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RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal DMSI 3.0A - Shannon - 02-23-2017
Well I certainly do not condone your methods, and I hope nobody else tries to follow in your footsteps.
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal DMSI 3.0A - JackOfHearts - 02-24-2017
(02-23-2017, 08:03 PM)DarthXedonias Wrote: Anyway, I went through with this and got way more than I bargained for. Lets just say what I discovered I wouldn't have ever thought of. Basically, it turns out I had PTSD way before the military, it just became full blown in the military. I think I already explained my school situation. Yeah, apparently I developed minor PTSD after recurring incidents of emotional abuse at school. Also, my theory that originally I wasn't a INTP is correct. I was (and am. More on that in a moment) a SF. Basically, due to this going on it (or myself as a defense mechanism) caused damage to myself by disrupting my :
I don't know if what I'm going to say will help, maybe it can help and other can take responsibility of their problems. We are responsible for what happen to us, not others.
So what I noticed is that people are predisposed to attract certain events in their life, PTSP or other traumatic event isn't something random that happen to one and not to another one.
Someone with good intuitive skill could have guess that those events could have happened to you before they happened. As you were/are probably attracting those events due to your personality.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s941m7CKft4&t=2s
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RczTTZqBSYw
Here is an example of that in this video, he didn't focus on it but according to him the stuff was there before the accident. In my opinion she is the one who triggered the event, her personality, her way of thinking, etc.
When I see your personality with the tools I use, I'm not surprised of what you are experiencing, even the experiment with psychedelics .
It's very interesting to me what you are writing for sure,if you don't mind, could you detail more the major period of your life? What year that PTSP in the military started, when do you think the first traumatic experience started?
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal DMSI 3.0A - soulfly1 - 02-24-2017
(02-23-2017, 08:50 PM)Darkness Wrote: Sounds a wee bit like schizoid w/ dissonance, but I'm not a medical practitioner of ANY kind.
That's why you should keep your opinions to yourself instead of making such baseless assesments. What Darth describes is a common theme amongst many spiritual practises and traditions. Schizoid is a modern term invented by people who do not understand the reality of the mind and the spirit and who have a need to label it as an illness. Why would you try to perpetuate a faulthy and harmful worldview by saying things like that?
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal DMSI 3.0A - bits - 02-24-2017
(02-23-2017, 09:27 PM)DarthXedonias Wrote: sigh, My data is probably not going to be valid because like I said I ran an experiment. I will go into detail but I usually don't on this forum, usually just use the word experiment, because I don't want it to show badly on you guys at IML or that you are condoning it in anyway. With that said, I will go into detail,and i am only going into day 2 within the next couple of hours btw.
Ingredients involved: Arctic root, 6-apb (research chemical), and Psilocybe cyanescens (Most potent strain).
Took arctic root, then waited 50 mins, then took the 6-apb, then waited 50 mins and then took the Psilocybe cyanescens. The arctic root boosts the neurotransmitters (dopamine, adrenaline, serotonin) for the next couple of hours after taking. 6-abp is a research chemical similar to MDA which mostly releases dopamine/adrenaline, with a little bit of serotonin. But one of the most important parts is the Psilocybe cyanescens. This is because:
-psilocybin Has been shown to increase growth of new brain cells (obviously, parts of my brain had shrunken due to trauma).
-psilocybin has been shown to make permanent "personality" changes that were still around over a year later.
-also a very important point, psilocybin build rapid connections in the brain and produces interconnection.
Example: (Left your brain as normal, right your brain's neural connectiveness and network while on psilocybin)
So basically what occurred: The 6apb produced dopamine, adrenaline and serotonin which drastically reduce my resistance to MHS's instructions. With MHS having full reign essentially, it used the raw material (Psilocybin) to make up the the new neural frame work in my brain according to the subs instructions. It also used some of this material to heal my damaged brain areas (hippocampus, etc) since that was on the optimization and repair list.Since, it can make permanent personality change it strived, with the instructions of the sub, at making this network permanent. So, pretty much that is what happened. Also, forgot to mention psilocybin has "fear extinction" properties. Hope I explained that all simply enough. I was able to building a Neural network for MHS instructions in a couple of hours, compared to maybe days or months essentially.
