"I used to be an Orphan"

[Hyenabird]

That's a line from one of my top 10 favorite movies called Black Dynamite. I've been buying subliminals here off and on for the past 7 years under a different account.I've also lurked this forum for the same amount of time.Even though I would jump from subliminal to subliminal sometimes in less than a week and then not do anything for months on end I noticed something.The subliminals made by Shannon definitely had an effect on me.Trying to hack my brain has always been an amusing hobby of mine.I've also used pheromones and even so-called magical items for social experiments.My personality from about 16 up til now has been of aloofness,apathy,and introversion.Obviously these things have made it hard to connect to people and even harder to care.Since I'm still human however I still find myself wondering what it would be to be with a woman and have close friends.I decided to join this forum basically to give myself accountability and I plan on doing a Maximum Sexuality Journal and then doing ephra2.0 after that.
As you can see I suck at introductions.You guys can call me Hyena.I'm a 30 yr old black guy from the Midwest.I was raised Christian and my peers were inner-city(hood) kids.I never really accepted either way of living.I smoke and drink but less and less because obviously I never got much from it.Myerrs Briggs called me an INTP personality type which is weird because I hated everything about school except maybe writing fictional stories and some research.The last 10 years of my life were a blur but I haven't accomplished anything personally or professionally.So here I am

[JackOfHearts]

Welcome here,
7 years wow, what did you get out that ?

[Benjamin]

Welcome man, good luck.

Just a heads up though, we have a rule against discussing religion other than in a thread we set up http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-7533.html

[Hyenabird]

Welcome here,
7 years wow, what did you get out that ?

Mostly just the realization that none of my issues are unfixable.I was trying numerous other stuff but never really sticking with anything.Usually I would try a subliminal for a few days to a month.I think the most notable usage was when I used aura of sexiness in conjunction with be irresistibly attractive to beautiful women and had all kinds of attention.I never really capitalized on it though because I was always tired.It was weird because I always thinking about women but never taking that first step.I really loved socializing is just a fun game.I wanted to talk to everyone but couldn't get any respect or attraction.Most recently tried emotional healing aid 2 and had the biggest breakthroughs in my life in a few days.So of course I bought Maximum Sexuality and decided to run that instead.

[Hyenabird]

Welcome man, good luck.

Just a heads up though, we have a rule against discussing religion other than in a thread we set up http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-7533.html

I appreciate it.