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RE: JG's Alpha Male 6 Journal - Javier Gerardo - 04-23-2016
JG reporting in!
*On Stage 6 of AM 6.0
Every night I'm encountering really vivid dreams that there are days when I wonder if what I have experience was a dream or only a reality.
One of the dreams I remembered is me with a friend and we are in some kind of a video game that we need to escape. We weren't able to succeed in doing so because either him or I ends up dying and I keep on restarting the game. In the end we were able to escape. I did it through my sheer determination on fighting the final boss. It was gruesome and brutal in a way that I killed him by tearing of the skin from his flesh.
I want to note that nowadays whenever I am down or have down something negative like I have watched porn and fapped, I wasn't as depressed as before. I am still affected but I don't end up tearing up and crying and feeling sorry for myself. I just feel like shit and say to myself that I couldn't change what happened anymore. The thing I should do was to go back to the drawing board and try again.
In regards to my career, I have been given multiple job opportunities recently. Though I haven't been successful in getting the job, I believe I am more confident in my job interviews. I am also not trying enough because I still have a bond in my current job until June of this year. If I happen to quit my job, I have to pay a substantial amount, to which I am not willing to do.
JG out!
RE: JG's Alpha Male 6 Journal - CatMan - 04-23-2016
Quitting porn and masturbation have been amazing decisions for me.
I needed subs to help me do it though, I couldn't break my addictions alone.
Overcome Pornography Addiction 4G. Stop Masturbating 4G.
Use both, one at a time. I'd get rid of porn first, it has effects on the brain that take a long time to heal, so it's best to do it first. Then, follow up with ridding yourself of masturbation.
A lot of things in life will change after that. I'm at day 317 of no PMO, and day 147 of nofap. If *I* can do it, anybody can, since I was horribly addicted to both, moreso masturbation.
I wish you the best!
RE: JG's Alpha Male 6 Journal - Javier Gerardo - 04-26-2016
JG reporting in!
*On Stage 6 of AM 6.0
I believe that it is during this last stage of the sub that I am seeing substantial changes. First off even my colleagues have seen that I have changed. It is a bit negative though as one of them frankly said to me that I have become more boastful and rowdy. I am affected by it but something inside me is telling me to shrug it off. In reality, I felt that all this time some of my colleagues especially the women have been using me. I am a gentleman in front of them, the one bringing them their food when we eat outside, doing favours for them and even giving them presents on special occasions. I felt that all this time, I never really needed them as a friend but they needed me a lot. It's like I'm not getting anything in return for the favours that I have been doing for them. I'm sounding selfish really and it's far from the nice guy that I was. My only hope was what I am turning into is for the best.
(04-23-2016, 05:30 AM)CatMan Wrote: Quitting porn and masturbation have been amazing decisions for me.
I needed subs to help me do it though, I couldn't break my addictions alone.
Overcome Pornography Addiction 4G. Stop Masturbating 4G.
Use both, one at a time. I'd get rid of porn first, it has effects on the brain that take a long time to heal, so it's best to do it first. Then, follow up with ridding yourself of masturbation.
A lot of things in life will change after that. I'm at day 317 of no PMO, and day 147 of nofap. If *I* can do it, anybody can, since I was horribly addicted to both, moreso masturbation.
I wish you the best!
Your post is really inspiring. My best streak was almost three months of No Porn and No Fap. I hope I am able to surpass it this time. How long have you used Overcome Pornography Addiction 4G before you finally stopped it and said I won't watch porn ever again? What about with the Stop Masturbating 4G?
I've been looking at them to give both a try after my AM 6.0 journey but also I would also want to go to undergo the Women Magnet 6.0 subliminal set.
Thanks and I wish you all the best as well.
JG out!
RE: JG's Alpha Male 6 Journal - Shannon - 04-27-2016
People don't like it when you stop letting them walk on you and take advantage of you. They will frequently tell you that you're doing or becoming something that is aimed at making you ashamed of yourself and reverting to what you were before, when they were easily able to take advantage of you.
If they're trying to use shame, it's a very good bet they're trying to manipulate, and if they're doing that, it's what's best for them, not you.
In other words... you're making progress. Congrats!
Now when you're finished, run Stage 7 for 6 months and see what you get.
RE: JG's Alpha Male 6 Journal - JackOfHearts - 04-28-2016
(04-26-2016, 05:40 AM)Javier Gerardo Wrote: JG reporting in!You don't seem selfish at all. They were getting free service for nothing in return.
