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Bounce off Me, and Stick to You - DMSI v5.1 (with DRS) - Ampersnd - 09-16-2025
Day 2,
I purchased streaming to this subliminal yesterday.
Went to the gym today; I'm finding myself not considering the attractive women there to be hot anymore; on a raw, physical visceral level, I mean. But even intellectually or relationally, I don't have a desire to go up and talk to them.
Started to come down with a sore throat yesterday, and I might have gone through the worst of it.
I also haven't jorked it for about 10 days now, and my drive is just fine.
RE: Bounce off Me, and Stick to You - DMSI v5.1 (with DRS) - ncbeareatingman - 09-17-2025
My first reaction to your title for DMSI "Bounce off Me, and Stick to You " Ha! Squirt !! Hee-Larry-Ree-Us !!
All the best with the new program!!
RE: Bounce off Me, and Stick to You - DMSI v5.1 (with DRS) - Ampersnd - 09-19-2025
Day 5,
Depressed as shit today. Doesn't help that I'm at the tail end of my very mild cold.
RE: Bounce off Me, and Stick to You - DMSI v5.1 (with DRS) - Ampersnd - 09-21-2025
Day 7,
Really going through it right now. Very low motivation for my usual things. Was quite intense this morning; did some Jiu Jitsu and I feel a bit better.
Have been really into reading; I have five books out from my public library and I've finished one of them; about Canada's treatment of our Indigenous populations, and the path to reconciliation. My current book is about walkable cities, and the steps to implement one.
It's gotten me to thinking about how much of our current cities are built up to accommodate cars and drivers.
RE: Bounce off Me, and Stick to You - DMSI v5.1 (with DRS) - Ampersnd - 09-23-2025
Day 9,
I miss Shannon haha.
I'm still having this dynamic where I'm drawn to the women in my gym, but I'm not interested in going through the logistical steps of dating.
And I'm not really interested in "getting to know her"; it feels like I'd be fighting my internal tendencies by doing that.
Even if an attractive woman gave me her number, I'd still view it as an annoyance to try to turn it into a date, etc. I simply foresee obstacles and distractions (for her) and redirecting.
I've noticed that my speaking ability and elocution have been very poor today, and that I've been needing more sleep than usual, such that I've slept in twice by an hour so far this week.
RE: Bounce off Me, and Stick to You - DMSI v5.1 (with DRS) - Ampersnd - 09-27-2025
Day 13,
But I've spent the last few days reading through a book about the political history of a specific country, not in my continent (and not any of the obvious currently-discussed ones either).
It's my first time reading through a country's recent history that's had me deeply impacted by the narratives of senseless violence against all types of people; then, there's the consistent surveillance and the potential of coordinated attacks of journalists, even in North America.
It provoked that icky and hopeless feeling of unconquerable evil, avoided only by remaining quiet and living in a rich enough country.
Again, this is not any of the popular countries d'jour.
Anyways, this book had me thinking about this subliminal a lot because of the Directional Reflectional Shield, and how my perceptions of a history provoked negativity within me, as though I was taunted by the evildoers themselves.
I was wondering if this DRS technology would make one impervious to espionage, gangstalking, 'jumping', intimidation, threats, cyberattacks, and other sorts of coordinated threats.
RE: Bounce off Me, and Stick to You - DMSI v5.1 (with DRS) - Ampersnd - 09-28-2025
Day 14,
I had a tough time sleeping last night; probably actually fell asleep at around 4 PM.
After reading for hours about a [Edited: Rule 3], I watched a hospice nurse YouTuber share (agreed upon) footage of someone in the dying process, and the different breathing motions, including agonal breathing.
It's not a pleasant sight, and I trust that the one dying is feeling any of the unpleasantness; but it's a bit messed up knowing that this exact thing will happen to me, barring some crazy accident that violates that process.
Anyways, I've been seeing some alright-looking women at the gym, and still no desire to pursue them. This is a problem that I want to fix.
RE: Bounce off Me, and Stick to You - DMSI v5.1 (with DRS) - Ampersnd - 09-29-2025
Day 15,
Another night of bad sleep.
I've been very anxious today, to the point of nausea. My appetite wasn't affected
Feels like the weight of the world is on my shoulders.
RE: Bounce off Me, and Stick to You - DMSI v5.1 (with DRS) - Ampersnd - 09-30-2025
Day 16,
I spent the day with a lot of anxiety and tenseness; a lot of that has gone away now.
