(06-24-2012, 02:21 PM)spiritman Wrote: Day 13

I am becoming more assertive with myself and with my boundaries to the point of just standing my ground with people. If someone was trying to make me do something I didn't want to do, I wouldn't budge an inch if I didn't want to do it. Plus, I didn't feel the slightest hesitation of saying no or standing up for myself. Furthermore, I am starting to take charge, do things that need to be done, even when other people should have been doing instead of me. I am starting to become more witty, sarcastic with women, busting on them all the time. I have also noticed that I want to have a woman in my life, but at the same time I don't seem to have the urge to get a woman.


It seems like I am starting to enjoy having the company of women around me, instead of focusing all my energy on one woman. Even when I see the one woman at work whom I like (plus I think she likes me as well), we smile/talk to each other. However, I don't seem to have that strong urge to want to get with her psychically and sexually like I have in the past. Yes, I want to get with her, but there is a different feeling or pulling inside of me that is telling me that I should become my own man, and women will just come naturally. Mostly, because I am doing my own thing and being my own man enjoying life, and the women will notice that to the point that they can't help but want to be around me. Which at that point, I can decide whom I want from the choices of women I have around me and go from there.


All my life, I have had the feeling of wanting to get a woman, the feeling, of "I have to get a woman!" Now I seem to be mellowing out a bit and just becoming a man who naturally attracts women. At the same time, I am coming into my own power and masculinity that I have never had or felt in my life. It is weird feeling but an empowering feeling to feel my masculinity starting to take shape, sometimes I just have to stop for a minute or two to know what it feels like.