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RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 08-25-2019
Stage 3, day 25:
Tinder girl did finally flake. I think that her reason was genuine as she did offer that we do it next week-end. It was kinda a relief for me... I was choking too on my side. I hate being in standby and was about to tell her myself to forget about it for our hook-up plans. maybe I'm starting to feel that this is heading toward a girl wanting more than just casual and I'm becoming less interested with this option dangling around...
The nurse did text me too to see how I was going. She did annoy me when she did ask if I was ever doing the first step to see someone.
I told her that she left me the impression that she was busy and had no time to see me therefore I was waiting that she does initiate something when she becomes available.
What she did next is something. She did flip the accusation and told me that it was my fault because I am always busy.
I said: not true. tell me 1 time when you wanted to see me and I didn't put effort to make it happen.
She has been evasive non specific saying: oh one time you said that you were busy...
I didn't argue more because it was pointless but after I said: so if you want to see me this week, I could make myself available. to which she said that she was insanely busy and couldn't meet me this week.
This got me annoyed. She is wasting my time so I told her: no problem. Just realize that you have given me this type of answer the last 2-3 times that I express my desire to see you. This is precisely why I'm not making the first move to see you anymore. Wait to have time for me before contacting me.
I have been non-reactive for a while but I thought that it was time to draw a line in the sand. You don't waste my time. I'm not interested in your non-sexual companionship. Only contact me if you want to see me. Otherwise leave me alone.
So if I summarize the current situation. I have 2 girls that I had sex with that keep orbiting around me but are withholding sex. I can only speculate that maybe they think that if they are able sustain a platonic relation long enough with me, this will qualify me as LTR material because if I was only into casual, I would have cut them loose much faster. In fact, I tolerate them because I'm not thirsty for sex... With enough partners around... I shouldn't care if 2 girls are only willing to have sex only once per month as long as I have more options...
I have been talking a lot about those 2 girls in this journal (almost exclusively).... I guess that it is a sign that I need to meet new ones...
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 08-26-2019
Stage 3, day 26:
Right after lunch, the nurse did text me inviting me at her place to have sex. Upon entering in her place, I started to hold her and press her against me. The effect that I had on her was surreal. She started having goose bumps all over her arms!
It was the third time with her. idk if it is part of the program's goals but it did seem to me that I had an easier time to make her cum multiple times. It must be in it. Such as providing satisfaction is a valid strategy to make her come back and ask for more...
edit: yes there are few bullet points in the sales page supporting this impression:
- Sexual self confidence gets a major boost.
- Sexual Ultra Success programming… need I say more?
- Causes sex to be better, gives you better sexual stamina, self control, confidence.
She had an awesome good time. She kept saying how good I was...
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 08-27-2019
Stage 3, day 27:
Tinder lunch hook-up girl did text me ask me if I was available to meet her yesterday evening.
2 hook ups in the same day is really abundance. I did less enjoy the second hook up for several reasons:
1. I already had enough
2. Late at night, I started being tired
3. Despite her finding that I'm the best in the sack (that must be the one thing that made me find the experience memorable the first time we met), I cannot say the same about her. For having done it a bit earlier before with the nurse, it was easy to compare and I did enjoy more doing it with the nurse.
4. I'm discovering her feminist/empowered/modern woman side. This has of course benefits such as she has insisted to pay half of the room renting price with me but I do prefer more submissive woman.
5. She was doing too much to please me. In a weird way, I should love it but this is sending mixed signals. The sex itself should be good by itself for not having to put more on the table. She did bring a champagne bottle and oil massage for doing me a full body massage. She did clean me in the shower. Now I fully understand how girls that are put on a pillar are feeling. don't do that guys. It is a major turn off. It telegraph that you are feeling insecure and not enough to please the other. That you feel that you need to put more on the table than just yourself. It also says how big you want the other. There is no challenge and it feels a bit uncomfortable to receive all this devotion...
