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RE: AM 5.0 Journal - K-Train - 08-20-2013
Most definitely, I see where you're coming. So then let me ask this, what do you feel is most important right now? Is it sexual performance/sex drive or is it curbing your masturbation? If it's sexual performance/sex drive then you've got OED 5G which would also remove guilt, shame, and fear or Improve Your Sex Drive 4G which would raise your sex drive up but that could cause an increase in masturbation if you don't have a willing participant to release that sexual energy on
. If it's curbing your masturbation habits then the closest thing to that would be Overcome Pornography.Either way, most of those programs (even the 4G ones) would need to be used after AM for maximum effectiveness. Decisions, decisions I know, but I'm sure you'll make the right choice. Just find a quiet place to relax and just reflect on the situation. Think about what's most important to you, and your happiness and think about how much you can afford. Good luck fellow Scorpio
RE: AM 5.0 Journal - Fonzy3 - 08-20-2013
(08-20-2013, 04:25 PM)AlphaScorpio Wrote: PSE Vol 2 sounds like I'd have alot of fun with it K-Train, but I'd be worried that I'd be creating artificial horniness if you get me, like I don't want to rely on an external thing creating a feeling/hormone reaction what do you think?
I think this rule depends on the person, anyone could get girls turned on naturally but using PSE is just another resource we can draw upon to get to our goal. You can take the long way or the short but you still get to the results and that's what is real. It doesn't matter go for what works.
Thanks
Fonzy
RE: AM 5.0 Journal - MJ1 - 08-20-2013
hey man
i finished reading your journal now
and i know how it feels when family says it's bad to have sex before marriage
it's even worst in my culture...
looking forward for updates
good luck!
MJ
RE: AM 5.0 Journal - AlphaScorpio - 08-28-2013
Day 29 - Stage 4
Hey guys, I've decided that I'll be giving more regular updates to the journal as I often notice something happen with the sub then forget it or just feel like it's normal so it doesn't help with the journal.
Today I went to my college induction day, I felt nervous as hell when I woke up, I was thinking stuff like "Oh I won't make any friends there" or "People will think I'm too intense/intimidating to talk to" "I dont want to be on my own" etc. But when I got there I saw one of my old best friends from secondary school (High school) and hung around him for the day. We had various interviews, talks and tutor sessions to help us get started, I felt quite serious and intense to everyone else but my old friend it was weird, One moment I'll be laughing and light hearted with my friend then when someone else talks or a teacher asks me a question I'll go pretty much dead serious and body tightens up. I wonder why this is. Maybe I see them as a threat?
Socially I've been active, I stayed round my friend's house to paint his wall for his parents a few days ago, Me and him stayed up late talking about stuff, He is also a scorpio so we usually have these deep conversations, He said that I seem to be quite an extrovert, I said what since like a yearish ago? He was like yeah kinda recently. I found this interesting. I talked to him about his Girlfriend who was messing him around and being controlling/hard to get, I gave him honest feedback and advice which he thanked me for (even though he went and did the same mistake after lol) But he was doing a bit of approval seeking/ more respectful to me during and after that discussion.
Girlswise I'm still not really seeing much happen because I still kinda feel like I can't take the lead and move things forward, I can joke and do some alright conversation but I can't get that intimate or close like touching them on the arm, tickling or anything like that
I want a girl really badly though if I'm honest. A few people have said to me recently that I come across as Aggressive/hard, One moment was when I was being all jokey and laughing and this guy says "Woah where did the hardcoreness go?" I replied I have a hard outer shell but really I've got a big, soft heart which he found amusing.
Another guy said to me that If he saw me walking towards him in the street he'd be scared, bare in mind this guy is pretty beta male lol.
Last scenario my scorpio friend said that I can sometimes be TOO confrontational/aggressive when sometimes I should just not give a **** I agreed but not sure whether that's me naturally or if AM has made some changes with that.
Ideally though I'd like a subtle undertone of aggression with a general sense of assertiveness and openness I dont want to come across as scary tbh.
I still have the sense of not feeling like the sub is not working which really pisses me off, If the results are not totally obvious I doubt the sub, it's frustrating...
Anywho thanks for reading folks.
RE: AM 5.0 Journal - AlphaScorpio - 08-29-2013
Pretty much 2 more days until stage 5, from what I've heard stage 5 sounds like real fun I'm looking forward to it.
