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RE: Knowledge is power | MLS 5.5G - ichigo - 08-10-2017
Day 21
4 loops Hybrid Trickling Stream overnight
Slept much better again last night, during the first loop. Still woke up at the end of the last one but fell back to sleep quickly. Hopefully this will continue! I'm thinking the difficulty sleeping could potentially have been turbulence, as we're now on day 22 since my last day of DMSI, so it could be the P technologies finally wearing off.
I'm enjoying reading novels much more. I'm able to focus on them more, which makes for a far more engrossing and enjoyable reading experience.
I'm realising I had very poor focus throughout my life. I didn't realise this because I always did well academically so I just assumed I was "smart", but a few things are becoming clearer. I could never study or concentrate with the slightest distraction around me. For me to read a book, to study, or even to watch a film with my full concentration, I HAVE to be alone and with no other distractions around. For example, at university, I could never work in the library because I would get too distracted by everything happening around me - I had to shut myself in my room and be alone to get going.
I remember being on a coach ride for a school trip once, and everybody joking around. There was your typical "geeky" kid reading a book on the back of the bus, fully engrossed, with chaos taking place around him. People were laughing at him, including me. Looking back now, I have such respect for his ability to block all that out and 100% focus on his book. It was commendable. I want to go back in time and slap everybody, including myself, who laughed at the poor guy, look him in the eye and tell him "fuck everybody else, what you're doing is impressive".
I wish I had done that, but no, I laughed with everyone else. Laughed at him because he wasn't joining in, because he was different. Poor kid.
Ed: Forgot to mention, I kept fantasising about and often having sex dreams about my female friend while on DMSI. This was the one who broke up with her boyfriend during my 3.1 run. Since stopping, those things have stopped, which makes me think she might have been my LDS, although I wouldn't say she's consciously the most attractive girl I've ever met, I would love to fuck her.
Starting eating pistachios today (Thanks RTB)
RE: Knowledge is power | MLS 5.5G - Benjamin - 08-10-2017
Quote:I remember being on a coach ride for a school trip once, and everybody joking around. There was your typical "geeky" kid reading a book on the back of the bus, fully engrossed, with chaos taking place around him. People were laughing at him, including me. Looking back now, I have such respect for his ability to block all that out and 100% focus on his book. It was commendable. I want to go back in time and slap everybody, including myself, who laughed at the poor guy, look him in the eye and tell him "**** everybody else, what you're doing is impressive".
That is pretty fucking awesome actually. For him to do his own thing in the midst of all that! People do react strange when you're doing something not fitting the environment though, it's funny. Something as simple as eating an apple in a nightclub got me some funny reactions and people even getting pissed off.
RE: Knowledge is power | MLS 5.5G - ichigo - 08-10-2017
Day 22
4 loops Hybrid Trickling Stream overnight
Slept properly again last night, and for the first time today feel fully awake. It's a great feeling. I've been feeling too run down to work out lately, but going to try and work out tonight when I get in.
My girlfriend and I somehow found ourselves watching a documentary on Netflix on health, and I've decided to change one aspect of my diet. For lunch everyday I have been eating chicken burgers in baps with mayonnaise and BBQ sauce. I'm going to swap that out for a large bowl of oats with blueberries, cinnamon and possibly some chopped nuts included.
I'm also going to order a large chest freezer so that I can buy lean meats in bulk and store them.
I have been eating so much cakes/chocolate/sugary foods since starting the sub and I've been craving alcohol lots. However, I didn't want to ruin the detox, so when my girlfriend and I went to a bar last night, she had wine and I had a hot chocolate instead.
I want to do some research on how I can structure my diet to promote:
1.) Maximum testosterone
2.) Maximum brain power
3.) Maximum circulation to combat ED
If anybody has any suggestions that would be appreciated.
For my own reference:
Shannon Wrote:Well I'm not sure I'd call them "stages". Basically, you will most likely experience the following, roughly in order.
1. Initial impact. This may range from almost no response for resistant pains in the butt to "Holy cow, I'm limitless!" You may also experience detoxing effects and an increased need for sleep.