![[Image: img4_2.jpg]](https://www.macalester.edu/academics/psychology/whathap/UBNRP/Website_The_Effects_Of_Psilocybin_On_Empathy/img4_2.jpg)
Interesting, I was thinking about mixing 1p-lsd and 4-aco-dmt with subliminals and seeing what happens. The whole-brain effect of lsd and psilocybin and their ability to create new neural pathways would be an interesting experiment.
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal DMSI 3.0A - Darkness - 02-24-2017
(02-24-2017, 03:13 AM)soulfly1 Wrote:(02-23-2017, 08:50 PM)Darkness Wrote: Sounds a wee bit like schizoid w/ dissonance, but I'm not a medical practitioner of ANY kind.
That's why you should keep your opinions to yourself instead of making such baseless assesments. What Darth describes is a common theme amongst many spiritual practises and traditions. Schizoid is a modern term invented by people who do not understand the reality of the mind and the spirit and who have a need to label it as an illness. Why would you try to perpetuate a faulthy and harmful worldview by saying things like that?
Correction Dissociactive identity disorder.
How is that faulty? Perpetuate? HE ASKED WHAT IT Could be. There's a difference between always having to have an opinion about every thing. Theres,nothing spiritual that happened here so there's no misunderstanding let alone labeling.
He changed personality on neural level, too fast. That's dangerous if he isn't careful, and if the coping personality prior remains.
Spirituality never forsakes practicality, delusion guising as faith, that's harmful. And making it your worldview? your in for a world of hurt.
And on the opinion bit , your whole post was an opinion, so CUT IT OUT.
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal DMSI 3.0A - DarthXedonias - 02-24-2017
(02-24-2017, 01:04 AM)Alpha360 Wrote:(02-23-2017, 08:03 PM)DarthXedonias Wrote: Anyway, I went through with this and got way more than I bargained for. Lets just say what I discovered I wouldn't have ever thought of. Basically, it turns out I had PTSD way before the military, it just became full blown in the military. I think I already explained my school situation. Yeah, apparently I developed minor PTSD after recurring incidents of emotional abuse at school. Also, my theory that originally I wasn't a INTP is correct. I was (and am. More on that in a moment) a SF. Basically, due to this going on it (or myself as a defense mechanism) caused damage to myself by disrupting my :
I don't know if what I'm going to say will help, maybe it can help and other can take responsibility of their problems. We are responsible for what happen to us, not others.
So what I noticed is that people are predisposed to attract certain events in their life, PTSP or other traumatic event isn't something random that happen to one and not to another one.
Someone with good intuitive skill could have guess that those events could have happened to you before they happened. As you were/are probably attracting those events due to your personality.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s941m7CKft4&t=2s
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RczTTZqBSYw
Here is an example of that in this video, he didn't focus on it but according to him the stuff was there before the accident. In my opinion she is the one who triggered the event, her personality, her way of thinking, etc.
When I see your personality with the tools I use, I'm not surprised of what you are experiencing, even the experiment with psychedelics .
It's very interesting to me what you are writing for sure,if you don't mind, could you detail more the major period of your life? What year that PTSP in the military started, when do you think the first traumatic experience started?
I will be glad to answer your questions. First I would like to say there is a lot of truth what you said. There was a study where they found out that prior to people getting PTSD those people already had those parts of their brains (controlling emotions, particulary fear) already smaller than average. In other words they already had the perfect circumstances for them to get PTSD. They just needed an event or several events to happen to "break the camels back" one could say.
