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RE: Rainbow'sNewJournal - RainbowAbyss - 11-20-2012
got it..
RE: Rainbow'sNewJournal - RainbowAbyss - 12-12-2012
Riding into my second month of Overcome Fear.
I've added in Become Irresistibly Attractive To Beautiful woman 8.0.
Results first month
1. Feel emptier and emptier of personal baggage and more present
2. Much more comfortable standing up for what matters to me or walking away from any situation.
3. Feeling much more egoless-if that makes sense-a care about what I used to care about but much more for my own experience of life rather than any image it meets, or value it conveys to others
4. Acts of courage pop up all over the place, helping strangers, drastically changing my appearance, the obvious one-with woman
5. Seeing how others insecurities and fears run so much of what they do and much less interested in them
6. Harder and Harder to do what doesn't really feel like me.
7. In general much more at peace, strong feelings of love and gratitude at times
8. Really strong sense of my own self worth, more entitlement, rushes of strong ambition
9. And occasionally moments of pure fearlessness, where I feel either totally embodied and just acting on instinct, or like I am transparent and euphoric and can do anything.
what has been coming up in the last few days is a general lack of direction and motivation... I am noticing now is anger, shame, and subtle depression that was behind certain fears...I'll probably switch to Overcome Fear, Shame, and Guilt in a few weeks. Very excited to get back to Alpha as well...its been way to long since the first full round.
RE: Rainbow'sNewJournal - Shannon - 12-12-2012
Nice results.
RE: Rainbow'sNewJournal - K-Train - 12-12-2012
(12-12-2012, 12:07 PM)RainbowAbyss Wrote: Riding into my second month of Overcome Fear.
I've added in Become Irresistibly Attractive To Beautiful woman 8.0.
Results first month
1. Feel emptier and emptier of personal baggage and more present
2. Much more comfortable standing up for what matters to me or walking away from any situation.
3. Feeling much more egoless-if that makes sense-a care about what I used to care about but much more for my own experience of life rather than any image it meets, or value it conveys to others
4. Acts of courage pop up all over the place, helping strangers, drastically changing my appearance, the obvious one-with woman
5. Seeing how others insecurities and fears run so much of what they do and much less interested in them
6. Harder and Harder to do what doesn't really feel like me.
7. In general much more at peace, strong feelings of love and gratitude at times
8. Really strong sense of my own self worth, more entitlement, rushes of strong ambition
9. And occasionally moments of pure fearlessness, where I feel either totally embodied and just acting on instinct, or like I am transparent and euphoric and can do anything.
what has been coming up in the last few days is a general lack of direction and motivation... I am noticing now is anger, shame, and subtle depression that was behind certain fears...I'll probably switch to Overcome Fear, Shame, and Guilt in a few weeks. Very excited to get back to Alpha as well...its been way to long since the first full round.
Now this is the stuff I like to hear! Fearlessness, bravado, and ambition! Sounds like a blast bro! MHS has helped me so much but I've realized that fear is driving a good deal of my symptoms so I'm probably gonna give OFSG a run at the end of the month. Please KEEP ME INFORMED on how BIABW 8.0 works for you. On paper, it would seem that without fear there should be no resistance, and with no resistance you should get full blown effects. I trust Rainbow that you will let us know if you get attacked by women jumping out of trees to get your attention?
Pssst! I'm not telling you what to do, but if you wanna save a buck or ten on OFSG, you could always wait until New Year's. I'm sure the "price" will be more *ahem* favorable if ya know what I mean.
*hint hint, wink wink, nod nod*
RE: Rainbow'sNewJournal - RainbowAbyss - 12-12-2012
@Shannon-thanks man!
@k-train-I will most definitely keep you informed-
Resistance is way down in myself and life in general ..but I've found I'm much more indifferent and intense.. just BAM there-which can be intimidating..the fear that's actually getting dissolved now is fear of making others jealous and fear of being to much or fundamentally off...the fear of not being enough, which I struggled with for a bit is pretty much gone. At this point I don't really judge these things about myself or get too self critical like I use too...and that makes them actually really fun to work with, relax out of the conditioning and test the edges of. My only warning for this sub is that it has made me feel a bit "above it all" whether that's a good thing or a bad thing is up to the user...I'm enjoying it...
I get your hint
and thanks for the tip...I might wait but I'll def. get Alpha then...
RE: Rainbow'sNewJournal - Spiral - 12-12-2012
I love your results Rainbow. Sounds like you are making some good progress
RE: Rainbow'sNewJournal - RainbowAbyss - 12-21-2012
Thanks Spiral!
So I've added in 2-3 hours of BIATBW a day...moments of seeing some really strong results, strong attraction, hovering, woman going out of there way to be near me..
with that but I'm so indifferent, although not in the crazy awesome 'take it or leave it way'...more in the kind of awesome-'I'm gonna leave it' way-I call it the hide response-and it comes when I feel there are more important things going on in my life to sort out, so even though there is a chemistry-I'm just not available to engaging with it...
