(07-07-2013, 12:03 PM)AlphaScorpio Wrote: ofc I should've mentioned that the pride is a cover up for fear it's false pride
these past days, ive hit another bump in the road with AM there were bumps in the road on the other two stages around the same time as this, this is nearly as bad as the other ones, sometimes I feel almost bipolar doing AM like earlier this week on Monday I was feeling pretty good. about 2 weeks ago I was feeling on top of the world and unstoppable, now I feel angry, hateful and depressed. I know there will be brighter days ahead even with all this doubt.

Quote:The statements in my programs that are made public are only part of what the whole of each statement is made up of. Yes, those public statements are akin to common affirmations, but when I get done adding metascripting, self optimizing scripting, postscripting, HyperSpeed, MaxSpeed, the Optimus Engine, the Naturalizer and so forth, it's not an affirmation anymore. It's a very highly tuned, very specific set of instructions. There is a big difference, which is why I go to the trouble to do all the work it takes to go beyond simple affirmations for preparing each of my scripts. That is why people pay so much more for my programs than for those of my competitors.

Quote:One of the methods for determining whether someone would be affected would break one of our house forum rules for me to mention here. So... I won't. It wouldn't matter anyway, since you almost certainly wouldn't be able to use it for that purpose regardless.

Quote:Control freaks usually have a harder time with being influenced because the control freak nature comes from fear of not having control, and the resulting insecurities. These people tend to resist being influenced, especially if they don't know what's in the script. I have spent a lot of years learning how to word my scripts so that resistance is minimized, but in about 2% of people, it still can cause issues, depending on the program in question.

Quote:The possible exception would be Optimus Engine based or inclusive programs, which may actually be perfect in terms of covering everything.

Quote:Hypnosis, NLP, certain types of meditation, specific types of subliminals. Used properly means used in the manner indicated by the instructions.

It depends on specifics. In some cases, I create my programs to replace negatives with positives.

Quote:understanding how the subconscious differs from the conscious mind in terms of comprehension, information processing, and logical capacity. Contradictions are very possible for exactly the reasons that you are demonstrating: a lack of understanding of how the subconscious and conscious differ in these areas, on top of the fact that scripting methods may directly contradict by trying to do things in opposite ways, or other possible issues.

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Quote:One of the methods for determining whether someone would be affected would break one of our house forum rules for me to mention here. So... I won't. It wouldn't matter anyway, since you almost certainly wouldn't be able to use it for that purpose regardless.

I don't get that. So a person breaking one of the forum rules would be effected (negatively) by subs & I won't be able to use it for that purpose? My purpose is simply to be fearless and change my programming and be at ease.

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Quote:Control freaks usually have a harder time with being influenced because the control freak nature comes from fear of not having control, and the resulting insecurities. These people tend to resist being influenced, especially if they don't know what's in the script. I have spent a lot of years learning how to word my scripts so that resistance is minimized, but in about 2% of people, it still can cause issues, depending on the program in question.

Can I do anything consciously to allow the subs to work? I'd try to be more relaxed and let go of things. Also the subs in question is AM

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Quote:The possible exception would be Optimus Engine based or inclusive programs, which may actually be perfect in terms of covering everything.

so which programs have OE? What do u mean by inclusive programs?

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Quote:Hypnosis, NLP, certain types of meditation, specific types of subliminals. Used properly means used in the manner indicated by the instructions.

It depends on specifics. In some cases, I create my programs to replace negatives with positives.

What kind of meditation would that be? I'm meditating where I'm the watcher and just observing what's going on (detached from it) that gives me a new perspective and working as a scientist who is fixing his machine by studying it.

Quote:understanding how the subconscious differs from the conscious mind in terms of comprehension, information processing, and logical capacity. Contradictions are very possible for exactly the reasons that you are demonstrating: a lack of understanding of how the subconscious and conscious differ in these areas, on top of the fact that scripting methods may directly contradict by trying to do things in opposite ways, or other possible issues.

(07-08-2013, 02:50 PM)AlphaScorpio Wrote: So got some interesting news to update with, Today i've done nothing but sit on the pc playing games, felt pretty miserable all day really, then this girl who ive known for a long time who's been keen on me since I met her texts me saying I wanna bang you x so im like o.0 she's been trolled or somin, I go "fo real?" back and she says yes honestly please... so i keep texting her and she actually sounded up for it so i said invite me to your house then she said okayy, i said make sure its free etc. she asked me if i knew where she lived i said yeh. This is odd, might actually be getting laid, the funny thing was for the past few days ive been thinking and talking to my friends about how i just want to get laid and get it over with (im still a virgin) so i dont think this is a coincidence... what do you guys think? very odd... Ive kinda been attracted to this girl on and off but i never wanted to admit it to my mates for fear of being judged or laughed at, she's actually gotten better looking and has a nice figure...

(07-08-2013, 03:19 PM)AlphaScorpio Wrote: yeah i've secretly wanted to for a while now... but my fears have held me back from actually going for it, I've had some sexual guilt and shame throught my life my parents have always said dont have sex before marrige but I'd rather find it out by myself. This is quite a big step in terms of progress as I have always found it hard to be upfront about sexual desires etc. when i see this girl we flirt alot and we got good chemistry she's one of the few girls I actually feel really comfortable teasing and stuff so yeah why not. anyways we'll see what happens this friday...

(07-11-2013, 07:53 AM)AlphaScorpio Wrote: After some strong urges for the past few days to add another subliminal to the mix with AM 5 I have decided I won't be using any other subliminal and will finish it to the end. I want to solely focus on becoming my own man and having a positive self esteem and respect. I don't want anything else distracting me from that. So Shannon please ignore my last post, I will use Socializing is just a fun game in the few weeks break I have after stage 6 of AM I think it'll follow up nicely before I start the heavy stuff again with AM 6 stage 1.

It's Stage 3 - Day 14 And today I have felt a little better in terms of anxiety/self esteem, I can still feel it down in my stomach but it feels like it's being diminished, still, I don't feel like going out and socializing or even talking to my family much I just want to do my own thing.

I have spent about 2 hours in the garden with the hot sun doing my 5X5
Workout which includes Squats, Deadlifts and Benchpress. This gave me a nice shot of testosterone for a few hours which always makes you feel better. I then had a cold shower, washed my hair, trimmed up my downstairs for friday night and shaved my beard to some nice side burns.

Also I had cooked some onions in virgin oil and 2 eggs + HQ Protein shake which has really made me feel nice and anabolic, less stressed. So overall good changes regarding my personal hygiene and motivation to make myself healthy. I still feel a bit anxious when I imagine going to see friends...this bothers me but I will just do my own thing until I feel more confident or less worried.

Also feeling pretty confident for tomorrow, I've got all the protection and other things covered, so im looking forward to this, it's a step towards manhood, AM's pushing me to do things I have been scared of.

(07-12-2013, 08:27 AM)AlphaScorpio Wrote: So got some stuff to share for today, I went over to this girl's house, everything was going good and smooth I led the interaction pretty well, made us both laugh when something was a little awkward or when she was a bit nervous (her first time doing anything with a guy) we had some good foreplay and (won't go into too much detail) I helped her let go into arousal by giving her some.

It was all good until my downstairs decided it wasn't time to pop up -_-

I was annoyed at the time and a little embarrassed (not neally as much as I thought I'd be) but I made a joke about it saying "Oh dayum, trust me it does get bigger than this" which made her laugh "I should hope so". I'm not entirely sure why it happened but I'm suspecting it's to do with either the fact I smoke, watched porn since I was 11 or I simply had some nerves.



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