*On Stage 6 of AM 6.0
I believe that it is during this last stage of the sub that I am seeing substantial changes. First off even my colleagues have seen that I have changed. It is a bit negative though as one of them frankly said to me that I have become more boastful and rowdy. I am affected by it but something inside me is telling me to shrug it off. In reality, I felt that all this time some of my colleagues especially the women have been using me. I am a gentleman in front of them, the one bringing them their food when we eat outside, doing favours for them and even giving them presents on special occasions. I felt that all this time, I never really needed them as a friend but they needed me a lot. It's like I'm not getting anything in return for the favours that I have been doing for them. I'm sounding selfish really and it's far from the nice guy that I was. My only hope was what I am turning into is for the best.
Good progress.
@Shannon
I thought you had to run AM6 more than once before using the refresher.
RE: JG's Alpha Male 6 Journal - Javier Gerardo - 05-24-2016
JG reporting in!
*Almost done with Stage 6 of AM 6.0
Whew it's been a ride with the Alpha Male sub. I wish I had made more updates in each of my stage here but all I can do now is at least make a big recap of my experiences with it. I will do so probably within this week.
(04-27-2016, 02:25 PM)Shannon Wrote: People don't like it when you stop letting them walk on you and take advantage of you. They will frequently tell you that you're doing or becoming something that is aimed at making you ashamed of yourself and reverting to what you were before, when they were easily able to take advantage of you.
If they're trying to use shame, it's a very good bet they're trying to manipulate, and if they're doing that, it's what's best for them, not you.
In other words... you're making progress. Congrats!
Now when you're finished, run Stage 7 for 6 months and see what you get.
Thanks Shannon! I've been doing Alpha Male subs since Version 3.0 and I can say that this version has the most profound effect on me.
I never thought I will make it this far. I mean at first I am shocked with the thought of me becoming a man doesn't give a fuck what others think of me. Well I got to say that I am becoming that man. That even if I eat alone or become the center of attention I kind of not give a fuck anymore. I still believe I still have a long way to go but this is big progress.
I'm thinking of running Woman Magnet 2.0 but as I like what I am seeing so far, I will follow your advice and listen to Stage 7 for 6 straight months. What do you think should I expect? Permanent changes?
(04-28-2016, 12:03 AM)Alpha360 Wrote: You don't seem selfish at all. They were getting free service for nothing in return.
Good progress.
@Shannon
I thought you had to run AM6 more than once before using the refresher.
You are right man. Recently, my colleagues ask me out if I'm available to go to a museum with them but as I am a busy man, I told them they should have told me a long time before so I can schedule it. I kind of show them that I am important in a way. Anyhow, I don't really care if they don't include me or not. The good thing is I am doing what I want in life and doing progress in them. They can come along for the ride.
Thanks guys for the support!
JG out!
RE: JG's Alpha Male 6 Journal - Javier Gerardo - 05-28-2016
JG reporting in!
*Finished with Stage 6 of AM 6.0
*Will start Stage 7 (refresher) of AM 6.0 for 6 months.
It's been a ride with the AM 6.0. As I posted before, I have done numerous Alpha Male sub journeys but nothing in my opinion nothing beats the experience I got with this sub. Add the fact that I am not going out as much while I am listening to this sub. Back during the AM 3.0 or AM 4.0 days I was going out to bars and clubs on a weekly basis. Now its Saturday night but I didn't go out and just stayed and chilled at home. Partly the reason why I am already boosted is because me working out for 3 years now already boosted my confidence in some way. I am also more mature and I can say that my test levels have improved. Same as my posture and all that.
Now I notice that I feel more motivated now as compared to before. Under this sub, I have launched my own small on-line retail business. After working at my job, I am still motivated to work on my side business like process orders and the like. It's motivating for me to see I am earning extra money from it. In regards with my work, I can somehow say that I am not anymore that afraid of being left out. Recently, my coworkers went to a trip and I don't give a fuck if I am included or not. I am comfortable on my own skin. I can't say that I am totally comfortable but I can say I am somehow more independent. I don't give as much fuck as what other people think of me and when others don't want me I feel the need to stop caring. I still try to impress others but it has weaken in some way.
The problem I encountered during this sub was I still wasn't finished reading the "How to Become an Alpha Male" book by John Alexander. I have read the book multiple times though and it only serves to remind me what to do when I get to read it. After reading it, I intend to read the book "Models" by Mark Manson because it has helped me a lot in dealing with women when I first read it around 1 1/2 years ago or so.
Regarding my career I am really pushing to work for another company and earn a much higher paying job. Now that I know what I'm worth and pushing myself to achieve it, I believe I have gained confidence to sell myself to companies that offer high levels of compensation. My dream is to still own my own business but I a job in my field will give me training to accomplish that and also provide more financial resources to my current business.