Quick update I feel as if I want women alot more than I did before I started this sub, I also notice them looking at me when I walk past and there is this one particular one that I talk to who laughs at my jokes alot and does me favours ;p I feel like Im attracting women but I feel I limit myself to actually taking action, pain in the ass lol
RE: AM 5.0 Journal - Fonzy3 - 08-29-2013
Have a good time with stage 6 Scorpio! I duno if you are starting school this month but I bet that would be the perfect time to test the affects and when I read your most recent passage about women I thought that would probably all change during this upcoming stage... You'll have those females wanting you
Thanks
Fonzy
RE: AM 5.0 Journal - AlphaScorpio - 08-31-2013
Stage 4 Day 32
Last night I had a dream where I was part of the navy military, we were on board a ship. Infront of me there was a tactical map of the country and red dots symbolizing the places we were going to attack. There were many officers and high rank officials in a circle debating where there was a good place to attack. I looked at this one spot that I thought might be a great place to attack but I didn't want to say anything incase I looked stupid or was dissapproved of by the officers, As soon as I thought that another officer stepped in and told everyone about the spot that I was thinking of and how we could send the ships to the forefront whlilst the others flanked them and uproot the city, I was thinking that's a great plan and all the other officers agreed. This dream was pretty interesting because I felt like one of the high status officers even though I didnt want to speak my mind about the plan.
In other news, Today I've felt a little irritable when being around family, My parents asked me why I'm having an "Ignore parents day" I said I just don't want to hear about what you've been doing that I've missed out on, not in the mood. I do get annoyed the ask me "What's wrong, tell us what's bothering you" I'm thinking well it's none of your business and I have no patience to get into a soppy talk.
I got stopped by the police yesterday for pulling into a no turning right closed off road, I've had a few incidents with the police actually whilst on stage 4, weird. I was given a ticket which I'm annoyed about. The policeman was actually a very nice guy, and he shook my hand afterwards and said "Nice meeting you". I felt like I handled the situation well I admitted I had screwed up and gone into a no go zone I acted fairly alpha as well, which he seemed to respect.
After the incident with the police I went and got a curry from this place I've started going to, As I walked in I felt very comfortable, slow moving and relaxed I went in and asked the guy how much a vindiloo was, he said 5.80, I said "Ohh, do you think you'd be able to do it for 5.50?" "Yes of course, no problem" the guy said. He said do you want rice? I said I couldnt afford rice but he said "Oh i'll give you rice for free, no wories" I then come back 10 mins later to collect it and I also received a free can of coke, I thanked them and felt really good, what a nice, generous man he was ;p
Last incident, I was sitting on a bench after the police and curry incident and I was rolling a cig when these two people were walking down the street stopped and asked me where westgate street was, I said "You're on westgate street" with a friendly grin, They both had obviously had a couple of beers, Then the girl said "Ohh, Can I kiss you?" I thought mhmm why not, doesn't mean anything, So I said yeh go on then, so she came over and gave me a kiss, then after giggling she asked me can I have a snog? I said to her no, I'm not doing that in an assertive but firendly tone.
cool stuff
Starting stage 5 tonight
RE: AM 5.0 Journal - AlphaScorpio - 08-31-2013
(08-29-2013, 11:00 PM)Fonzy3 Wrote: Have a good time with stage 6 Scorpio! I duno if you are starting school this month but I bet that would be the perfect time to test the affects and when I read your most recent passage about women I thought that would probably all change during this upcoming stage... You'll have those females wanting you
Thanks
Fonzy
Thank You Fonzy, I am looking forward to it!
Yes, I'm starting college this september, I am slightly anxious about sticking to it but I hope that by my experiences on AM I'll learn to push on through the crap and not give up. I'm trying to get disciplined and organized for starting.
Just let me out of my inhibited cage and I'll be all over those females
lol I was thinking about using Improve your study habits, then I remembered you are using that now, How's that working for you?
RE: AM 5.0 Journal - SargeMaximus - 08-31-2013
Awesome progress dude! You seem so chill.
Totally relate to this as well:
(08-31-2013, 06:13 AM)AlphaScorpio Wrote: Just let me out of my inhibited cage and I'll be all over those females
Look forward to more updates.
RE: AM 5.0 Journal - AlphaScorpio - 08-31-2013
Just started to listen to stage 5 before I go out for the night. Going to a bar for a bit with a mate and his college friends then hopefully going to a bar/club. I'm anxious cause I'm not that familiar with his friends but I trust that I'll come out the other end just fine.