For having 2 hook ups in a single day, I can easily see how when you live in sexual abundance, it can get old pretty fast. It is clearly not a satisfying end goal. I definitely looking to only have an endless inflow of options and favoring quality vs quantity with the SM3 program... I'm still looking for the perfect balance...
but yeah, the program is working!
I got several hours of sex yesterday. Something around 3-4 cumulative hours. That is a lot. and this morning I feel a little bit tired... I'll try to be low profile today to be able to rest a little bit...
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 08-27-2019
I got this random though that I did find interesting enough to log it in the journal.
One thing that I have noticed in my recent sexual experiences, it is that I am getting a LOT of full body shaking orgasms from my partners where they ask me to stop few moment because that are literally convulsing with pleasure.
On one hand, I think that my sexual skills did improve since I started the program but maybe not that much at least that I can tell.
OTOH, a lot of experts are saying that a big part of the sexual experience for women is mental. This led me to think about the following thought experiment: What would happen if a woman had sex with 2 different guys of equal sexual skills? The only difference is that:
guy A is perceived as beta and guy B is perceived as an alpha stud.
Is it possible that for an equal sexual performance, the woman would find the sex with guy A boring and with guy B, she would find it outstanding?
I think that her perception about the guy is a factor for how much pleasure she is going to get and that could explain why even if I did improve my actual skills just a little bit, I am experiencing a day and night HUGE difference in the amount of pleasure that I'm giving to my partners...
So, if I am correct, the SM3 aura and behavior tweaking makes me be perceived as a hot sexual stud by women and that alone could be considered as some sort of self-fullfilling prophecy...
If I'm correct, this is a eye-opening and very fascinating phenomenon....
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 08-30-2019
Stage 3, day 29:
I went to my osteopath appointment. I'm attracted to my therapist. I didn't express my attraction verbally but I think that she can be feel it just by the way that I look at her. Incidentally, eye seduction is one of the teaching of SM3 (Was introduced in stage 2). In stage 3, touch based seduction is supposed to be introduced.
Honestly, I'm not feeling like I'm doing a lot of touching right now. My hand ended up 'accidentally' on her breast and at some point on her thigh. I'm consulting for a shoulder pain. therefore she manipulates a lot my arm and all that touching is happening passively. I kinda think that this touching is accidental and related to the therapy...
but OTOH it is obvious enough for me to notice... perhaps she does it on purpose to arouse me... maybe she is the one doing the touch based seduction...
Beside that, she talks a lot during the session and I'm enjoying her energy. She might have given me 1 or 2 hooks to me that I could have used to sexualize the exchange. I didn't see the opportunities in the moment but I'm taking good note of them so that I can see similar ones next time I hear something similar...
At the gym, there was the shy girl. She is not attending the same class as I do. Not much to say about her. She is shy and doesn't give any signal that she would like to talk with me so I just leave her alone.
I did go to my daughter's school to get them back home. The educator welcoming me is a hot woman. I did notice her in the last few years. First time, that I see her since I'm on SM3... I felt like she was more talkative and giggling with me than before... So this is cool. I'm going to attribute the behavior change to SM3.
On my way out of the school, I did exchange some steamy eye contact with 2 MILFs that were going to the school to get their kids...
Just few more days before switching to stage 4... I start to be eager... Stage switching usually brings a lot of surprises and very noticeable changes...
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 09-01-2019
Stage 3, day 31:
I start to wonder if I become a jerk and/or an asshole. I met my 2 current FWBs last monday, had a good time with both of them (not a 3some. one at a time...) and I didn't even texted them back since then.
I have been crazy busy the whole week to my defense. OTOH, they didn't try to contact me neither... This is so much not how I used to be. I used be sensitive and text either the same day or the day after to tell them that I did enjoy my time with them.
It could be how it is to behave as you are the prize. If that is what is happening. I can tell you that it is effortless. I just have other things on my mind all the time.
