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RE: PTSD Recovery Aid 6G - Frosted - Frosted - 01-19-2026
I started re-watching Blueprint Decoded by Owen Cook. Last time I watched it was idk how many years ago (and I don't even remember if I finished it). But I think that the high's I'm experiencing from all this healing might be "state". Basically it's a high status feeling. The awesome thing is that it's rising up naturally from within, so the energy is really clean and stable. It's not fully consistent in all situations though, so I still have work to do.
I noticed that as I'm watching it the knowledge seems to be helping me execute PTSDRA better. Even though I technically knew the information before, I'm having a new understanding as I'm watching it now (just like how it says in the program).
I had no idea "state" could feel like this. It literally feels like drugs but cleaner, no exaggeration. I can't wait for the future.
RE: PTSD Recovery Aid 6G - Frosted - Frosted - 01-21-2026
This physical sense of safety I’m phasing into is amazing. It’s unreal, a fantasy. I’m stuck between crying tears of joy and not wanting to feel cheesy or overly dramatic.
RE: PTSD Recovery Aid 6G - Frosted - Frosted - 01-26-2026
I was kind of blindsided earlier. I was making pancakes and I just suddenly noticed how everything seemed more bright and vivid. My usual emotional issues being worked on in the background began to recede, and this fresh sense of vitality and aliveness took over. The actual sensory details of the pancake were fascinating (which is especially significant, because I’m not a sensory person at all). I felt like I was high on life and it reminded me of being a kid again. I was like “so reality can feel this inherently awesome?”
When it was happening I was like “damn Shannon what have you been cooking?” lol. It feels like a threshold is being crossed. I really hope this is only a taste of what’s in store if I continue down the path.
RE: PTSD Recovery Aid 6G - Frosted - Frosted - 01-28-2026
It's official. This marks the end of my first run of PTSDRA. This run was iconic for me. It took some of what I was seeing in the background on OGSF and EPHRA and shoved it right in my face. I reread this journal and it made me want to commit to PTSDRA long-term. I'm on a small downswing right now, so getting reminded of the better times puts things in perspective. I want to experience free drugs as my natural state lmao.
Feeling the restrictions on me and hating it. The good stuff is only highlighting the "cage". I badly want to start applying my internal results towards a goal. I have this increasing reservoir of internal value to draw from but nowhere to channel it. I also just want external results, because a critical, and valid part of me thinks its about time I stops deprioritizing external action and results. I want to test my healing against the world and use friction as a way to compliment the healing process as much as it would help to.
I honestly think my internals are good enough to achieve most things I'd want to, if I applied myself. The problem is applying myself lol. But I'm not yet at the point where external results are inevitable because of internal results. I think that is coming though at some point, judging by the trajectory I'm on. I don't want to wait for that point though, and I'm at the point where I'm trying to harness my energy towards a goal properly, so I actually see results from it. I'm thinking learning external social skills is a good next step, once I buy my car. I've got the internals, it's time to build a bridge between that and the external world.
Basically what I'm describing is building a system that feeds into itself. Right now I only have a closed loop (subliminals), but I need to amplify the results I'm getting by having it feed back into itself using the external world. I want multiple returning ROIs.
The family member I'm exposing is showing good progress after 2 months of PTSDRA. They're more stable emotionally and more considerate in general. A big part of the reason I'm running PTSDRA again is for them, otherwise I'd be running BROP next. I'm on the break days and I'll be doing a second run, standard instructions again. I'll probably start a new journal when I start the new cycle. I'm not going to have a break since Shannon recommended just jumping right into the second run after the standard cycle break.
Man this post is a mess I didn't even plan on writing this much and I'm tired of writing and organizing it all, so it is what it is at it's current level of quality and coherency.
PTSDRA the best, Indigo Mind Labs ON TOP!
RE: PTSD Recovery Aid 6G - Frosted - Shannon - 01-29-2026
Sweet.
RE: PTSD Recovery Aid 6G - Frosted - Benjamin - 01-29-2026
Awesome.
Some outside feedback. From what i've seen in this journal especially I can see it's a great idea for you to run it for longer because you've reported alot of good things.. like it's taken the previous programs and moved you even further. I reakon in a matter of time you will be able to get to a point you can then move towards channeling the healing into something else.
RE: PTSD Recovery Aid 6G - Frosted - Frosted - 01-29-2026
@Shannon @Benjamin Thanks guys!
@Benjamin Yeah, honestly this might actually be better that I'm rerunning PTSDRA immediately. It's doing me a LOT of good.
RE: PTSD Recovery Aid 6G - Frosted - Frosted - 01-29-2026
This morning I had a dream where I was a man in a god's body, sort of like those reincarnation books where the main character gets reincarnated in someone else's body after they die or something. I was with the god's brother, Thor (and a few others who weren't gods (I think they were my friends, but I can't remember)). I kept sort of playing dumb, and it felt like a game of cat and mouse where Thor was basically trying to "catch" me for not really being his brother and I would try to not act like myself and respond to my name and instead pretended to be this god who I was in the body of. The consequence of getting caught was me and my family being tortured by Thor, even if I came clean and was honest.
This dream didn't feel like a nightmare necessarily, although it obviously wasn't all rainbows.
RE: PTSD Recovery Aid 6G - Frosted - Have at ye - 01-30-2026
Very funky dream.
Could be "imposter syndrome" for feeling like a Golden God. Don't worry, next time you'll kick Thor's ass.
