(05-16-2015, 11:45 PM)TheRealJustin Wrote: I don't have facebook. It was too much drama in my life, and I'm not into sales women either lmao!

(05-16-2015, 11:45 PM)TheRealJustin Wrote: I'm not saying biabws will stop men from being attracted to you, I'm just saying the only affirmations that specify straight men are the ones saying they will stop other men from being attracted, so if your subconscious ignored it it wouldn't matter anyways.

(05-16-2015, 11:45 PM)TheRealJustin Wrote: I agree about liquor 100%, it's like pumping yourself with estrogen, but I keep doing it anyways, pretty pathetic, but it's so rewarding. Like tonight I had a pretty bomb night, and I am pretty juiced right now.

(05-16-2015, 11:45 PM)TheRealJustin Wrote: What I mean by super juice is every morning I have a super juice which is a blend of different fruits and veggies that will make me live longer, not get cancer, not get diabetes, not get heart disease, raise testosterone, increase energy, boost my immune system, just all sort of pluses. The longer I've been having these juices every morning, the more I've been having healthier acts in other parts of my life also, so, it's just an amazing plus that in the long run, will cause a chain reaction to some amazing results. I waved and blew kisses at a lot of girls tonight and had a lot of girls wave and blow kisses to me. It was fun, was with a coworker, was showing him some online convos, and had lots of girls talking to us and hugging us and just having a great time. Nothing super impressive, but he was super impressed, which is always fun. I don't need sales girls pretending to be nice to me or interested in me, I don't know where you got that idea, I'm well beyond training wheels and needing girls that are paid to be nice to me. I get pu**y.

(05-16-2015, 11:45 PM)TheRealJustin Wrote: I would get surgery for my man tits, but I don't think I have gyno-whatever, I think I just have I-need-to-do-chest-workouts-syndrome, but who knows.

(05-17-2015, 06:31 AM)thor2014 Wrote: Brother SargeMaximus I am proud of the fact you have commited to yourself to self improvement I appreciate it has not been easy path for you but I know things will change in the not too distant future.

How many runs have you completed of AMS ?

Your friend

(05-17-2015, 04:27 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote:

(05-16-2015, 11:45 PM)TheRealJustin Wrote: I don't have facebook. It was too much drama in my life, and I'm not into sales women either lmao!

Ah, makes sense. lol

(05-16-2015, 11:45 PM)TheRealJustin Wrote: I'm not saying biabws will stop men from being attracted to you, I'm just saying the only affirmations that specify straight men are the ones saying they will stop other men from being attracted, so if your subconscious ignored it it wouldn't matter anyways.

Yeah it might be an option. But I'm doing allright. I think I'm near a breakthrough in regards to women. check out my recent journal for more details.

(05-16-2015, 11:45 PM)TheRealJustin Wrote: I agree about liquor 100%, it's like pumping yourself with estrogen, but I keep doing it anyways, pretty pathetic, but it's so rewarding. Like tonight I had a pretty bomb night, and I am pretty juiced right now.

Yeah totally. I, myself, LOVE captain morgan's spiced rum. Like I said, never been drunk, but I used to have a drink every now and then, for the flavor and slight buzz.

Well, alcohol destroys T, but so does sugar, and rum is made from sugar cane. Double whammy lol.

I still crave it though, even now

I just don't give in, cause I know it'll be like a bomb to my manliness.

(05-16-2015, 11:45 PM)TheRealJustin Wrote: What I mean by super juice is every morning I have a super juice which is a blend of different fruits and veggies that will make me live longer, not get cancer, not get diabetes, not get heart disease, raise testosterone, increase energy, boost my immune system, just all sort of pluses. The longer I've been having these juices every morning, the more I've been having healthier acts in other parts of my life also, so, it's just an amazing plus that in the long run, will cause a chain reaction to some amazing results. I waved and blew kisses at a lot of girls tonight and had a lot of girls wave and blow kisses to me. It was fun, was with a coworker, was showing him some online convos, and had lots of girls talking to us and hugging us and just having a great time. Nothing super impressive, but he was super impressed, which is always fun. I don't need sales girls pretending to be nice to me or interested in me, I don't know where you got that idea, I'm well beyond training wheels and needing girls that are paid to be nice to me. I get pu**y.