1 day is remaining to stage 3. I guess that it is time to start evaluating the overall result of stage 3:
1. Not a ton of new partners but I got the highest number of simultaneous partners (3). What is stunning me, it is the stability of those casual relations.
In my past, they were extremely volatile and precarious. given that women have so many options nowadays, you really need to standout and provide something unique for them to stick around. I guess SM3 is making me able to deliver the sexual goods for women desiring to come back for more.
2. This kinda open up new opportunities for framing in a powerful way that I have never been in position to do before my interactions with women... not even sure that I would need to say it or if the women would instinctively perceive it but my frame would be something along the lines:
I already have plenty of good sex with many partners. The only way that I could consider adding another woman or replacing one is if I stumble into one that is even better. In which way would you qualify for that?
At least in my mind, in many ways, that frame is incredibly powerful. This give you instant social proof because many women crave you and it position you as the prize instead of chasing her... I suspect that something along those lines will be the main theme of stage 4...
To be followed...
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 09-03-2019
I'm reviewing stage 3 description. One thing that appears central to this stage is the "pull the trigger" hesitation removal. I honestly must say that, at first, I didn't felt that theme very much. OTOH, I didn't have that much situations where I could have pulled the trigger. However, if I take just last Monday as an example. When sex was offered, I could have hesitated, find some BS reason for not going for it but I didn't do that. I went for it. So perhaps... this is what it means to 'pull the trigger'.
Stage 4, day 1:
I woke up this morning unsuspecting. I should have known... The first day of a new stage is always eventful.
The theme of this morning is: They come at me.
I did bring my daughters to their school. The cute school female principal with who I have the habit to flirt whenever I see her, she spot me and greet me before I can even see her.
On my way back home, there is a MILF who start commenting out loud what a teacher just said to her students. She was literally inviting me to chime in. Here again, I did not even spotted her and here I am talking with a hot blonde MILF. It turns out that she is naughty. She mention that she works at night and sometimes because of the school, her nights are very short because she goes to bed around 2-3 am (that means that she would be available for morning hook-ups...). our interaction have been very brief. About 2 blocks before our paths went into different directions. I wish her to have a good day and I tell her that we are going to meet again tomorrow morning.
When she left on her way. I started to realize that she was starting to arouse me. I must have felt that she was horny through her voice tone. This interaction was so out of nowhere and so unexpected that I was unprepared to take advantage of this opportunity that was presenting itself to me. I kid you not... This interaction could have been like a porn scenario where I meet a horny MILF that invites me to her place and we start having sex few minutes later.
BTW, this is an expectation that I have with SM3. Being able to recognize and act upon the sexual opportunities that shows up in my direction. Most of the time, I recognize them after the fact. idk why. It must be my current beliefs system and my mindset. I guess that if life starts to throw at me those nice surprises, I'll have no other choice than becoming sharper...
I'll probably see her again and I'll have the opportunity to explore this possibility with her but also maybe not... Hence, it is important that I become sharper. That is a change that I would like to experience in myself...
Finally, just before returning home, I see a hot young latina at a bus stop. I did not have the time to talk to her as her bus arrived at the same time that I arrive close to the bus stop but... More likely than not, she is there every weekday morning at the same time waiting for the same bus... I just have to pass there 3 minutes earlier and I should have enough time to test the water...
So to summarize, from Stage 4 description, major themes of that stage are: More manifestations and introduces getting women to try to seduce you...
I feel that my first 20 minutes outside the house on day 1 set the tone for what is to come...
I love new stages first days!
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 09-06-2019
Stage 4, day 4:
Beside the first 20 minutes outside home on day 1 morning, the last few days have been pretty uneventful.
tbh, a big factor for that is that during the first 3 stages, I did let my business drift away a little bit and it was running a little bit on cruise control so that I had time and will to focus on having sex with women.