With my relationships, I am currently seeing and dating a girl right now. She is a work colleague from a previous work around 3 years ago. She already has a child from a previous relationship which only happened only 2 years ago. It turns out she liked me back then and me being a pussy, i didn't make any move on her. Now she's regretting that we should have ended up together years ago. I told her we couldn't turn back the hands of time so we just make the best of our situation. I'm still always hoping for the best for our relationship but she seems to be negative on my emotions towards her. She told me she really really loves me but she questions my love for her as she states that one couldn't love someone who already has a child with someone else. I feel she has deep self confidence issues and I'll do my best to help her. Anyway, let's see how this relationship goes as time passes by.
My nofap journey seems to be take a slow progress as I relapsed yet again. However what's good is that I don't get suicidal after every relapse but take on the challenge of having a better record.
For my next step, I will follow what Shannon has said and run the Stage 7 of the AM 6.0 for 6 months and see what happens. I intend to take more risks in life. That is my motto for this year and so far I have taken many risks already but still far from what I intend to do. I want to travel to places I haven't went before and meet new people as well. I want to practice my photography in places that I am going to. Bottom line is I am enjoying life even though there are times when I am down or hurting.
Thanks for reading my journal!
JG out!
RE: JG's Alpha Male 6 Journal - Benjamin - 05-28-2016
Cool, it'll be interesting to see how the refresher goes. I don't remember anyone running it for an extended amount of time and reporting.
This was several runs into AM6 right? There's so many journals it's hard to keep track.
RE: JG's Alpha Male 6 Journal - Javier Gerardo - 09-22-2016
JG reporting in!
*About 3+ months on the Alpha Male 6.0 Stage 7
Wow it has been months since my last journal entry. I have been using the Stage 7 of the sub ever since and I can say that it has been a blast! I know I should have entered and updated more journal entries in the recent three months that past. However, I will do my best to tell everything that happened within that time span in this journal entry.
First off my retailing business that is based online using the social media is doing great. I am a bit optimistic but I can say it is really doing quite good. I've had mishaps but it is only minor. I managed to find new suppliers for new products but in the same lineup. The only downside is that I have to invest more money on it and I used up some of my savings. I sure hope I will be able to sell all of them. I am positive that I can sell most of them by the time Christmas comes.
In relation to it, I am still working at my current job. There's not much improvement here but my job is not that strict and I can easily squeeze other stuff that I can do even while I am at my job. I am also working on a flexi-time basis meaning I could go to work late and even go home early as long as I am able to work for at least 40 hours per week. One thing that happened at my job that affected me was a close colleague of mine had resigned. I had a crush on her before though recently we have became good friends. It's quite sad to see her go but I am happy that she is now able to go on to a path that she wants to be on. Other close colleagues was also affected to the point that we are somehow thinking of resigning as well in the near future and looking for better opportunities. We do know that we first have to have opportunities first before resigning and not jumping immediately and leaving our positions.
Now here where it gets a bit tough. I mentioned before that I was seeing someone who was a colleague from a previous work. It ended only after less than two months. What happened is that around midnight she was calling me. I didn't answer because I went out of my home and meet up with a buyer of a stuff I'm selling online. I didn't told her about it. I intend to call her in the morning or so until I received a text from her to leave her wife or something like that. I thought that the text came from her husband or the father of her child. I remember I asked her before about the father of her child but she didn't want to talk about it that's why I have no idea about it. Then I noticed she's not anymore my friend on Facebook. I tried calling her back when I woke up the morning next day and I got no answer. From then on, I started to move on and thought about the things that I might have done wrong. If she is indeed with the father of her child or husband then I am committing something wrong. Back then I have no choice but to accept it. I didn't get too emotional about the lost which is weird because I remember years ago I posted here about crying and being emotional when my girlfriend back then broke up with me. I think part of me wanted to end it already because she was being too demanding and yeah the doubts regarding her personal life like with the father of her child. She did contact me recently about more than a month after what happened and telling me that she still loves me but didn't say anything about the father. She wanted me to reply but I didn't. Part of me wanted to because I wanted to at least be nice. Then again the father might be seeing her messages so to avoid any fight between her family I tough it up and didn't replied. I asked for advice regarding this from my work colleagues and even my sister and they told me I did the right thing. She did say she understands why I didn't reply.