I'll look it up. That's the brand name? Super juice?

And yeah I know, I just meant for your sober wanderings. You mentioned you couldn't/didn't approach women solo/sober, so that was my suggestion to help out in that regard.

Approaching women is the best thing ever for me so far. The more I do it, the more I free myself from society's hold on me. And i just love vibing with them, touching them, and having a good interaction. I also love finding my own sticking points, it's very interesting.

Also, when I first approach after a long stretch of not approaching (like last night) I get SO shaken, I tremble, and I feel like napalm is going off inside my body. It's a cleansing kind of feeling. I kind of enjoy that too.

(05-16-2015, 11:45 PM)TheRealJustin Wrote: I would get surgery for my man tits, but I don't think I have gyno-whatever, I think I just have I-need-to-do-chest-workouts-syndrome, but who knows.

Lol, well if you go to the gym, you will soon find out.

(05-17-2015, 09:10 AM)TheRealJustin Wrote: I think I would tremble too which is a huge sign I need to do it. It's weird because when I'm drunk it's so easy, but I suppose I'm also in situations where it's so normal to do also, or at least more normal. (most of the time)
Actually, I wouldn't tremble, but I would feel awkward and creepy I think.
I am going to somehow get myself to start doing it though, it will make my life a million times better.

(05-17-2015, 09:10 AM)TheRealJustin Wrote: For my super juices it's just something I make every morning with my Ninja Blender. It's always different, but an example of one I will take (everything organic) blueberries, chia seeds, ginger root, kale, asparagus, broccoli sprouts, lime, lemon, pineapple, celery leafs, parsley, cilantro, beets, an orange, and a banana. Blend it all up and drink it. I've been feeling better and better everyday, I've been taking dumps 3 times a day it used to be once a day or once every other day, and I just feel great and it keeps getting better.

(05-17-2015, 07:12 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote:

(05-17-2015, 06:31 AM)thor2014 Wrote: Brother SargeMaximus I am proud of the fact you have commited to yourself to self improvement I appreciate it has not been easy path for you but I know things will change in the not too distant future.

How many runs have you completed of AMS ?

Your friend

Brother Thor! Last time I saw you, you were talking about your skills with women, and doing AM 5 is that right? Now on to Zen Mindset. Hope that's going well.

I appreciate the recognition, that's one of the things I love without end. To answer your question I'm not sure because I don't know what AMS is. Do you mean "AM"? As in, how many AM runs have I done?

If so, I have done AM 5, and AM 6 one time each.

(05-17-2015, 11:20 AM)thor2014 Wrote: Yes brother I mean AM. You are correct I was getting laid but then I realized I have no need for SM at this point. I have decided on clearing my mind, building upon my intuition, learning to relax more as well as being in the moment.

This is the direction I choose a more spiritual path. Maybe later I will choose the SM path.

Peace

(05-17-2015, 11:35 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote:

(05-17-2015, 11:20 AM)thor2014 Wrote: Yes brother I mean AM. You are correct I was getting laid but then I realized I have no need for SM at this point. I have decided on clearing my mind, building upon my intuition, learning to relax more as well as being in the moment.

This is the direction I choose a more spiritual path. Maybe later I will choose the SM path.

Peace

I hear you. Spirituality is very important. Interestingly, SM brought more spirituality into my life, just thought I'd mention that too.

See you around.

(05-17-2015, 01:00 PM)thor2014 Wrote: Brother when you mentioned SM brought spirituality into your life would you be kind enough to share this profoundness with me ?

(05-17-2015, 09:51 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote:

(05-17-2015, 09:10 AM)TheRealJustin Wrote: I think I would tremble too which is a huge sign I need to do it. It's weird because when I'm drunk it's so easy, but I suppose I'm also in situations where it's so normal to do also, or at least more normal. (most of the time)
Actually, I wouldn't tremble, but I would feel awkward and creepy I think.
I am going to somehow get myself to start doing it though, it will make my life a million times better.

Totally man. And remember: you can start slow/easy whatever, but DO start lol. You won't regret it.

