The Modern Libertine's diary

[RainbowAbyss]

sounds like some wisdom my friend, and I couldn't agree more.
honesty leads to authenticity which makes life infinitely more rewarding on all accounts. I'm happy you have transcended worry about attraction and are now more available for unconditioned love

[Cortez]

Yes, transcending worry for attraction is such a relief. It's just so unnecessary.


Btw, speaking of attraction, Sex Magnet is working wonders. I'm not sure what it's doing at the moment, but for some reason women are flirting with me a LOT more. I recently ran in to a girl that I knew when I was 17. Back then she was obsessed with some other guy and I was the nice guy friend who's shoulder she cried on and eventually admitted my feelings to her only to be severely shot down. Skip to almost ten years later. She saw me and said "I'll bet you don't remember me." and I said "Yeah, of course I remember you, we only hung out all the time." Ever since then, she's been sending me message after message on facebook, text messages etc. Some of them being quite insecure like "You don't talk much. You don't have to talk to me if you don't want to." When women have a crush on a guy they can get so insecure. She's not my type anymore, though, but I'll be nice.

Other girls have been randomly shoving me, messing with me, touching at any available opportunity. Just fun stuff like that. Also, I noticed that I'm way less reactive than I used to be to peoples tests. It's like they're talking smack to a tree and trying to get it to react.

[Spiral]

LOL to the last line.

[RainbowAbyss]

whoever talks smack to a tree is a sorry sap,
is there the sense of seeing a women you are drawn to and
moving things forward with her, or is it more of a happy go lucky
way of meeting women?

[Cortez]

I am very happy go lucky right, BUT there is a woman who I really like right now. I hung out with her quite a bit this past month. She's another Leo...go figure. However, she's nothing like the last girl. The last one I went out with because I liked her well enough and she lived like 2 miles away, lol. It was just easier. This girl's a real sweetheart. I don't care that she lives so far away. We have amazing chemistry together too. She's the one that I mentioned a few posts back that made me dance with her first time I went to the ren faire last month. This girl is really honest too, and has told me outright that she likes me. That's so refreshing, most women have such had shells nowadays. I appreciate women that are brave enough to be honest and take honesty in return. Not to mention we're really comfortable around each other as well, but with a good amount of sexual tension between us. It's just a good example of what a good coming together between two people that like each other should be. After that lame date last week, I thought to myself "Who cares if she lives that far away or if it even works out? You really like this girl." and so I sent her a message on facebook saying that I thought about it and I really don't want to wait another year to see her again and we should get together soon. She said she doesn't want to wait to see me again either and "soon" better not mean October(Because I usually see her around halloween. I spend most of my halloween partying in her town). It really doesn't matter if we end up getting together or not. The important thing is that we're both honest and I'm sure that's refreshing for her as well. I only want to move more and more towards that regardless of the outcome.

[Cortez]

Wow, stage 2 is making me so horny, lol and it is working well in all ways. Everything that I say seems to get interpreted by women as being sexual even when I'm not being that way and they're very comfortable being sexual with me as well. Sex magnet is working well. I can't wait to see what kind of madness it brings. It's all very funny.

[RainbowAbyss]

sounds awesome,
I just hope it is work appropriate

[ronatello]

Wow, stage 2 is making me so horny, lol and it is working well in all ways. Everything that I say seems to get interpreted by women as being sexual even when I'm not being that way and they're very comfortable being sexual with me as well. Sex magnet is working well. I can't wait to see what kind of madness it brings. It's all very funny.

You too, eh?
The "horniness" spiked way up big time in week 2, settled down somewhat during 3 and now it's back up somewhat again. Gotta love it!
Glad to see you're enjoying SM2011, Cortez!

[Cortez]

I keep having these odd "off" days where I feel kind of depressed. There's something that's being worked on in me. Also, I think I need to get some new hobbies, because I socialize a decent amount, but I'd like to be doing it a lot more. I need to make some more friends. The ones I have are great, but I only have a few close ones left as I always drift away from some friends and make new ones and I feel like it's one of those "making new friends" times for me. As I change, I make different types of friends Ya feel me? I'll be working on that.

However, even on my "off days" I am getting tons of attention. Just now for instance, I was at the store shopping for a BBQ we're having tonight at my house and I look over at one of those mini bank things that are in grocery stores and a woman is just blatantly staring at me smiling, so of course I smiled back. I flirt with most women, lol. There's also a ton of girls at work that have been all over me. Out of all of those, there's one I like.

Another thing that keeps happening is that I keep having these bursts of immense joy and compassion for other people. It's a damn good feeling and I wish that I could feel this way all the time. One can aspire for such things. God, listen to me talk...I'm talking about joy and love and all that now as my goals now. A year ago all I cared about was getting laid with the hottest chicks I could, lmao.

[ronatello]

I have those "off" days as well so don't feel left out. I was rather bummed today, reminding myself once again that I'm not in Cali doing some salsa dancing. Why am I so hung up about going out there? I don't know. I just know there is a "pull" that is trying to get me to go out there once again.
But I'm like you when it regards to be making new friends. I'm feeling a push to branch out and go to different places and try to get out of the rut that I am in (the dreadful comfort zone).

[Shannon]

Cortez, how come you didn't accept her invitation (smile) to say hello and introduce yourself? Could have made a friend at the very least.

[Cortez]

She was across the store and I didn't want to lose my place in line, lol.

[RainbowAbyss]

Cortez, and Ron. if u read this, hows approaching women on
sex magnet?

[Shannon]

She was across the store and I didn't want to lose my place in line, lol.

Fail!