or i might stay on TRT.



but either way i'm going to lower my dose to my natural personality that I had before roids.

For the record I had all those amazing results with women BEFORE roids so I was low Test and higher estrogen then I have been for the last year.

I had more results with women during those times. During AM / SM / WM last year.



I feel more confident with higher test and I feel better confidence wise. But humans are supposed to be emotional and by making my self cold I diminish my personality. I've tested this on myself
i've been on 0 test and been on EXTREMELY high test and every where in between and i can tell you my personality goes to shit when on high test and i'm a completely different person.

Socially I was doing allot better before being on higher test as well.


I subtly feel some issues being cleared out but nothing too dramatic I've noticed yet.

I've been working hard on my music and haven't been thinking about women at all lately. That happened to me last winter too during BASE 2.1.

[Raykon]

I was talking to mother in a more relaxed and happy way. I went up to her showing her some artistic thing I made out of the snow that completely covered my 1981 Mazda rx 7. My mom I usually hate being around her because she always nags or is negative.

Snow covered the whole car except the front pop up head lights and mouth so it looked super sweet after I did touch ups to it with my hands to make it look even better.