2. Throttle back. This is after initial impact and results because the clearing & healing starts to kick in and take focus. You may also experience detoxing and brain adjustment effects, increased hunger over normal and increased need for sleep.
3. Healing & Clearing. During this period, the focus is of course on healing and clearing, and you may experience all the goodies that go with it. Learning, etc. may be present or may not. It will depend on how much you are focused in H&C and how much you are trying to resist the process. During this time. You may also experience detoxing and brain adjustment effects, increased hunger over normal and increased need for sleep.
4. Maximum Learning Speed & Focus. This is where the rubber meets the road. This is where the BS has been cleared out, and you're now free to ride down that highway you bought the program to ride down. This may take time to gear up, as the brain may be healing and optimizing for months. I would expect that the program would need 3 to 9 months to finish brain healing and optimizing. During this phase, you will become accustomed to higher intellectual capacity, greater acuity of awareness, faster thinking and processing abilities and better memory and processing abilities than you had before, and it may seem as if you have always been able to do this. You may also experience increased hunger over normal, and increased (but lessening) need for sleep.
Shannon Wrote:There is necessity to detox the body as well as the brain, because they are interdependent. The brain being thus becomes toxic as a consequence of the body being toxic. Thus, the body must be cleansed for the brain to be kept clean after detox is complete to whatever degree it is possible to do through this program.
Cleansing the lungs, for example, makes it possible to supply the brain with optimal levels of oxygen for it to function at it's peak. Likewise, cleansing the digestive system allows maximal efficiency for that to provide energy and nutrients to the brain for maximum efficiency, etc., etc.
When optimizing the brain, one must understand that the whole of the system is interdependent such that the whole is effectively one. Thus, one cannot cleanse one and keep it cleansed without needing to cleanse the whole, and one cannot influence one without needing to balance that influence upon the whole. One cannot operate optimally in the mental without having the whole operating and inter-operating efficiently.
MLS is therefore not just a brain tune up, but a tune up for the whole body, as well as the mind, to whatever degree, as well.
This is part of why these advanced subs are so powerful.
RE: Knowledge is power | MLS 5.5G - Shannon - 08-12-2017
Craving alcohol is a subconscious avoidance response to something it fears. Self medication, as it were. It is good that you avoided it. It is most definitely a toxin, and especially one that affects the mind detrimentally. Thus, craving alcohol while doing MLS is a sure sign of clearing and healing something that scares the hell out of you subconsciously concerning learning, intelligence and or being able to remember.
Do not give in on that.
RE: Knowledge is power | MLS 5.5G - Benjamin - 08-13-2017
I don't know how much you usually drink Ichigo, but going with what Shannon is saying.. it was notable when a couple of times on DMSI and E2 dealing with the healing I started to have an urge to drink alcohol.
And I haven't drank for years, never really have that much.. when I did it was like 2 or 3 drinks.
RE: Knowledge is power | MLS 5.5G - ichigo - 08-14-2017
Day 25
4 loops Hybrid Trickling Stream overnight
The sub is really starting to take off for me at this point. I'm able to fall asleep during the first loop. I still wake up when the last loop finishes, and still often need the bathroom, but it's no big deal as I can just go to the bathroom and can usually fall back asleep without issue. I think it's the detox scripting that causes it.
Having finally caught up on sleep, the effect of the sub feels more obvious. My brain feels cleaner and lighter, if that makes sense. Reading gives me much more pleasure than it did before because I can focus much better. In day to day life, I'm wittier. I feel very motivated to read, and I'm beginning to feel excited about the prospect of writing my own novel, and beginning to feel it could actually be possible, whereas previously it was something I could fantasise about but deemed deep down to be an impossible task.
Perhaps the best unexpected side effects thus far have been:
-Impulse to clean up my diet. It's not worth eating crap because when the sub detox's it out you feel like shit. Same applies to alcohol. Went to a BBQ this weekend and everybody was drinking, I didn't touch the stuff. Felt happy without it.
-Improved erection quality, likely due to detox.
