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RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - Greenduck - 07-12-2019
(07-12-2019, 02:20 PM)lano1106 Wrote: for many reasons.
1. Even if I could bring her back home, I wouldn't. I feel more comfortable going in a neutral place for the first time
2. idk if you have that type of place everywhere but where I live, you can rent a room in a 4 hours block for a "nap" and it is very affordable. ie: $42
3. I am in an open relation and the most important rule in our relation is NEVER bring back someone home.
that is it.
Oh ok then I see! I just would feel “trashy” checking into a hotel for sex but I’m maybe sensitive. Still a man is gotta do what he gotta do.
Interesting with an open relationship. I’ve never got a hold of how that work. Do you have emotions for each other? Don’t you get problems with jealousy? What are you plans for the future? If you don’t mind me asking. Just interested.
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 07-12-2019
he he... For me, it is a thrill to get naughty in new places. I love doing that. And you don't have to clean. It is especially important if you hook up with a squirter!
of course we have emotions for each other. We have a life long binding by having kids together. but after almost 20 years of being together things changes, interests and difference in sex drive changes.
We do care for each other but not all my needs are fulfilled inside the relation. What are we going to do? breakup and destroy a familial unit which otherwise is perfectly functional and happy? No, in 2019 where pretty much anything is accepted sexually in the society, you try to find some accommodation where everyone is going to be happy.
Technically, the openness is supposed to be two-ways but since my gf has a low libido. It isn't something that she wants to do. but if she did wanted to experiment, that would be fine and I would have no jealousy. I think that it is a question of confidence. If you are confident into your qualities that makes her want to be with you... you won't experience jealousy.
Now on the woman side... Her #1 concern is that I eventually fall in love with one of my concubines and that she lose her #1 spot. You need to reassure her and provide benefits to accept the arrangement by providing good quality non-sexual companionship. I'm doing more effort doing that now that she does the effort to let me experience my desire for sexual adventures...
The open LTR has rules... Some are restraining but it is a very small sacrifice for the well-being of the kids that can live with their 2 parents (I said it on few occasions, the main reason why I needed to do AM6 is that I have been raised by a feminist single mom in a society where the feminine imperative reign) I know from firsthand experience what it does to a kid to not have their 2 parents...
Honestly, once you have tasted this lifestyle, there is pretty much no turning back. Beside raising kids, I see little benefits to be monogamous over being polygamous...
BUT in order to be able to build that life, step #1 is to be alpha. There is no way a beta male could impose that frame to his gf... simply because it is not to her advantage to accept.
The only possible way to do it, is to be the man. Control the frame... and let other accept your way of seeing things...
Stage 2, Day 12 (evening):
I went to the restaurant and it seems like a got a lot of attention from female staff... (more than usual)
At least with 3 of them, it was almost as if I was connecting with them and we were talking to each other as if we have known each other for a long time. This is probably what they call rapport...
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - Greenduck - 07-13-2019
(07-12-2019, 05:19 PM)lano1106 Wrote: he he... For me, it is a thrill to get naughty in new places. I love doing that. And you don't have to clean. It is especially important if you hook up with a squirter!
of course we have emotions for each other. We have a life long binding by having kids together. but after almost 20 years of being together things changes, interests and difference in sex drive changes.
We do care for each other but not all my needs are fulfilled inside the relation. What are we going to do? breakup and destroy a familial unit which otherwise is perfectly functional and happy? No, in 2019 where pretty much anything is accepted sexually in the society, you try to find some accommodation where everyone is going to happy.
Technically, the openness is supposed to be two-ways but since my gf has a low libido. It isn't something that she wants to do. but if she did wanted to experiment, that would be fine and I would have no jealousy. I think that it is a question of confidence. If you are confident into your qualities that makes her want to be with you... you won't experience jealousy.
Now on the woman side... Her #1 concern is that I eventually fall in love with one of my concubines and that she lose her #1 spot. You need to reassure her and provide benefits to accept the arrangement by providing good quality non-sexual companionship. I'm doing more effort doing that now that she does the effort to let me experience my desire for sexual adventures...
The open LTR has rules... Some are restraining but it is a very small sacrifice for the well-being of the kids that can live with their 2 parents (I said it on few occasions, the main reason why I needed to do AM6 is that I have been raised by a feminist single mom in a society where the feminine imperative reign) I know from firsthand experience what it does to a kid to not have their 2 parents...