Plan for the night, stay grounded, stay focused on enjoying myself and not letting my mood fluctuate because of minor events. Let's just hope I get in with no ID haha
@Sarge Plenty of updates on the way I should hope, I am feeling polar, one minute I'm super chill, the next I'm irritable/intense.
RE: AM 5.0 Journal - AlphaScorpio - 08-31-2013
So it's 3:30 AM just got back from town, been a standard night, the bar was good fun me and people were chilling, drinking and dancing to crazy shitty music lol. Was mostly a pretty decent night until my best mate went off with his girlfriend leaving me to his friends and random people I didnt know, I felt a little pissed off but I thought fuck it and texted him saying I'm off cya round instead of desperately looking for him to cling too like I would've a few months ago.
I've made my mind up that unless I'm with a good bunch of mates that I am close with, clubs are not my scene, people change when they go there it's all about status and wasting your money on girls you won't even get to be fair, lots of douchebags. I watched these guys who had no self-respect or dignity empty their wallets on these fake looking entitled females just hoping they could go home with one. I pity them to be honest :/
I enjoyed the music in the downstairs (bar part of the club) they played some of my favorite stuff like prodigy, pantera and limp bizkit reminded me of my metalhead days
I did end up talking to some of the people in the group and a few randomers, I asked this one random guy in a suit for a lighter he said here take this cig, I first thought that he was just offering me his cigarrette so I starting toking it and he goes "What the fuck, why did you steal my cig?" I laughed and realized that he meant for me to light me cig off of his. He said I like you, you've got some serious balls my friend. I was a bit confused about the whole situation to be honest...
Few looks from women and one or two trying to grind on me but I just wasnt in the mood, not my scene really.
At the end of the day I didnt spend a penny of my money and it was better than sitting at home playing halo 3 all night so I'm satisfied.
Aside from the journal if Shannon happens to read this post, have you got an ETA for AM6? I know from your journal that it's had a few complications but I'd be interested in being able to use it shortly after I finish AM5, If it's not out by then I'll probably run ASC 5 again and then do another run through of AM5. Either way I'm sticking to the alpha side of life
RE: AM 5.0 Journal - SargeMaximus - 08-31-2013
(08-31-2013, 06:34 PM)AlphaScorpio Wrote: Few looks from women and one or two trying to grind on me but I just wasnt in the mood, not my scene really.
At the end of the day I didnt spend a penny of my money and it was better than sitting at home playing halo 3 all night so I'm satisfied.
Aside from the journal if Shannon happens to read this post, have you got an ETA for AM6? I know from your journal that it's had a few complications but I'd be interested in being able to use it shortly after I finish AM5, If it's not out by then I'll probably run ASC 5 again and then do another run through of AM5. Either way I'm sticking to the alpha side of life
:o
Sounds awesome homie.
I'm curious as to why you don't want to go on to SM or WM. What is it about AM that you'd rather stick to?
RE: AM 5.0 Journal - AlphaScorpio - 08-31-2013
A few reasons really;
1. I want to fully solidify myself as an Alpha Male, not just a half alpha or a cool guy but become the most alpha I can be.
2. WM and SM are too expensive for me at the moment, even though I would love to have girls all over me (trust me I'd seriously love that) I just can't afford it.
3. I believe that by becoming an Alpha male my life in general will be much more in my hands. I want to make it permanent, not just looking for quick fix of women or something I want a real deep change hence why I'm planning on focusing like a laserbeam on AM.
4. I'm 17, Women and dating are still technically off the radar for me until I'm 18 (Dating and stuff) of course I could get a girlfriend but I just don't feel ready at the moment even though I'd love to have one.
5. I'm thinking long term, I don't get sub fever where I want to do loads of different subs, I'm a focused and intense person, I like to grind stuff until I squeeze every bit of potential from the process. I also hope to be a real man and teach my kids how to be a self respecting person. Even though this first run thorugh I've had many doubts about whether AM works on me or not, something tells me to keep going and to do it again, I always have hope.
6. I just have this weird something that's compelling me to keep doing AM, like a drive to make me the best I can be with no ounces of phony betaness left in me by the end, I believe it's a journey, I'd like to be where Shannon is at, since he ran through every version of AM since 2005 i think it was.
RE: AM 5.0 Journal - SargeMaximus - 08-31-2013
Sounds fair. I definitely feel the same when it comes to just having to do it because you feel compelled, and I understand wanting to conquer one thing at a time with focus and precision.
For me, I like to have a wide range so I can easily see where I need to improve most, but I'm sure it's all preferential anyways.
Keep on going though, your results are inspiring.