As I already said about my home life my mother wasn't really there and I was neglected, so I was left to my own devices really. This left me with a severe lack of social skills and how to deal with people effectively, particularly crappy people. I got sent to a private school in junior high at about age 12. This is where it first started, the constant ridicule and mockery which made me withdraw even further. I realized I had PTSD "lite" at this time because I remembered certain times where I would yell out in my dreams in anger, rage, hatred at the people who were doing this to me. These outbursts are a symptom of PTSD. In the military, within my second year is when the PTSD went full blown when someone I trusted humiliated me in front of lots of people. As far as the first traumatic event, I felt like mines was a combination of events. The stuff I went through in school day after day got me to that point. Along with the critical-ness of my mother at home. I finally just let the fear rule me and so I turned off this part of myself (SF) because of it.
Basically, it was something of my own doing in a way as a kinda of self defense mechanism. PTSD is a self defense mechanism in a way because your in an environment where you feel like its constant "fight or flight". The problem is when you are finally out of that environment (Junior high and high school for me) its not easy to simply turn it off because you have damaged parts of your brain in the process. On a similar note besides healing my brain, I did feel the MHS energy head to my spinal cord and essentially say, "Hey, your not in danger anymore, get out of fight or flight mode". I instantly felt all the muscles in my body relax like they haven't in many, many years. I hope I explained that efficiently.
Darkness- appreciate the response though I highly doubt i'm schizoid. If that were the truth, I think I would feel a lot worst not better. Maybe some dissociation but not much and besides that's already being taken care of. As I said, the idea or blueprint for the INTP is still there but it has no power over anything. My subconscious is basically carefully "mining" it for useful skills at the moment and implementing them. For example, I pondered a question about why had done a certain thing in my life. I instantly went into a very "in the zone" type state and figured out the reasons within 20 seconds. I wasn't even trying it automatically happened. Why? Because it was using both Internal Sensing (through that bridge I mentioned that is like any of my external senses now) and connecting the dots with internal Intuition. Before the traumatic events I'm pretty sure I was an ISFP, and afterwards an INTP. So it has all these functions of ISNTFP and its trying to get them at the right balance so they are working in tangent. After all that is "mined" and implemented correctly, it will toss all the other toxic garbage away.
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal DMSI 3.0A - Darkness - 02-24-2017
I'll keep an eye out, hopefully the coping personality completely fades.
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal DMSI 3.0A - JackOfHearts - 02-24-2017
(02-24-2017, 08:11 AM)Darkness Wrote:Why is that dangerous?(02-24-2017, 03:13 AM)soulfly1 Wrote:(02-23-2017, 08:50 PM)Darkness Wrote: Sounds a wee bit like schizoid w/ dissonance, but I'm not a medical practitioner of ANY kind.
That's why you should keep your opinions to yourself instead of making such baseless assesments. What Darth describes is a common theme amongst many spiritual practises and traditions. Schizoid is a modern term invented by people who do not understand the reality of the mind and the spirit and who have a need to label it as an illness. Why would you try to perpetuate a faulthy and harmful worldview by saying things like that?
Correction Dissociactive identity disorder.
How is that faulty? Perpetuate? HE ASKED WHAT IT Could be. There's a difference between always having to have an opinion about every thing. Theres,nothing spiritual that happened here so there's no misunderstanding let alone labeling.
He changed personality on neural level, too fast. That's dangerous if he isn't careful, and if the coping personality prior remains.
Spirituality never forsakes practicality, delusion guising as faith, that's harmful. And making it your worldview? your in for a world of hurt.
And on the opinion bit , your whole post was an opinion, so CUT IT OUT.
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal DMSI 3.0A - Darkness - 02-24-2017
(02-24-2017, 11:27 AM)Alpha360 Wrote:(02-24-2017, 08:11 AM)Darkness Wrote:Why is that dangerous?(02-24-2017, 03:13 AM)soulfly1 Wrote:(02-23-2017, 08:50 PM)Darkness Wrote: Sounds a wee bit like schizoid w/ dissonance, but I'm not a medical practitioner of ANY kind.