Honestly, once you have tasted this lifestyle, there is pretty much no turning back. Beside raising kids, I see little benefits to be monogamous over being polygamous...
BUT in order to be able to build that life, step #1 is to be alpha. There is no way a beta male could impose that frame to his gf... simply because it is not to her advantage to accept.
The only possible way to do it, is to be the man. Control the frame... and let other accept your way of seeing things...
Stage 2, Day 12 (evening):
I went to the restaurant and it seems like a got a lot of attention from female staff... (more than usual)
At least with 3 of them, it was almost as if I was connecting with them and we were talking to each other as if we have known each other for a long time. This is probably what they call rapport...
Alright, interesting.
I've always though about how that affect kids, growing up having parents in an open relationship. I guess it's no problem when both parents feel appreciated for who they are and feel loved in their relationship with their spouse, that's after all what kids look at and learn from, how we treat one another. The open-relationship part is probably just a frame of reference in what is "possible" or "normal" and the quality of the relationship between one another the important part.
congrats on your growth, I will be sure to check out your AM6 journal when embarking AM7
Thanks for sharing
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 07-13-2019
AM6 changed my life for the better. I love my life more the way it is now after having done AM6. You can check my AM6 journal when you will be doing AM7 but also more likely than not, I'll probably do a second run of the program when version 7 is released!
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 07-13-2019
Stage 2, Day 13:
Mostly quiet. I went at the grocery. I was having fun spotting the women noticing me, looking at me and looking away as soon as I notice what they do...
Beside that, I got a match with a woman that project a prudish vibe on her pictures on Tinder. I am becoming more and more a fan of ARC and a believing Mode One practitioner. One of the thing he teach is be concerned only about what you want. Don't worry about you think that she might want.
So that is what I did. She did ask me what I wanted. I told her: I want to meet a woman to exchange orgasms with her.
In my mind, I would either hear back from her: that is not what I'm looking for or no thank you.
but to my great surprise, she replied back 2 days later with: Let's see after we meet...
So again, ARC is right. Be concerned only with what you want and not what you think the woman want. Get out of her head and let her choose if she is interested in what you want.
And also. Contrary to popular belief that the majority of women are prudish and exceptionally kinky, the reality is the opposite. The majority of women are kinky and exceptionally prudish...
The belief that most women are kinky is solidifying in my mind with all these experiences confirming it and this also contribute to my ongoing sexual behavior change.
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 07-14-2019
Stage 2, Day 14:
I went on the beach alone today. It was a mix of relaxation, reading books and socializing...
I had few beers with me (4 for the whole afternoon) and the more I was drinking, the more social I was becoming (duh. Anyone surprised?)
Early on, I did spot a cute brunette, she did walk past my chair and then returned back to her spot. I concluded that she came around to look at me from closer. Later on, she did left her spot for a long walk. Not too long after she left, it was my turn to want to take a walk. On my way, we did cross path. She purposefully feign non-interest by looking away. I said to myself: oh how cute, this is...
I did walk a lot. For each beer that I was drinking, I was forcing myself to take a long walk. I did spot another very attractive woman at least in 2 of my walk. I didn't approach or talk to her... My loss... On my fourth walk, when I would have had enough social momentum, she was gone...
I have met and talk with 2 regular women. One of them did actually open me. As I was walking and passing by her... She was looking at me making it impossible to not stop and talk a bit with her. I have seen her 1 or 2 times before in the last 3 weeks. She appears to be tad older than me but there is a small something about her that makes her attractive.. idk, maybe it is her energy...
The other one, looks like a wild girl. She is a tattooed redhair girl that is into cosplay... At the end of the day, we became FB friends.
So overall, no wild adventures to report... but I did enjoy myself... It was stress free unlike what I was imposing on myself early on in stage 1. I did meet few nice people... some potentially future sexual mates... Bottomline, my recent successes did really remove a lot of pressure from my shoulders. I'm currently satisfied... therefore... I don't need anything. I never felt that I ever projected a needy vibe but I possibly feel even less needy than the not needy feeling that I was having before the last 2 weeks. I didn't think that it would be possible but that is how I feel.... So I guess that it is positive in my SM journey!