At one point of I became very aroused by my own thoughts - something that hasn't happened in a while.
I think that I've pin-pointed why I'm a bit immobilized in the pursuit of my goals; I'm fed up with disappointment; it's not that I don't want something, but the obstacles and rejections have built up over time, and I'm tired of walking away empty-handed.
Had a conversation with a successful business guy and his mom yesterday; I gave both of them copies of my latest book - that I published in May. They loved the topic and the ideas that I mentioned. He's interested in talking more regularly.
RE: Bounce off Me, and Stick to You - DMSI v5.1 (with DRS) - ReconGunner - 09-30-2025
(09-30-2025, 03:49 PM)Ampersnd Wrote: Day 16,
I spent the day with a lot of anxiety and tenseness; a lot of that has gone away now.
At one point of I became very aroused by my own thoughts - something that hasn't happened in a while.
I think that I've pin-pointed why I'm a bit immobilized in the pursuit of my goals; I'm fed up with disappointment; it's not that I don't want something, but the obstacles and rejections have built up over time, and I'm tired of walking away empty-handed.
Had a conversation with a successful business guy and his mom yesterday; I gave both of them copies of my latest book - that I published in May. They loved the topic and the ideas that I mentioned. He's interested in talking more regularly.
I'm fed up with disappointment; it's not that I don't want something, but the obstacles and rejections have built up over time, and I'm tired of walking away empty-handed.
I am in this and I feel affirmed.
You put into words what I have been feeling for a long time. Thanks for sharing this!
RE: Bounce off Me, and Stick to You - DMSI v5.1 (with DRS) - Ampersnd - 10-04-2025
Day 20,
Something has turned around for the better; I've been having a lot more positive interactions with people; just smiles, waves, small interactions that are snowballing into a much more fulfilling life.
Though I've known this (the following) for a while, it makes sense: Confidence exhibits itself as a positive feeling about yourself, which you share with others in good cheer.
This posture hasn't been battle tested with hot women; most of the hot girls at the gym have a guy with them. It's going to have to happen at some point where I'm in this same mental "posture" with hot women.
That's probably what naturals mean by "just be yourself, bro", as opposed to me, who would muster up his courage and bulldoze his way into conversations to overcome the nerves.
RE: Bounce off Me, and Stick to You - DMSI v5.1 (with DRS) - max321 - 10-06-2025
(10-04-2025, 06:59 PM)Ampersnd Wrote: Day 20,
Something has turned around for the better; I've been having a lot more positive interactions with people; just smiles, waves, small interactions that are snowballing into a much more fulfilling life.
Though I've known this (the following) for a while, it makes sense: Confidence exhibits itself as a positive feeling about yourself, which you share with others in good cheer.
This posture hasn't been battle tested with hot women; most of the hot girls at the gym have a guy with them. It's going to have to happen at some point where I'm in this same mental "posture" with hot women.
That's probably what naturals mean by "just be yourself, bro", as opposed to me, who would muster up his courage and bulldoze his way into conversations to overcome the nerves.
The same thing has been happening to me too, feels great, haven't felt this good since my first run through of AM6, keep on keeping on!
RE: Bounce off Me, and Stick to You - DMSI v5.1 (with DRS) - Ampersnd - 10-08-2025
Day 24,
Some backsliding in my confidence; back to feeling like everything I do is 'icky' or done the wrong way.
Feelings of anxiety. Funny enough, I should switch to decaf coffee or something, since all of these new feelings coincided with buying French Vanilla roast, despite normally spamming dark roast. Tomorrow is my last day with that mix.
RE: Bounce off Me, and Stick to You - DMSI v5.1 (with DRS) - Ampersnd - 10-10-2025
Day 26,
Something has shifted; yesterday, I felt compelled to reach out to someone in my distant network (from 2021) and ask to meet and talk about the state of the world.
I'm more convivial and viewing the outer world - outside of the bounds of my apartment, or of my usual routine - as something very accessible and welcoming, as long as I use a proper approach.
Went to get Subway this evening; the South Asian (probably Indian) girl helping me was very nice, and I was - without trying to - being more conversational than I would normally be.
She was acceptably cute, but not a knockout, so it was interesting how I was . She was laughing at my silly remarks, so she probably liked me.
I'm still feeling very low key and lacking that oomph. I'm not lacking in motivation for the things I'm interested in, which is intellectual pursuit.