09-07-2016, 06:53 PM
(09-07-2016, 02:53 PM)chaosvrgn Wrote: Agree with Kurohawk: Definitely LOTS of inner changes.
So many that I don't know where to begin. First, the healing modules is unlocking a whole range of emotions I never knew I had. I'm being more in the moment, enjoying the sights and sounds of nothing in particular -- just a feeling of immense gratitude and love. For example, I was on I-95, drove down a huge hill where I saw nothing but beautiful, green trees for miles and it took my breath away. If there weren't so many cars behind me, I would've slowed down and enjoyed the view a bit more. The cool thing is, I feel in complete control of those emotions. In the past, I was swayed so much by my anger, as I'm sure some of you have noticed. Now, it's subsiding, and being replaced with a sense of calm centeredness.
I'm noticing that I'm getting much more dominant, but in a way I never expected. This feels like true, genuine self-control and boundary setting. I had a female friend call me a "moron" last night. That was about the third time she said it in the convo. I simply said, "watch the name calling." She stammered out this ridiculous excuse, and I simply smiled and changed the subject. In the past, I would've gotten mad and plotted some kind of retaliation, thinking I was being "alpha" for putting her in her place. Now, it's dawned on me that it's much more "alpha" to set the boundary and walk away if they continue. Not sure if this is DMSI programming or AM6 programming being unlocked by DMSi or a mixture of both.
I'm also enjoying music a lot more, paying attention to the lyrics and being moved by them. While out and about, "Truly," by Delerium (P.S. the album "Chimera" is a masterpiece) came on Pandora and I was totally lost in the chorus. If anyone drove by and saw me, they would've thought that I was going mad by the way I was dancing in the car:
From "Truly" by Delerium
So truly, if there's light then I want to see it
Now that I know what I am living for
Truly, if there's joy then I want to feel it
Here in this world is where I want to be
It's like, in the past I've been afraid to even show emotion. Wouldn't dance in clubs. Wouldn't sing in public (something I've been doing a lot more). And it's like I level'd up or something.
I don't understand how the f*ck this is happening after 3 days of running this sub. The inner changes are so profound that it's causing resistance. I don't want to believe that it's real, that this could REALLY be me. It's almost like I MISS the safety of that old person. But there's no f*cking way I'm going back to that -- EVER.
In regards to women, I'm still getting the above baseline attraction. Smiles, giggles. Right now, I seem totally uninterested though. Not what most of you want to hear, but it's true. My guess is that the healing modules is still working it's way through my rather torrid past and healing all the trauma.
That being said, for those that are reading just to hear about p*ssy: I'm having thoughts that seem like they're coming from a really deep place that abundant sex is already mine. Not something that's coming. Not something I have to work for -- but it's ALREADY HERE. That, it's mine if I just go out and say I want it. I'm going to be very interested in how the Kanye concert goes and my next date with #3 (either next Friday or Saturday). I feel like two lucky women are going to get the greatest d*ck down in their entire lives.
If you're on the fence about trying DMSI v2.4, stop worrying and just jump in. This is easily one of the best $115 you'll ever spend.
Dude, you're making it hard for us E2 users! I'd love to be so carefree that I sing in public and dance without worrying what others think. Even though I know 3.0 is coming, I just might have to get a copy of 2.4
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