Income started to slowly drop during that period and I am feeling it requires my full attention to correct the direction. I have big releases planned for this fall. One next month, and another one possibly in November. therefore, I haven't given sign of life to my fwbs since last time that I saw them last week. During the whole week, I told to myself that I would text them one day to ask them how they are going. but I haven't seen the days pass by since I was so busy with work...
I saw the morning MILF twice this week. She keeps looking at me but she doesn't come talk to me anymore... I feel like she is like some wild animal that needs to be tamed. Like a little squirrel that you train so that it comes get his peanut in your hand...
Beside that, I went to the gym everyday this week. I saw plenty of girls. (The regular ones). I didn't felt the need or the desire to approach them but I didn't receive big IOIs or them coming over to try to seduce me. maybe few shy smiles here and there but that is pretty much it.
Also, I have been thinking about how it would be to use DRS. Honestly, AM6 did such a good job to keep me nonreactive to shit thrown in your direction, that I wonder how some other program could make the situation even better. I guess that it would happen in the invisible realm of energies...
Update:
TBH, maybe that I'am getting used to the effect. but the female staff that I met during some of my errands this week. Made me fully realize the effect that the SM3 auric components is having on them. Especially, the comfort one. I met complete strangers and immediately feel comfort as if they were old buddies. I felt that they felt it too. Being really comfortable with me around them. I kinda find that realization cool and wanted to share it here!
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 09-12-2019
Stage 4, day 10:
Pretty quiet stage so far but it is by choice. I'm deeply involved in growing my business. I got few setbacks.
1. I did hire a copywriter to write the sales pages of a new funnel. I made initial payment and gave him access to the product. After reviewing, he did say that my product wasn't ready yet for sale, therefore, he couldn't write the copy for it.
I wasn't happy about that. I have 20 hours of webdesign that expire by the end of September if I don't use them. I was counting on having the pages content written before that... Copywriter did put me in trouble.
At first, I did try to make him see things differently by admitting yes, the product isn't perfect. It has flaws but there is enough content so that you get the idea and the potential. After all, copy has been written just from an product ideas to have the product itself be created after the marketing. It happens many times per day. Sales pitch creation is totally independant from product creation and tweaking and taking care of marketing by creating outstanding sales page is making us one step closer to launch.
I didn't succeed and he did refund me. Honestly, I feel like it was a BS reason. Such as after realizing that the type of product wasn't quite yet within his comfort zone, he did put the blame on the product instead of on himself.
AM6 is still strong in me. I see through others BS and defend strongly my frame.
Same thing with Bing advertisment. They suspended my account for some reason.
I provided correction. Ask for another review. They did find another different reason. I did fix this other reason.
On third review, the reason that time was vague and ambiguous. I'm sure that I am 100% compliant so I ask for specific details about the third new problem and clarification. Their reply was another different but still vague and ambiguous reason and that time, the reviewer had the audacity to blame me to ask for several appeals.
I did reply: You cannot blame me on asking for several appeals if each time I'm asking for a review, you give me a different reason for keeping my account suspended..
They act like little bitches. I feel like, in fact, they don't like my website and don't really want to advertise it but instead of being honest and straightforward about it, they are hiding behind some policy giving them some fake self-esteem for being fair and justified for suspending my account thinking that I won't even go through the trouble to comply with their BS. And now, they start to be cornered by their hypocrisy and start giving blatant BS reasons...
Oh well, life appears to throw out solutions to those 2 problems. As if I was running UMS instead of SM3...
1. A copywriter just wrote an email to follow up how things were going on my side yesterday.
2. I have been contacted by a local advertisement company that looks like a much better match for my advertising needs than bing.
Now, if I come back to girls, My nurse FWB did write me to tell me that she met someone.. She ultimately wants a LTR... I was happy for her and I told her.. but she kept chatting.. as if it was some female game to get a guy... I feel like she is still into me...
I got a match with a very hot philippine young woman on a dating app... She did initiate chat with me... She is very hot and attractive... but I don't know... I'm not even sure that I want to invest in that... I'm too busy right now...