I don't even mind the trembling that much anymore, cause I see it as my body releasing. I mean, last night I talked to a girl and would gag on a nervous gag response while talking to her. Butjust kept going. She made it clear that she was afraid we'd have sex, so didn't want to hang out lol. It's always nice when the conversation goes in that direction. But yeah, keepo watching those julien/tyler videos. This one, in particular, I LOVED because of how they're all mocking regular guys' response to rejection. Tyler's like "she... she rejected me... what does that MEAN bro?? About ME as a PERSON... I just don't know what it MEANS!" lol. Of course, he's making a point tho.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RsM5HhgJ3dg

(05-17-2015, 09:10 AM)TheRealJustin Wrote: For my super juices it's just something I make every morning with my Ninja Blender. It's always different, but an example of one I will take (everything organic) blueberries, chia seeds, ginger root, kale, asparagus, broccoli sprouts, lime, lemon, pineapple, celery leafs, parsley, cilantro, beets, an orange, and a banana. Blend it all up and drink it. I've been feeling better and better everyday, I've been taking dumps 3 times a day it used to be once a day or once every other day, and I just feel great and it keeps getting better.

Oh wow, I get ya. I had the same called my "Happy Drink" specificaslly designed to increase dopamine and sexual function to support my porn addiction

Yeah superfoods are the SH*T, and they definitely help.

Try getting your hands on some matcha tea and drinking THAT just before you go out. It'll make you SUPER focused and zen, but also relax your physical body. It's also a major superfood if you get quality strains. I used to drink it every morning but I put my electric kettle on the stove, baked some potatoes, and it melted and now I have no money for another one. It's on my list tho lol.

(05-17-2015, 07:34 PM)TheRealJustin Wrote: I'll have to look into that tea, and yea Tyler is awesome, totally made pickup make sense to me and made me stop like, idk, I guess you could say I stopped looking for some secret answer that doesn't exist, I'm not sure how else to say it.

(05-17-2015, 07:34 PM)TheRealJustin Wrote: I did look at this gorgeous Mexican girl on the bus, I can't even explain how attracted I was to her and we locked eyes, I smiled friendly and she looked away, then dug in her purse, started putting on lip balm or something, and then started running her hands through her hair and playing with her hair like crazy. It was so obvious I could have talked to her, got her number, went out with her sometime and had her be my girlfriend, and I would LOVE to have that girl be my girlfriend and I don't even want a girlfriend, but I just couldn't say anything. Just couldn't do it. That was like an hour ago. It's not fear of rejection because I couldn't care less about rejection, I don't know what it is, but I am going to overcome it somehow.

(05-17-2015, 01:25 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote:

(05-17-2015, 01:00 PM)thor2014 Wrote: Brother when you mentioned SM brought spirituality into your life would you be kind enough to share this profoundness with me ?

Yeah sure. It was/is very strange, but it's like I saw/see sex as a spiritual act entirely. I entirely interact with women on an energetic level. Sure, the physical attracts me, but if a woman is "hot" enough to get a rise out of me, that energy needs to be honored by taking action. The end result of this being sex.

Very hard to describe, but it is all energy.

I'm still battling with social programming, but the energy is there, I cannot ignore it. I may stay away from it by not escalating let's say, but the enrgy is there. lol, I'm repeating myself.

But, I dunno, life became more sacred and calm, and sexual/sensual.

I now identify myself as a hedonist, pleasure being the greatest energy next to love HOWEVER, when one can act WITH love, then it is amplified.

I guess you could say i devote myself to the cultivation and proper channeling/expression of this energy. I haven't, for example, ejaculated in over 2 weeks now. When I was doing SM, I made it to 56 days and would have gone longer but I had a wet dream.

It's like I know instinctively that this energy is to be wielded, and not "blown" if you pardon the pun.

If you have specific questions it'd be easier to answer you tho.

(05-17-2015, 09:32 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote:

(05-17-2015, 07:34 PM)TheRealJustin Wrote: I'll have to look into that tea, and yea Tyler is awesome, totally made pickup make sense to me and made me stop like, idk, I guess you could say I stopped looking for some secret answer that doesn't exist, I'm not sure how else to say it.