That's why you should keep your opinions to yourself instead of making such baseless assesments. What Darth describes is a common theme amongst many spiritual practises and traditions. Schizoid is a modern term invented by people who do not understand the reality of the mind and the spirit and who have a need to label it as an illness. Why would you try to perpetuate a faulthy and harmful worldview by saying things like that?
Correction Dissociactive identity disorder.
How is that faulty? Perpetuate? HE ASKED WHAT IT Could be. There's a difference between always having to have an opinion about every thing. Theres,nothing spiritual that happened here so there's no misunderstanding let alone labeling.
He changed personality on neural level, too fast. That's dangerous if he isn't careful, and if the coping personality prior remains.
Spirituality never forsakes practicality, delusion guising as faith, that's harmful. And making it your worldview? your in for a world of hurt.
And on the opinion bit , your whole post was an opinion, so CUT IT OUT.
Bc he'll will literally have two fractured personalities. Instead of an integrated one. And he might really lose grip on things.
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal DMSI 3.0A - JackOfHearts - 02-24-2017
It sounds like a fearful belief system, don't do that or you will break things.
How fast subliminal are changing us, do you see anyone getting crazy?
Some getting arrogant from time to time at best
The term "fractured" is quiet revealing; don't change too fast, if one wasn't enough, he will have 2 fractured personality, it's Christmas again
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal DMSI 3.0A - Darkness - 02-24-2017
It is not fear is mitigating the consequences of such change.
And on the crazy bit, ryan and fonzy.
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal DMSI 3.0A - JackOfHearts - 02-24-2017
That's not what I would define as crazy, more over confidence type syndrome, a bit like you actually
They weren't crazy, and certainly not the "fractured" type you are talking about.
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal DMSI 3.0A - Shannon - 02-25-2017
I can make subliminals safe. I cannot make things like experimental drugs and hallucinogens safe.
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal DMSI 3.0A - DarthXedonias - 02-25-2017
MHS 5.5G Day 3
Hmm where to begin. Lots to go over, I think I will go over the things most related to the sub and work myself up from there. Still going to the restroom more than usual but not as much as the first day. I think most of the major Detox is over with. So body wise it feels like most of the script is in maintenance mode. Eating habits have also changed. I'm staying away from fast food for the most part, and if I do eat any its of the Asian or Hispanic variety. Can't drink regular soft drinks at my job like I use to. If I drink anything from their its either: Tea, Hi-c, or minute made. Even then those taste way too sweet for my liking. I did accidentally drink a strawberry frappacino today (It was left overs for what I made for a customer) and totally forgot about my new taste bugs as it were. Shit taste like diabetes in a cup. Couldn't even finish it, so I threw the rest out. I really wonder if most Americans realize how much sugar they are consuming or maybe they have drank it so long they have become DE-sensitized to it.
Sex drive has comeback to normal. I have for the longest time suspected that on DMSI my subconscious tanked my sex drive in order to not execute the script via the sniper. I believe that I was right. For example, There's this Arabic women who sits in front of me in English class. I have been quite interested in her for a long time, mostly for her character. Well, on Friday before class officially began she got up out of her chair to go and ask the teacher a question. Only thing is through the long black skirt she wore I could see through it and see her underwear and how it perfectly curved around her nice butt. I felt a rush of desire and just sat there and stared for a good 2 mins or so. I noticed this around campus as well. Would see a hot woman and have no problem staring at her body with desire. Feels good to have this working properly again.
Also, have noticed some strange psychic occurrences as well. I was pulling out of my parking space at university and made sure there was no cars coming either way. All of a sudden I get this "warning, danger" thought and turn around. There was a car coming out of a area that sees way less traffic then other places around. Another incident was on Friday night at work. I was standing around listening to some of my co-workers and managers talk. All of a sudden, there was like this "spider sense" where I felt like someone was coming from behind me. I didn't' see anyone at first but like 4 seconds later one of my co-workers walked from behind me and past me. Don't know what this is but it is interesting. Its like I can either sense dangerous situations or sense someone's presence before I see them.