In fact right now I feel very little interest in engaging with anything ...I'm exhausted fairly often except after 11:00 at night, where I'll either go out and have a crazy night-or stay up all night reading, writing, and working on content for my eventual online business or learning in some capacity that would be seen as absolutely unpractical by conventional standards.
I'm at the point where I absolutely have to get a steady income again but not sure which field to go into until a get my trainers license.
I've had a few dabbles with woman but have this new attitude of absolutely not wanting to budge an inch outside of who I am to relate to someone or get them to like me. I've always been, at my worst and my best (place of abundance, love, and power), really good at relating to people in a way that caters to their ego's, partly for us to relate, partly because I like making people feel great, and to be honest partly because I would always get more flies with honey...so to speak. But now I find myself demanding a certain level of authenticity and depth in relating now that is perhaps unrealistic..and often leaving me disappointed.
The sub has made me feel high or exhausted almost all day long for the last 41 days...I've had nightmares like crazy at times, anxiety, and these days have the sense that life is very surreal..its been like a test of endurance in nothingness and the prize is, insight, felt self knowledge, more fearlessness and willingness, and larger sense of freedom.
My resistance manifests largely as a sense of complete bleak emptiness and apathy, that leads to anger at everything for no reason, but really anger at my own limits-revealed to be self imposed, but when the resistance fades its incredible. I also am noticing my own arising emotions, and insecurities much more often, but I feel I am assigning them less and less reality.
This sub is making me see things I would have instantly suppressed before cause it was to upsetting/crazy to deal with but having this stuff in the light is of benefit now...showing me the awareness level I have been coming from that has determined everything that has shown up in my life. This is allowing my awareness to change...and the fundamental focus and energy on anything less than limitless possibility towards receiving and living out my ideal life and heart's desires is painfully falling away. Its been largely an introspective and internal process but is moving its way into strong action now. I feel like I have been in space and I'm landing again lol
RE: Rainbow'sNewJournal - RainbowAbyss - 01-20-2013
I've been running BIATBW 8.0 and absolute self confidence 4g. the last few weeks.
My only focus lately has been building a strong sense of self and enjoying life.
I plan to start the newest Alpha Male in a month or so and at the point I'll be putting a lot
of pressure and accountability on myself to make some large changes..but right now is cruise
and elevate at a slower pace.
So I promised K-train I'd keep him informed about BIATBW.
The first thing I'll say about it that I find very interesting is I've run Sex Magnet and I've run AOS,
two distinctively sexual attraction subs. BIATBW is nowhere near as sexual. I feel sexier and sexier on it..but in a 'dream guy' kind of way..like I'm the kind of guy woman actually want to be with and not just fxxx. As funny as this sounds I have never had this before..nor have I cared about having it.
But I am really enjoying the set. Its slow in building up but it really does everything it says in the script. Woman open up even easier and more willing when I'm talking to them...theirs more interest...I'm getting approached again.. but only once in a direct way. My flirting is way up, and their more attraction just talking to woman about anything. Woman who can't be romantically involved with me..either cause I'm not interested or because their unavailable get very flustered.
Also the more beautiful the woman..the better we get along...despite the not as sexual thing..on new years I went home with three girls to continue the party and was hooking up with all of them...literally in front of each other..we were all juts having a blast. I was going for the crazy move and trying to get at least two of them to stay..but they all kept saying I had to pick one of them. I've never had an experience of quite so much choice with woman before..it was pretty awesome.
Absolute self confidence is just a solid sub. Feeling really good adding that in...next to no anxiety about anything. The big thing this sub does for me is makes me REALLY comfortable being myself (preferences, values, talking about what I want to talk about and when, telling people what I really feel, pushing my comfort zone without going past my edge ect.) and pushing for that in all circumstances.
RE: Rainbow'sNewJournal - Spiral - 01-20-2013
Wow, making progress!
RE: Rainbow'sNewJournal - RainbowAbyss - 01-22-2013
thanks Spiral..
I've been making a living off of filming high school sports games for parents,
but the camera broke, and it was an expensive camera lol
I can't afford to replace it..so my schedule has been bumped forward.
Time for me to find or make a new job.
I'm trying to learn a lot about entrepreneurship and starting my own online business,
I'm having trouble defining my subject matter and I want to make sure what I offer would be of real value.
If I am allowed to ask this here:
What are some issues, large or subtle, you guys
would like to read about, learn how to deal with/heal, transform, or knowledge/skills
you would want to learn? What kind of motivation/inspiration would you consistently like to get?
RE: Rainbow'sNewJournal - Benjamin - 01-22-2013
Sent you a pm.
RE: Rainbow'sNewJournal - RainbowAbyss - 02-04-2013
I got a little bored with BIATBW...the stuff that was happening that was different
from what I was used to didn't continue to AMP up..it definitely helped brush up
flirting and comfort in my sexuality...and a couple days after I discontinued it a very sexy
woman invited me to her house but we had a great connection and none of that's news to me.
I've continued ASC 4g and added Overcome fear, guilt, and shame.
OFGS 8-10 hours a night--ASC 2-4 hours during the day.
