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Started AM again. - somebodynew - 03-26-2015
I started 2 days ago.
DAY 3
i started feeling anxiety really big and depression.
I am feeling very irritade, angry etc. In general i am like that but now its like 20x moer. Today i was screaming at a guy so much that everybody was calming me down to stop. Guy was like a child confused and didnt understand what was happening ( he did make a big mistake and i had to suffer becaues of it - and in general i would probably break his head ) but now ...
I was like a steam machine on him. When i finished - i started feeling pain in chest. Went to my apartment which is near and just fell in bed. SLept for 2 hours - now i am super tired. I feel like my past is hunting me ... like something is so wrong.
But when it comes to girls - i havent been chasing girls for some months. Now - i thin i called every girl in my phone book, and i must say i dont know why - but felt good
its really rough - especially depression
RE: Started AM again. - somebodynew - 03-27-2015
Day 4
Anxiety, rumbling thoughts, tired , depression - one word chaos in the head.
I am full of some "fears" ... anger.
Everything annoys me, just feel so bad - past is hunting me. I have senteces in my head "Release the boy and become a man"
Than all bad things that happend with my previouse girlfriends ( some crazy shit ) are going trough my head .
Yesterday i had a dream of falling, and i was seeing all ex girlfriends laughing while i was falling.
Does it have to be this intense ? :/
RE: Started AM again. - somebodynew - 03-27-2015
also i am having chest pain ... anyone?
RE: Started AM again. - SargeMaximus - 03-27-2015
Anxiety causes chest pain look it up on googlexzzzznsjsn
o.O
RE: Started AM again. - somebodynew - 03-27-2015
this subliminal is killing me
RE: Started AM again. - adam225 - 03-27-2015
(03-27-2015, 06:07 AM)somebodynew Wrote: also i am having chest pain ... anyone?
I get it too. I get it all over my chest and sometimes back. It's anxiety, you need to overcome it.
RE: Started AM again. - somebodynew - 03-27-2015
its spinning in my head - past/present / bad / good
like a volcano
RE: Started AM again. - GlaizenGold777 - 03-27-2015
How much time do you listen each day? Maybe you overuse it?
RE: Started AM again. - somebodynew - 03-27-2015
8h while i sleep
RE: Started AM again. - SargeMaximus - 03-27-2015
(03-27-2015, 08:01 AM)somebodynew Wrote: 8h while i sleep
Which subs have you done previously?
RE: Started AM again. - somebodynew - 03-27-2015
none, why should i? AM brings all together
RE: Started AM again. - Ricardo - 03-27-2015
I think Shannon should advise people new to subs to do something like ASC and/or EPRHA first. AM is quite a sub and as a first sub to use it can be a bit traumatic. I had a rough time with it especially stage 3, depression, mood swings and I was also getting heavy sensations in my chest and stomach but it passed off.
RE: Started AM again. - somebodynew - 03-27-2015
well than i will stick to it and see
RE: Started AM again. - SargeMaximus - 03-27-2015
(03-27-2015, 09:29 AM)somebodynew Wrote: well than i will stick to it and see
Yeah at this point you have to, simply because you have to finish it (says so in the directions).
But I'd say you've learned your first lesson which is to look before you leap.
When I first got here, I asked around and came to the conclusion that I do OGSF first. I'm glad I did, that sub was great for me.
Either way, if you keep your eye on your goal while still factoring in what you NEED to deal with, you'll be fine.