Here is what I would like to happen... Still become a SM but just put zero effort into that happening... Like stumble into hot girls at the gym and receiving offers for intimacy on the fly with NSA.
Speaking of gym, I did stumble on my lesbian friend yesterday evening. The way she looks at me and the way she acts around me and the way she talks, you would think that she is into me but no... she is really just like a good guy buddy. I could offer her to come with me see the new Rambo movie released this week (or maybe it next week....) and go have a drink at a topless striptease club with her afterward...
As a sidenote, the kids did bring back a baby squirrel back at home. It must have fall off its nest and was too weak to climb back to it. A sure death was waiting for it if the kids didn't bring it back home. I wasn't sure that squirrel could be nice animals. I thought they were too wild to even be able to get close to it... but the baby squirel was so adorable... It was a small fur ball of love. You would take it in your arm and it was making small noises to let you know that it was happy. It would get hold on your clothes and not let go... It would try to stay with you when it was the time to put it back in his cage. Oh, after 1 day with us... I figure that we could take care of it during the winter and let it go when it gets older and stronger. I made a test, I went outside with it and let it choose if it wanted to leave. No, it stay on my shoulder. So, I decided to go at the pet shop and buy some hamster/rat starter kit...
Unfortunately, after 3 days, we found the baby squirrel dead at the bottom of its cage... I'm not sure if we are responsible for its death. It was either sick and would die no matter what... Or we didn't gave him the appropriate type of food. We tried to feed him with all sort of things, carrots, apples, peanuts.. It did eat some peanuts but by inspecting his inert dead small body, I did realize that it just started to grow small teeth... Maybe small pieces of bananas would have been a better choice...
It was sad... It was a so lovely, so attaching small animal, that it did broke the hearts of the kids.. At least the kids gave him a huge amount of love for the small period of time the squirrel was with us. They spent several hours per day taking care of it for the 3 days it has been with us...
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 09-12-2019
I went to the gym. I saw my sexy black lady. The coach did pair us together for the team wod.
I have the funny belief that she likes me very much. She is into me... and that feeling is getting stronger everytime that I see her...
She did seem happy to be paired with me and eager to start the workout... I did tease her a bit about that.
And at the same, she tries to keep her distance... Maybe because she is resisting the feeling...
I like how this is becoming real in my head. I have often heard that women frame is malleable and will be sucked in into a stronger masculine frame... I believe that to be true and this is what is happening...
This stuff is powerful change that SM is doing in my mind...
Also, I got a very positive conference calls with 2 experts in my fields. One that I already publish and the other one (another authority in the domain) did approach me to see if I would be interested in creating some kind of publishing deal with him like I have with the other. I'm very tempted but I had 1 hesitation. I had to be sure that their respective positioning in the market were complementary and not competing against each other. And, the outcome was that yes. It is totally possible. I am growing my team. It is 100% cool. I have the strong belief that one major key to success is cooperation...
Anyway, that sounds more like UMS stuff again... and I should be telling more wild sex adventures to be more related to SM goals... but things are as they are... naked, raw and as they are...
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 09-13-2019
Stage 4, day 11:
I did bring my kids to the school. The school is closed but the kiddengarden service is open. I did bring them at the door. during school hours, you cannot park beside the school. I see 2 teachers about to open through the door. So I ask my kids to follow them inside because the main entrance is on the other street and to bring them there, I would have to drive the whole block because the street is a one-way.
The teachers told the kids to go through the other door. Because I have good kids, they listen and don't insist. But I knew that it wasn't a good idea because the other door is closed. The kiddengarden is right behind the door that my kids have been denied access.
I ask my kids to knock on the door so that the teachers come back or someone from the kiddengarden come to open them the door. but since they are small kids, they don't knock very hard and noone is going to hear them.
So the whole situation kinda irritates me. I went out of my car, went to the locked school door. And start knocking vigourously to not say aggressively on the door. It didn't took 30 seconds for 2-3 educators to come over...