The last month of been experimenting with an SNRI anti-depressant--not because I was particularly depressed-but I was really struggling with maintaining staying awake in the day and/or engaging with anything that wasn't creative or night-life related. Every time I did manage to be awake during the day-I was miserable-even if I managed to sleep at night. I was also going through tremendous finical difficulty and family circumstances and despite the great changes and help I have gotten from subliminals something was definitely off. Keep in mind I was still working out three times a week, eating very healthily,meditating daily or nightly, drinking minimally 1-2 days a week and had an active sex life. Something was off, I needed to start being awake in the day for career transition. I see a therapist/pyschitrist 1-2 times a month and he recommended I try this mainly for its function as a nor-epinephrine reuptake inhibitor. Anyway two weeks of rough side effects later I managed to completely shift my schedule..very productive days and am feeling a lot better. I hope to only be on this for a short time..which brings me to the new sub I'm running through Overcome fear, guilt, and shame.
This might be one of my all time favorite subs, especially after running Overcome fear. I must have been carrying a lot of guilt or shame because the first few days I was tremendously depressed and after that I have been feeling better than I have in a long time. The sub is really smooth, very little resistance now, but it hits like a bomb for me. All these small changes are happening in myself and in my behavior. I feel like I am no longer fighting with things internally that I was so used to before I didn't even notice.
RE: Rainbow'sNewJournal - Laura - 02-05-2013
(02-04-2013, 06:24 PM)RainbowAbyss Wrote: ..which brings me to the new sub I'm running through Overcome fear, guilt, and shame.
This might be one of my all time favorite subs, especially after running Overcome fear. I must have been carrying a lot of guilt or shame because the first few days I was tremendously depressed and after that I have been feeling better than I have in a long time. The sub is really smooth, very little resistance now, but it hits like a bomb for me. All these small changes are happening in myself and in my behavior. I feel like I am no longer fighting with things internally that I was so used to before I didn't even notice.
Hi Rainbow
I'm running Overcoming Guilt Shame and Fear myself so I'm glad to read you like it so much. How long have you been listening to it? I've just checked my journal and I've been listening to it for 6 days.
It's funny that you wrote that you felt tremendously depressed for the first few days. I've also had some days/moments when I felt depressed. I'm quite new to subliminals so for me it's a bit difficult to say whether certain effects are actually caused by the subliminal.
I've also read (on your first page of this journal) that you've become more responsive to subliminals after having been listening to subliminals for a year. You wrote that you barely seem to get resistance from subs anymore. When you did feel resistance, what do you think helped you to overcome that resistance? And how did you notice your resistance - was it just the lack of results?
RE: Rainbow'sNewJournal - RainbowAbyss - 02-05-2013
Hey Laura!
I've been listening for about 10 days.
The way I understand it, and view it, is similar to the old saying "pain is weakness leaving the body", sub specific resistance for me usually manifests as the emotional experience of the opposite of the subs intended goal. The sub is not creating it, its making the user aware of what was already there, resistance is the negativity highlighted more strongly in contrast to the positive new programming in my opinion. Like going to clean out an old basement, when you turn the lights on, you see what a mess is there. Even though subliminals hit the subconscious the 'negativity' can gain conscious awareness as it is removed or dissolved. Similar to weakness leaving the mind..i.e. "feel it to heal it". This is my experience and not professional opinion obviously. So for overcome fear, guilt, and shame, the first few days I felt a lot of guilt, and shame-coming out as depression. On Overcome Fear I would feel anxiety, and nightmares. BIATBW resistance was very light but when it hit, I would feel completely unattractive or not good enough for the woman I desired...etc..
My increased responsiveness to subliminals is partly due to an increase in subliminal technology but also due to an increased resistance threshold from years of doing heavy subliminals. The brain just gets more used to handling it I suppose. I don't get resistance as much, it doesn't last as long, and am usually keenly aware of how the subs effects me.
I used to get resistance as feeling and seeing no results, intense fatigue, feeling like I didn't want to do anything, and very large self sabatoge. These are my issues but sub resistances brought them out strongly.
Here's a list of what I find helps with resistance
1. Anything that gets your emotions heightened or your heart rate up-working out/ music you love
2. A relatively stable schedule that you enjoy-with or without subs
3. Empowering routines-meditation-even five minutes-taking time to release negativity-(This can get fancy and complicated, EFT, Sedonna) but I just intend to let go of resistance and imagine it leaving my body and mind.
4. Play the sub and live your life/set it and forget it-think of the sub as the icing on the cake of your life-before you know it the sub will bake a new cake out of your life lol
5. Actively acknowledge and be grateful for any changes in yourself, your behavior, your life, or your experience. Be nice to yourself no matter what!.
6. The BIGGEST ONE-new experiences-nothing beats resistances like getting into experiences.
It blows it out of the water-to see yourself doing or capable, or even trying, something you have not done before.
This could be anything from taking a class about something you always wanted to learn, talking to new people, committing to saying whatever pops into your mind when socializing, telling someone feelings you wouldn't have told them before, walking different routes on your daily routine...I don't know your specifics but really just changing things up in small to big ways depending on how comfortable/inspired you are.
anyway hope any of that helps!