Now, for the personality thing that I'm thinking everyone is wondering about. Assimilation completed early this morning. I don't think I "mined" that much from the previous (or copping) personality. Only about 20 % I would wager, the other 80% seemed somewhat toxic probably so it got thrown out. So, when I think about myself some of it has a "familiar" feel to it but the rest seems new or original. I don't sense "it" anywhere, not even the void. Though I should mention something else about the "void". I realized this while I started thinking about what I was going to type for this post. I didn't feel a void at first but when I concentrated on it "slightly" it appeared. I have found out it is something my subconscious has deemed necessary as a temporary (maybe even long term) healthy copping mechanism. Essentially, I can create it anytime I want and throw a memory (or event) into it and it will be cleared of any toxicity that would affect me negatively and then be re-assimilated.
I'm also pretty sure the original personality hasn't developed past age 12 or so. In a way this is good, means future sub use will be more effective since I'm basically a "Clean slate" as it were. This does mean I will have to find the ways to deal with "crappy people" (As shannon said) that I didn't learn at that age. AM6 would be a prime candidate but I want something more powerful so I will probably run DMSI 3.1A when it comes out. I think the things in Goal #2 will help out nicely here:
To support goal #1, we have to develop, enhance and improve your self esteem, self respect, sense of self worth, self liking, self love, self validation, deservingness, self support, self confidence, self image, overcome fear, guilt and shame (yes, it has the entire script of E2’s OGSF and self validation modules in it [V2.0 and later], although it is modified to not disrupt the goals of this program) and so forth.
I will probably run AM7 whenever that comes out though. Don't want to go through again what I did for the last almost 15 years. I did notice in those rare instances where things might have gotten "stressful" (though I handled those pretty well regardless) that a certain part of my brain felt kinda of sore. So, I definitely will need to find even more automatic way of dealing with crappy people (Through DMSI 3.1 and then later on AM7).
Now, for something that I find really important. I believe I know how the reality bending feels like. I've been trying to place what is different about my perception over the last few days. I realized it was that I was perceiving something different about reality but I didn't quite know what it is. Its like its staring me straight in the face but I don't recognize it. The feeling has been one of a contradiction essentially. I feel like "I am here, but I am not here at the same time. I am fully present and aware but at the same time I am not". It also feels like I am truly perceiving reality for the first time. This feeling has somewhat gone down since day 2 but it is still there. I also reasoned today that my idea about how the universe works and operates was faulty and I need to correct that. Science itself is but one way of receiving knowledge but it isn't the only way to knowledge.
Lastly, related to this I feel like people have been acting differently around me lately. Its like they really want to talk to me and get me involved in conversations. Also, I have noticed them giving me glances every once in a while. I feel like they are perplexed by me. Like I am some "glitch" in the matrix. I also talked to the co-worker that I use to be interested in today. She seemed to be very helpful today and interested in having me talk to her. I would talk to her sometimes but other times I would just do my own thing even though I kinda of felt from her energy that she wanted me to talk to her at times. I did tell her about my personality fracture and re-assimilation (I left out details about subliminals and the other stuff). This conversation was really revealing. She didn't freaky out or anything and seemed genuinely interested. She revealed that she had been a different person at a early age as well but she changed for the worst because of the "bullying" at school and what not. That's when I realized it. The reason why the previous personality was interested in her was because she was on the same wavelength would could say. It sensed that she had been hurt in some of the same ways and carried some of the same anger. She even said she had become more emotionally unstable and violent to a degree. This would also explain more of my lack of interest now, me and her are not on the same radio frequency anymore. She is still damaged, I am not. This makes me give more credence to Shannon's radio frequency analogy.
Anyway, I think that is about all for now. You guys have a nice day!