Moving on from that, I am happy to say that only after sometime probably weeks to a month I managed to meet a new girl. I met her using a chat app and kind of browsing other people who are nearby. I noticed her because aside from being cute she has pictures of being in beautiful places which shows that she likes to travel. We communicated pretty well even during our first conversations using the chat app. When we manage to finally meet personally, I felt there's a connection since we enjoy spending time with each other. It was then that I felt that I want to know her more and would want to take the relationship even further. We went out again and with it we spend the time talking deeply about one another. It was that time that we told each other about our past relationships to all the crazy things we have done especially mine. I discovered that she's only turning 19. She did turned 19 already early this month and me personally I have no issues with it because she's already mature for her age. There are times when she seems to be more mature than me. I am already turning 29 next month. I did ask her if my age was an issue but she told me that it is fine because she prefers older guys. I am filled with joy when she said it especially she reassured it. Because at first I am a bit insecure about it. This is coming from me because I really like her. I asked her back then if I could court her and I remember she just smiled or something like that. It was a really memorable night and from there on, I am falling in love with her already. I drive her to work daily. She works at night so after my work I fetch her up and drive her to work. After about a month, she finally said yes and she wants to be my girlfriend. It was one of the best feelings I've had. She pretty much shocked me with the decision because at first she said we needed to talk. Then she told me that she doesn't want to be friends anymore. I thought it was the end already and I cried. Until she said she wanted to be my girlfriend and said that she loves me. It was really a rollercoaster of emotions on my part. We spend time almost daily because I drive her to work. We support each other in almost everything that we do. She's really a great girl. I can say that words can't describe my love for her and the happiness that she gives me. There are times when I still get insecure and worried that my relationship with her might end and become like the ones I've had before. I get emotional and even cry because the thought of losing her was too much. But as we talk and spend time more I get less of that and try my best to be more secure and feel that this is it. That she's the girl I am looking for and the girl want to spend the rest of my life with. We are just still knowing each other and we have long way to go and I know it is still early to say but I am happy that I can say this even at this time. My friends and family are also happy for me. Me and my girlfriend love each other. I am really happy guys. With this I want to take this moment to thank everyone here for the support. This subliminal surely would have helped me achieved this and so I appreciate it.
Regarding the sub, it still gives me dreams and even nightmares at times. One of the those that I can roughly remember is when I am supposed to guard a relic. I am with other guys and something came up. We need to talk to the demon or the enemy so one of my fellow guards sacrificed himself and we did a ritual to summon the demon on himself so we could talk to the demon. While we are holding our fellow guard and trying to contain him with the demon, it was really demonic and I suddenly work up because the experience was nightmarish. Other than this dream there were also noteworthy but I wasn't able to remember them.
(05-28-2016, 04:54 PM)Benjamin Wrote: Cool, it'll be interesting to see how the refresher goes. I don't remember anyone running it for an extended amount of time and reporting.
This was several runs into AM6 right? There's so many journals it's hard to keep track.
Hey man! This is my first time running the AM6. I was suppose to run it again from the start until Shannon came up and posted I should run the Stage 7 for 6 months and see what I get. I will try my best to update more in the future as I am happy with the results I get. I know that life in general is really a series of ups and downs but running the AM 6.0 on a nightly basis have surely helped me both cope up and reach happiness.
Yeah that's pretty much it. It's pretty long so I thank you guys for reading it. Wishing you all the best as well!
JG out!
RE: JG's Alpha Male 6 Journal - DisneylandUSA - 09-22-2016
(02-21-2016, 06:55 AM)Javier Gerardo Wrote: JG reporting in!
*On Stage 4 of AM 6.0
There were days wherein I am feeling like a blast! However on the other hand I can't seem to handle my fears and I get into depression mode. I still have deep seated fears like fear of being alone, fear of being abandoned, fear of rejection, fear of success and fear of failure. I need to practice switching these emotions off and let my mind be at peace. One thing that works is through deep breathing exercises. I want to be able to achieve my goals and being fearful won't help me achieve them.
Lately, I've been seeing a girl and it's been going good. I want to take the relationship to another level and I hope we get there. She's fun to be around and we have a lot in common. I am happy that the relationship is going well.
My No Fap and No Porn journey is still going strong. I believe I am already close to 60 days. The badge or the no fap counter on the no fap subreddit seems to be have malfunctioned. With the streak, I believe it has helped me to stay on the path of my goal.
I got back into playing and practicing the guitar as well. I started playing it more than 2 years ago but have stopped close to a year ago. I wish I hadn't stopped. The same way with playing the violin. If only I can reserve at least an hour of practicing per day with any musical instrument, I will definitely improve a lot in a span of a year.
I hope all you guys are doing great as well. We all face challenges every single day but I believe we can all get through them. Be strong guys!
Cheers!
JG out!
Sounds like a 'Roller coaster Ride' of Emotions. I can relate to the emotional 'rollercoster Ride' of Emotions; Changing up and down; One moment great and on-top-of-the-World feeling to 'down in the dumps.' Welcome to AM Version 6