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RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 05-18-2025
Day 40/93, OGSF v3
Had some dreams indicative of GSF removal happening, I think. It was kinda pleasant this time around. That "core trauma" does make itself apparent from time to time through wonky sensations and such, so I guess it could still take some time for it to become healed finally.
Doing some experiments and such. Trying to get my butt back into gear for proper singing practice.
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 05-19-2025
Day 41/93, OGSF v3
Very intense dreams, somewhat disturbing this time around. But I think they're indicative of progress. Wonky sensations a little bit more apparent. Continuing!
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 05-20-2025
Day 42/93, OGSF v3
Gradually becoming more active, gearing my butt up into gear for singing practice.
Had a bit of a "OMG I hate myself so much" moment yesterday evening but it passed after I got some sleep in.
Weight-loss seems to be progressing slowly but surely, though.
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 05-21-2025
Day 42/93, OGSF v3 continued
So I guess I can reveal what I've been up to recently - I got a singing gig at the biggest opera house in town, heh. A lady-friend from my uni days recommended me. Haven't yet signed the contract, but I've already received an e-mail asking to confirm availability and a call from the assistant costume designer asking for my measurements and pics. So I guess it's happening.
Kewl!Very happy about that because I've been frustrated with lack of professional progress singing-wise. Also, the crew I'll be working with seems fine and includes a number of buddies from my uni days, good people (most of them - with the exception of one gal, but eh).
I'll be doing a bit of an intermission in OGSFing during rehearsals and switch back to OSC + DRS v2 for the duration (so for about a week around the 20th, next month). I'm not showing my bubbly butt in that place without shields up (and I won't mind the added self-confidence. As well as a break from OGSF
).Also signed up for an audition next week, hoping to get an invite.
It's very good because this has given me an impulse to get my butt back in gear. Additional motivation and all that.
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 05-22-2025
Day 43/93, OGSF v3
Got the score for that gig, agreed to the fee (it's pretty good, especially since there isn't all that much to sing there TBH, lol), going there tomorrow for the designer chick to take my measurements, waiting for contracts to get signed. Getting my butt in gear to get some proper work done and return to regular pratice, because now I've got something to work towards.
OGSFing is still progressing, liking it. Feelin' better because now I've got interesting stuff to do which takes my mind off OGSF.
Signed up for a dance-retreat run by designee "dancer chick with dat ass" as I haven't had a proper vacation in years, it's gonna be in July, so maybe we'll get DMSI 6g by then, who knows. Otherwise I'm gonna test X4A (for science).
Plenty of attractive dancer-chicks at such retreats.(Oh yeah, I'll be running two loops DRS v2 before going there tomorrow. It's hostile territory, lol
)
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 05-22-2025
Day 44/93, OGSF v3
Continuing. Feeling a bit sleepy/lazy still, but I've got places to be and things to do. Had a pretty productive day yesterday - went to this one meetup even though I did not really feel like it but it was nice, reconnected with a lovely lady (let's call her "hippy dancer chick") and so. Getting back to work.
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 05-23-2025
Day 44/93, OGSF v3 - continued
The fittings went off without a hitch, just had the scores printed and getting to work (first rehearsal week starts June 20th, hopefully we're only going to work on the music itself).
Feeling kinda down/sad most of the time. Unpleasant memories trigger from time to time and then I get even sadder and a little bit depressed/self-conscious, and then I have to employ willpower in order to go and do things that need doing. But I guess it's part of OGSFing, hopefully this effect will lessen as it progresses further.
When I do get around to doing things take my mind off things and I feel okay, but it's kinda exhausting.
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 05-24-2025
Day 45/93, OGSF v3
Halfway there, pretty much.
Feeling kinda decent after I've had some sleep. Doing my thing. Still feeling kinda sad/down, a little bit stressed out even - but it's probably that I'm performing all the OGSF and trauma clearing right now, so it's probably due to this process.
Getting to work today on the singing stuff.