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 07-16-2019
Stage 2, Day 15:
Another quiet day. I went to the gym in the morning. I met the same redhair girl that I met few time since last week. There is a good vibe between her and me.
There was another new very hot girl. Seriously hot and young. I went to tell her to good job at the end of the work out and she was surprisingly friendly and smiling. That was nice and she made good impression on me.
Back home, my horticulturist was working. We did talk for a good 15 minutes... Toward the end, she went on her knees to work on some plants while keeping talking to me. Her posture did let me see very well her full breast... This had me a little bit distracted me from the discussion...
Beside that, very eventless day... I felt tired and did sleep close to 12 hours this night... gf tried to tease me by playing with my penis... that didn't do nothing... I was way too tired in the evening to even consider doing silly things...
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 07-16-2019
Stage 2, Day 16:
This morning at the gym, there were 2 women that I have interest in that were attending the class... The blonde latina and another sexy blonde...
They were friendly and naughty with me but I haven't felt any lust coming from them...
I was feeling very horny, therefore, I did do some sexting with my 2 current fbs. Both have parental constraints so we cannot meet most of the time... but the reasoning is if I tease them hard enough and make them horny hard enough, they will make the impossible to find some availability to see me...
So, I got half of what I wanted. I made 2 women very wet and horny... They even both sent me pics of their pussies... but not hot and sexy encounters for me... even worse... the whole sexting thing did make me even hornier...
gf come home. I tell her: when do you want to have sex? Now before I go get the kids or after my yoga class tonight?... She didn't say no but mentioned that her period just started today... In that condition, this is a little bit less interesting... So we leave it at that...
I go get my oldest daughter at her summer camp... The young woman in charge greet me... Normally not my type... a bit too big for my taste, but in the horny state that I am in, I start to notice her interesting sexual features such as her big breast... Some naughty ideas go through my mind as I talk with her... Suddenly, imagining her naked and having sex with her sounds like maybe not a bad idea after all... She is in my personal space... I keep doing small talk as I continue focusing on my arousal... She give me a pen for me to sign the paper that says that I got my kid with me. When I give her back the pen, I accidentally touch her breast with the back of my hand.... She blush a little bit...
I guess that I'm not the only one who did enjoy this exchange by having some naughty thoughts...
I'm discovering the power of socializing with women while feeling horny... the feeling is contagious...
Tonight is my yoga class... Maybe the seeds that I have planted in some horny minds during sexting will come to fruition later tonight...
If something nice happens this evening, I'll create another entry to report... if not, this will be it for my sm3 stage 2 day 16 journaling...
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 07-16-2019
Stage 2, Day 16 (evening):
I went to the yoga class. There was 3 usual hot women.
- The redhead one (she definitely has something that turns me on)
- A new brunette
- The nurse one
I did arrive a good 10-15 minutes before the start. Therefore, I had plenty of time to flirt with the redhead one... She definitely does awake something in me.... I flirt, I tease... She decline one of my idea to do something... I like her even more...
As I was talking with her, a young Lebanese girl is greeting me as she leaves from her workout class... We aren't that close so I'm a bit surprise to receive her attention... I'm taking it... it must be my new magnet power... and in the back of my head... I'm hearing a slot machine hitting the social proof jackpot 'ting-ting-ting-ting!!!'
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 07-17-2019
Stage 2, day 17 (AM):
Very early this morning, I did match with a blonde on Tinder. She had quite a bold approach. She open me with:
her: So, you work in the porn industry
me: ah ah... While I possess the required skillset, I prefer to keep my talent for my personal life
her: I was more thinking in the editing department...
me: You're triping... Tell me in what comedy bar you play and I'll come see you. So tell me. you challenge your matches to make you quit tinder. How would that happen?
her: I need a super awesome guy
me: for what? I'm looking to exchange orgasms with a funny girl. A concept I'm exploring for my next movie ;-)
Boom, she unmatched. I love so much going direct. No more time wasted with women not open to casual flings.
Then I went to the gym. There was 2 woman. The latina blonde and a black girl that I haven't seen for at least 2 months. The black girl was so happy to see me that she did give me a big hug. Since she lives nearby my place, the last few times I was providing her a lift back to her place. I was supposed to do that as well this morning... but then she said the she had to go to shopping mall... Sorry, that is not on my path. I can drop you on the right boulevard to get you closer to there... She was hesitating. Oh, I'll go by myself... Oh ok, I'll take your offer... it wasn't clear. I think she was trying to tease me to convince me to help a damsel in distress and that I would accept to go with her up to the shopping mall... nah... not my thing... So, it wasn't clear at all and she kinda disappear without saying where she was going while I was doing the workout finisher. When I did finish, I did say goodbye to everyone and left.