-Sex is improving. I lasted longer, I think because I was better able to focus on not cumming. My girlfriend actually complimented my technique and asked where I had learned it - she hasn't complimented me during sex before.
-Happier. It's like I can see how life is more clearly, and how lucky I have it. It's like there is a light in me, and I feel like my eyes look a little brighter too. I catch myself in the mirror and think about how good looking I am (DMSI after-effects perhaps).
-More compassionate. I found myself thinking about death last night, and felt that insurmountable fear that one day I will no longer exist, I will no longer be conscious, and that once this life is over, that's the end. That got me to thinking that we're all in this universe, given the same deal, and the most important thing is to help each other through this brief moment of existence and ensure we all suffer as little pain as possible.
I guess it's making me feel more "zen", would be a good way to describe it.
It's exciting to think it's not even been one month, and that it's likely been fighting with DMSI turbulence up to this point. Each day I am looking forward to the next to see how much more I can progress with MLS.
RE: Knowledge is power | MLS 5.5G - ichigo - 08-15-2017
Day 27
4 loops Hybrid Trickling Stream overnight
I'm still feeling more positive, detox is still working strong, I don't think I'm healing/clearing anything as there's no more bursts of anger. Things with my girlfriend are going really well right now.
My ability to concentrate has been a little off yesterday and so far today. I'm struggling more to read and I feel less motivated to study. Before I was filled with excitement at reading but now I'm starting to feel a little dread again, like I just can't be bothered. My short term memory has been pretty poor too. Hopefully it's temporary.
I noticed today that the detox has cleared up my nose a lot - I wasn't able to breathe through my nose as well previously because it always felt blocked so I couldn't get enough air in, but the airways feel a lot clearer now.
Also, around a week ago, I was at my parents house and my mum was randomly clearing things out in the attic. She found some of my old schoolwork and made me look through it, and there was a collection of stories about Christmas that my whole class had written when we were about 10 years old. It struck me how much more advanced my story and writing was from the other kids in the class, it was surreal. It's helped motivate me to write more because clearly it's something I had a natural aptitude for even at an early age.
RE: Knowledge is power | MLS 5.5G - ichigo - 08-17-2017
Day 28
4 loops Hybrid Trickling Stream overnight
Focus and concentration still a little off. Feeling very lazy. It's tough to get myself motivated to even read other people's writing, let alone write my own. I'm happy just browsing bullshit on forums and watching youtube videos.
My girlfriend has taken to sniffing me more. She snuggles her head into my chest and takes long deep sniffs. Last night she told me that the breath out of my nose smells like sweet potato. I asked her if the rest of my body smells, she says yeah, it's a kind of unique scent I associate with you, it's sweet like sweet potato or carrots or something. I asked her how long I had smelled like that for, she said she wasn't sure, but I've noticed her start to sniff me more about 20 days into MLS.
She hasn't commented on my smell other than very early on during DMSI 3.1 B, but that was to tell me I smelled "different". She didn't say I smelled sweet.
So I'm thinking the sub detox, or my diet change, or a combination, has changed my smell.
This morning, she woke me up earlier than usual kissing my back and rubbing my dick, so we had morning sex, which is something we've done maybe twice before.
A detox module really really really needs to be in DMSI 3.2 IMO.
Edit: Oh yeah, and I finished reading The Great Gatsby. I found it a huge disappointment, considering all the hype about it being the great American novel. I told my girlfriend and she said she disagreed and maybe it went over my head. I asked her what she thinks went over my head, and she started talking about all the foreshadowing and the imagery of the green light and blah blah blah. His writing was just painful to me, it's like when you start writing and you're desperate for every sentence to show off how smart you are.
I told her I genuinely thought I could write a better novel, to which she laughed. But I actually felt it was true when I said it. It feels like it could be the anything is possible programming kicking in.
Which makes me think... maybe I am going through a healing/clearing phase right now.
RE: Knowledge is power | MLS 5.5G - ichigo - 08-17-2017
I'm thinking about doing 3 months of the Universal Detox, then swapping back over to MLS 5.5G after the 3 months.