They could have acted like bitches and tell me to follow the procedure and to go at the other door. but no, They have been very nice... Took over with the kids... and one sexy educator was even flirty... I had some remorses to have been maybe a little pushy and acting aggressive with my hard knocking... but by seeing how she was... It makes me wonder/realize that some mild aggressive nonapologistic masculine behavior can be a turn on for woman... That educator is one that I could see myself in a intimate settings... by seeing how she behave around me... I start thinking that she thinks the same as well....
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 09-15-2019
Stage 4, day 13:
In the last few days, I did chat with my 2 FWBs. I didn't for a while. I sensed interest in hooking with me still present even if we only meet very occasionally. It seems like the natural pace is about once per month.
What I like the most is that I find myself putting these girls very low in my priorities effortlessly and naturally. Dating/pickup conventional wisdom says that. but it is one thing to fake it and be affected when you don't obtain the reaction you want vs actually DGAF at all. I'm not sure if women are able to discern between both but they seem to do...
Friday night, I had to ask the mom of my daughter's friend if it was ok that the friend sleep over. but instead of texting the mom, I did text a girl that had the same name in my contact list that I haven't seen for many years. Back when I was seeing her, I had sexual interest in her but I have never slept with her. I started to flirt and play with her... exchanging messages... At first, I wasn't even sure myself who it was... No idea what the current flirt result will be... but again the point is that I am astonished myself about my nonchalence...
It take hours or days before I reply back. I can't help it... I just have more important stuff to care about... and I just don't care about them...
I somehow feel that her apparent spike in interest for me... is certainly in part by this nonchalance extreme non-neediness...
I have never felt needy with women... but right now, my behavior in that regard is on steroid... I'm bad much more than I have ever been... and this seems to have a positive impact on women interest for me.... It is very curious...
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 09-17-2019
Stage 4, day 15:
In terms of action and sexy fun, stage 4 isn't the most packed stage. but I cannot put the blame on the program. The summer is over and my mind is elsewhere. I planned to have fun during summer. Now it is time to return to serious stuff. Things go as planned. Things at the company are going fine. I see immense success within reach and I see the path to go there and things that I have to do. I have a clear plan in my mind. It is funny that I get this business clarity while I am running SM3. This is what I would have expected if I was running BASE or UMS.
Maybe one way that SM3 is contributing to this business clarity, it is that by having all my sexual desires fulfilled and more, this has removed a constant preoccupation out of my mind.
Beside that, I feel very tired. I need to sleep a lot. I guess that it may be a side-effect of running the program but just to make sure that health is alright, I'm going to see my doctor in 2 weeks for a full checkup. I am more than overdue for that appointment...
I went to the gym this afternoon and due to my energy level and my overall mood, I was just not feeling in the zone. I guess that you cannot feel like a baseball star everyday even when you are running a IML program... There was 3 of my favorites girls at the class. I did not interact much with the girls due to how I was feeling. At most, we did exchange few smiles, greetings and glances... Oh well... Tomorrow is going to be better.
Update: As I was writing this entry, I did receive a pussy pic from Tinder nurse girl who did announce me she was starting to see someone last week....
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 09-18-2019
Stage 4, day 16:
Still lacking overall energy...
Tinder nurse is chasing me on messenger. I will reply back sometime tonight...
At the gym, there was 3 girls including a new one. I had to check her a little bit. She is nice looking and in shape. While I was looking at her. I had this good feeling of being sexually entitled. That must be coming from SM3 programming. There was no shame behind looking at her and finding her sexy. I was just enjoying it.
She came over naturally to chat with me. I cannot conclude anything else that she felt attraction. I saw my lesbian friend who was in the next class. I had the time to chat a little bit with her.
The female doctor was really nice with me. Very chatty and friendly.
In other words, the vibe with women was good today... I felt that I was in the zone and that SM3 was doing its job...