Only back at my place, the girl text saying that she was waiting for me to find out that I left without her. I apologize but told her exactly what I just explained....
Bottomline, I'm not sure at all that there is a genuine interest from her. She most likely like to use guys for favors to help her meeting both ends. Some sort of Mode one timewasters... I have always been firm on my boundaries with women. I don't mind giving a lift if it is on my way but that is pretty much it. I'm not a taxi... Spotting manipulation attempts has never been an issue but I cannot help to notice that it is also a point addressed in SM3 Stage 2. The description saying:
Automatic detection of, and refusal to have sex with, women who are attempting to manipulate you with sex, trick you into getting them pregnant or have STDs is introduced.
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 07-17-2019
Stage 2, day 17 (early PM):
Something that I just realized is that I'm getting more matches than I used to receive... and nothing did change. No new pics, no new profile text... It is either SM3 that does something or the algorithm is now favorable to me... but the coincidence is too big to be something random...
Tinder nurse just texted me and invited me to her place...
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - StridingStrider - 07-17-2019
(07-17-2019, 09:44 AM)lano1106 Wrote: Stage 2, day 17 (early PM):
Something that I just realized is that I'm getting more matches than I used to receive... and nothing did change. No new pics, no new profile text... It is either SM3 that does something or the algorithm is now favorable to me... but the coincidence is too big to be something random...
Tinder nurse just texted me and invited me to her place...
I had the same experience on DMSI. Probably part of the manifestation sequence.
Have fun.
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 07-18-2019
Stage 2, day 18:
So far pretty much event less. I went to the gym this morning. Nothing special to report from that visit. I had sex with my gf at lunch time.
Both yesterday and today, it seems that my sexual skills to bring women to orgasm has increased. My sexual stamina did increase too. Put those 2 improvements together and it is by itself a sex magnet!
With the current number of partners that I have, despite the low frequency that I can have sex with each of them, the sum of opportunities that I get from all of them make me satisfied of my sex life for the first time in a very long time.
This feeling will certainly be communicated non-verbally and this and also the rest of SM3 program that I haven't gone through yet will certainly create even more abundance. That is going to be interesting to see that happening.
Yet even if I'm only at stage 2, I can say that the personal goal that I wanted to reach as stated in post 1 of this journal is met. That is getting enough sex so that it stops being a preoccupation so that I can focus on my business. Ok, I expect some volatitily... maybe I'm going to lose contact with some of my current partners (that is part of life). Life is a roller coaster with highs and downs... but it doesn't matter... I have touched the goal. I know that it is possible.. It is easy to get... and If I ever lost it... I know how to get it back... This is a huge boost in confidence in that area...
Having had so much sex in the last few days, I have no other choice than thinking about other things such as my biz... There is a trap that I need to be careful of... I have gotten myself in the sexless life because I did focus too much on my biz... I need to learn to put balance in my life... I expect it to not be too hard since my survival isn't at stake with the growing of my biz anymore...
So to conclude this entry, I'm just feeling perfect. Happy and fulfilled.
RE: lano1106 SM3 Journal - lano1106 - 07-19-2019
Stage 2, Day 19:
Something new did happen since I started SM3 last night. I got for the first time a vivid dream. And not any type of dream. An erotic dream.
Having erotic dream is something that didn't happen to me for a very long time. Almost as if sexual urges were repressed even by my subconscious mind too! In my dream, not only it was an erotic dream, it was a dream where I was living abundance.
I had sex with at least 3 different women and one of them was a celeb singer/actress... This is weird... A recurring theme was that we had to hide away from all sort of people. Be it either, the girl family members, the mentally ill guy that rented us his apartment on AirBNB (That could make a good movie BTW), or even the whole police department...
This is weird... I guess subconscious mind must be expressing some guilt or shame related to sexuality with this aspect of the dream...
Speaking of sleep and dreams, In sync with what is written in the SM3 instructions, I do need more sleep. About 1 or 2 hours more than usual of sleep is required.