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 05-24-2025
Day 46/93, OGSF v3
Singing pratice went very well today. I did have to kinda will myself into going to do it because I felt kinda off and bad beforehand. OGSFing is working hard, kinda to the point of distraction even. But, well, it's doing its thing, I guess. Can't wait to be done with it, though.
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 05-25-2025
Day 47/93, OGSF v3
Feeling better, had some dreams and all that (some very wonky - like f.in. I dreamt that I was back to being a toddler... and as the toddler, I found a gun. And then I went to shoot some people. I don't remember who exactly, though, or why
Must have been one angry toddler, lawl).Singing practice continues and is going very well. Feeling a little bit more socieable, chatted up some lovely ladies and they loved it, haha (like f. in. that "dancer hippie chick". I told her I loved her class and I want more, she was very enthusiastic. She also has very nice boobies). For now, at least (hopefully this will increase over time). My mood has also improved a touch - I'm now back listening to music and even catch myself dancing a bit to it, haha.
I do get annoyed after singing practice, though, mostly due to detractors/saboteurs who have wasted *years of my life* on incorrect instruction, mobbing and the like. I kinda want to expose such people for who they are before all and sundry; force 'em out of the business, in a way, heh. Maybe I'll come with something.
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 05-27-2025
Day 48/93, OGSF v3
Having fun again listening to musac and working on my singing/that part I'm gonna be performing. Due to having been a lazy bum these past month and a half (because I was OGSFing hard, as you may have noticed
) my physical conditioning isn't quite up to snuff, but eh, we'll get there, there's plenty of time. Just gotta watch out not to start overeating due to the additional physical exertion (it's making me hungry, obv).OGSF is doing its thing, I believe!
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 05-28-2025
Day 49/93, OGSF v3
Had a bit of a breathrough today, I think! Honestly I could go for some EHPRAing along this OGSF v3, as I find myself having to resolve emotions and such on my own while OGSF is doing its thing. Found a way to help myself in this regard today, as well, and I'm going to apply it. Feeling pretty well, though, all things considered.
That audition I've been preparing for turned out to be a scam - a "pay-to-sing" kind of deal, and they did not even explicitly advertise it as such (this is - unfortunately - a quite common occurence in the operatic world, oy). Very uncool.
Well, at least it did get my to get off my butt. Gotta select 3 pieces to make recordings of until July 15 for this opera studio I want to apply to. I honestly am at a loss apart from one which is definitely making it in - I may call up my original singing teacher to consult him on this.
Booked my spot at that dance retreat by 'dancer chick with dat ass', should be a good way of relaxing, as well as a good place to try out X4A-1600 or other programs of this type, should any new ones become available in the interim.
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - RTBoss - 05-28-2025
(05-28-2025, 08:07 AM)Have at ye Wrote: Day 49/93, OGSF v3
Had a bit of a breathrough today, I think! Honestly I could go for some EHPRAing along this OGSF v3, as I find myself having to resolve emotions and such on my own while OGSF is doing its thing. Found a way to help myself in this regard today, as well, and I'm going to apply it. Feeling pretty well, though, all things considered.
That audition I've been preparing for turned out to be a scam - a "pay-to-sing" kind of deal, and they did not even explicitly advertise it as such (this is - unfortunately - a quite common occurence in the operatic world, oy). Very uncool.
Well, at least it did get my to get off my butt. Gotta select 3 pieces to make recordings of until July 15 for this opera studio I want to apply to. I honestly am at a loss apart from one which is definitely making it in - I may call up my original singing teacher to consult him on this.
Booked my spot at that dance retreat by 'dancer chick with dat ass', should be a good way of relaxing, as well as a good place to try out X4A-1600 or other programs of this type, should any new ones become available in the interim.
Bummer about the scam, but so glad to see a lot of other areas looking up for ya! The dance retreat sounds like it's gonna be an awesome time, can't wait to hear about it.
RE: 6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3) - Have at ye - 05-28-2025
Yeah, it's a bummer - also because I'd have loved to add that particular part to my repertoire, heh.
Thanks, I'll totally do a post-retreat report, haha. It's still quite some time off from now, second half of July.