Dude, i know EXACTLY what you mean. I'm still trying to get over that, but I definitely know it. Tonight I spoke to some girls and I realized I was trying to force the interaction with tensing up lol. as if making a physical effort could change HER somehow lol. Definitely magic-pill syndrom.

(05-17-2015, 07:34 PM)TheRealJustin Wrote: I did look at this gorgeous Mexican girl on the bus, I can't even explain how attracted I was to her and we locked eyes, I smiled friendly and she looked away, then dug in her purse, started putting on lip balm or something, and then started running her hands through her hair and playing with her hair like crazy. It was so obvious I could have talked to her, got her number, went out with her sometime and had her be my girlfriend, and I would LOVE to have that girl be my girlfriend and I don't even want a girlfriend, but I just couldn't say anything. Just couldn't do it. That was like an hour ago. It's not fear of rejection because I couldn't care less about rejection, I don't know what it is, but I am going to overcome it somehow.

That's good man! You know how long it took ME to overcome mutual smiling? I STILL have trouble with it.

The main thing is: YOU NOTICED IT. Awareness comes first, now all you have to do is push the boundaries. Keep pushing and pushing yourself as you become more and more aware. It really is that simple.

Also i totally know about not having fear of rejection but still being paralyzed, because I had/have that. I think it's when we think, consciously or unconsciously, that even if we DO act, nothing will come of it. Or, in your case, might just be fear of success? What do you think?

(05-17-2015, 09:47 PM)thor2014 Wrote: Brother SargeMaximus i praise you for your honesty and integrity. From my memories of reading your previous posts you have shaped and grown in a very positive way.

Many great men such as Napoleon Hil, Richard Branson learned to store and channel their sexual energy to use in a productive way. Rather then unleashing it in into the first girl they meet. The term is transmutation if I am correct.

You have done your home work you are on the path to greatness.

(05-17-2015, 10:16 PM)TheRealJustin Wrote: I think it would be more fear of an awkward or embarrassing situation, coming off as weird and creepy and then I think what everyone else on the bus would think and stuff like that and I just don't act.

(05-17-2015, 10:16 PM)TheRealJustin Wrote: I've been aware of stuff for a long time. I have been balls deep into pickup since I was 17 and I'm 27 now. I don't know why I just won't meet a woman on my own, like I have to meet her though a friend, or online, or at work, something like that, or if I'm completely shitfaced I'll start talking to girls wherever I'm at, but I am never just sober, and see a girl I don't know, and just go up to her and say hi even when I know all lights are green like tonight. I pick up on extremely subtle things with girls. And I definitely can relate to about how you said I won't act because I think it won't go anywhere anyways. That's 100% of the time when I just see a hottie, but when I'm getting signs like tonight it's just me being a p*s*y. If someone saw it happen they wouldn't have thought one thing about it, but I just know all these subtle little things. Like if someone that never studied pua or female psychology or anything saw what happened, they'd actually think that girl had absolute zero interest in me because I smiled at her and she instantly looked away, they'd be like, 'dude you're an idiot, that girl did not have any interest in you whatsoever' but I know she liked me. Not only did I notice a ton of subtle things that I believe means she really likes me, I could also feel her energy and my own, that probably sounds extremely stupid idk if you ever felt it but it's almost a feeling like ours souls or spirits were holding hands like I can't really put it into words, it's just a feeling and I've felt it before with a couple different girls and I know it's real because this one girl in particular that I was literally in love with and I know she loved me too but it was before I knew anything about women and just thought there's no way a girl like her would ever have romantic feelings for a guy like me but we were sitting on a couch next to each other and I could feel it big time, and it felt amazing, and she said 'do you feel that?' and I knew exactly what she was talking about but I was a super retard back then and was just like no I think you're tripping or something stupid like that.

(05-17-2015, 10:16 PM)TheRealJustin Wrote: Actually that was shortly after I first found David DeAngelo and was all into his cocky and funny stuff. But, yea, it sounds crazy but I totally believe 100% it's real idk if it's spirits or auras or our energies or souls or what, but I've experienced the feeling a few times. With the girl on the bus the feeling wasn't nearly as strong as with the girl from my past, but the feeling was there though. She would be my girlfriend right now if I wasn't such a puss.