MLS looks like it's doing the detox mostly right now anyway, so I feel like it would be better to just fully detox everything for 3 months, then come back to MLS when the goal will be more achievable. I'm really enjoying the detox element of MLS, so might as well dive straight in, get fully detoxed, then approach MLS again.
It seems to me being fully detoxed will make all subs work better after the 3 months. It's like laying the groundwork that the subs can build up off.
RE: Knowledge is power | MLS 5.5G - ichigo - 08-18-2017
Day 29
4 loops Hybrid Trickling Stream overnight
Thought about the idea to swap more, and now leaning toward sticking with MLS for three months. It would be a waste to stop now as it would thwart the physical changes taking place. It would be better to receive the brain healing, detoxing and enhancements before switching. Then a detox afterwards perhaps.
I'll probably be suckered in by DMSI 3.2 if I'm honest lol. Although it would probably be wiser to detox first for 3 months after MLS, then it might be DMSI 3.3.
Back to feeling very tired. Not much motivation to do anything. Want to be back in bed.
RE: Knowledge is power | MLS 5.5G - ichigo - 08-21-2017
Day 32
4 loops Hybrid Trickling Stream overnight
Feeling happier today, could be because of getting more rest over the weekend. More social and cheerful with coworkers this morning.
I did have two beers on Saturday but didn't go too overboard. Had ED on Sunday morning though. It made me really really angry, had to leave the house and be on my own for about 45 minutes to cool off. It frustrated me because I was hoping due to the detox this would be a problem of the past, but it seems like drinking is a no no for me. It's really frustrating when two beers throw me off and other people can drink plenty and still have sex that night.
My diet has taken a huge turn due to the sub. Previously my diet would consist of chicken burgers for lunch and pasta with chicken/porn and a sauce (I don't eat breakfast due to intermittent fasting). Now it's oats, almond milk, almond butter, blueberries, cacao nibs, honey and cinnamon for lunch, pistachios as an afternoon snack, pomegranate juice when I get home, then pasta/rice/potato but with homemade sauces using ginger/garlic/etc. and far more vegetables. Using fish and chicken more, have completely cut out pork from the diet.
I was running the sub primarily whilst learning about screenplay writing, but I've noticed it's pushing me toward learning more about boxing. Anyway, I've found there's a guy in my area who offers 1 on 1 boxing training, and I've been researching into how to become a boxing trainer myself and seen that there are courses you can take to become qualified to run amateur boxing clubs.
Could be the sub pushing me toward my true passions?
During my research I've been coming across the notion of the "flow state" a lot, and it's making me want to start meditating again. I've noticed the sub can push me into flow state more naturally. It's like in my normal life, I'm very out of the moment, say it was a film, I feel like I see things at about 50 frames per second, but the sub has helped to increase this to say 100 frames per second. Far more present, far more focused, quieter mind.
“You must be shapeless, formless, like water. When you pour water in a cup, it becomes the cup. When you pour water in a bottle, it becomes the bottle. When you pour water in a teapot, it becomes the teapot. Water can drip and it can crash. Become like water my friend.”
RE: Knowledge is power | MLS 5.5G - Raz - 08-21-2017
(08-21-2017, 12:15 AM)ichigo Wrote: My diet has taken a huge turn due to the sub. Previously my diet would consist of chicken burgers for lunch and pasta with chicken/porn and a sauce.
Quite the lunch
RE: Knowledge is power | MLS 5.5G - "Q" - 08-21-2017
(08-21-2017, 12:15 AM)ichigo Wrote: I did have two beers on Saturday but didn't go too overboard. Had ED on Sunday morning though.Do you go red when you drink any alcohol?
RE: Knowledge is power | MLS 5.5G - ichigo - 08-21-2017
Lol mean to say chicken and pork, but chicken and porn does sound more fun.
I get flushed in the cheeks when I drink, Q.
Something weird happening so far today. I'm in an amazing, excitable mood, and my brain feels like it's operating super quick, but then I keep making silly mistakes where I'm trying to go too fast, but it feels like I should be able to go at that speed without issues.
Thinking about starting a boxing gym has made me feel really hyper. The idea that it is possible. Build it and they will come.