07-03-2016, 03:58 AM
(This post was last modified: 07-03-2016, 04:00 AM by JackOfHearts.)
Stage 4 Day 32:
The girl I talked about in the last post admitted that she was completely wet when she got home after our date. We were talking stupids things over text and the conversation turned sexual because I'm horny as hell and I can't prevent myself from talking about sex. So after her denying it a bit and acting as nothing was there she admitted that she was all wet when she got home. She said it was unusual because she didn't notice she was horny (her own word).
Besides this I went out yesterday with friends playing pools. I noticed a lot of women checking me out, a lot. It's strange how they behave compared to the first stages ,though, it's like they are subtle about it or it's me who don't care that much about it. I did notice myself not paying attention too much to what was happening around. I know they are looking at me, like all the girls that were there at one point checked me out. But It's nothing I look for as much as I use to do.
Denial denial denial denial. So much denial in a girl mouth its astounding. You really have to put the word out of their mouth.
I begin to realize more that a friend of mine that I use to consider very alpha has a lot of anxieties . He is unable to let go of his feeling, he has a lot of insecurities and it seems so obvious to me now. It's like he is always expecting someone to stab him in the back, like everyone is a potential enemy all the time. He can't really relax and enjoy something completely. I did know something wasn't ok with him but I thought maybe it was his big alpha personality. While he is alpha he also have a lot of deep seated fears. It's hard to talk to him about that because each time he says I try to manipulate him. So a lot of emotional weaknesses he has.
The girl I talked about in the last post admitted that she was completely wet when she got home after our date. We were talking stupids things over text and the conversation turned sexual because I'm horny as hell and I can't prevent myself from talking about sex. So after her denying it a bit and acting as nothing was there she admitted that she was all wet when she got home. She said it was unusual because she didn't notice she was horny (her own word).
Besides this I went out yesterday with friends playing pools. I noticed a lot of women checking me out, a lot. It's strange how they behave compared to the first stages ,though, it's like they are subtle about it or it's me who don't care that much about it. I did notice myself not paying attention too much to what was happening around. I know they are looking at me, like all the girls that were there at one point checked me out. But It's nothing I look for as much as I use to do.
Denial denial denial denial. So much denial in a girl mouth its astounding. You really have to put the word out of their mouth.
I begin to realize more that a friend of mine that I use to consider very alpha has a lot of anxieties . He is unable to let go of his feeling, he has a lot of insecurities and it seems so obvious to me now. It's like he is always expecting someone to stab him in the back, like everyone is a potential enemy all the time. He can't really relax and enjoy something completely. I did know something wasn't ok with him but I thought maybe it was his big alpha personality. While he is alpha he also have a lot of deep seated fears. It's hard to talk to him about that because each time he says I try to manipulate him. So a lot of emotional weaknesses he has.