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RE: Robstar's journey to alphahood - Geodude - 08-26-2015
Happy birthday Rob.
"May a squadron of beautiful vaginas find their way to your crotch by days end!"
RE: Robstar's journey to alphahood - Benjamin - 08-26-2015
Happy Birthday man, the midget strippers are on their way!
RE: Robstar's journey to alphahood - robstar - 08-26-2015
Haha thanks fellas.
RE: Robstar's journey to alphahood - robstar - 08-26-2015
(08-26-2015, 11:07 AM)LionKing Wrote: Happy birthday!Been averaging 16 I'd say. Lowest 12, some days like 20.How much do you listen per day?
RE: Robstar's journey to alphahood - robstar - 08-27-2015
This run compared to last run feels like night and day. I remember feeling a lot of turbulence, resistance and lack of results in stage 2 of my first run. This time, I'm mainly noticing increased confidence, feeling secure, motivated and masculine. There's small bouts of resistance, but the positivity is dominant whereas last time it was the opposite. I know this might change round stage 3 & 4, but I'm enjoying this while it lasts.
RE: Robstar's journey to alphahood - robstar - 08-27-2015
I'm also averaging almost double the listening time of last run, plus listening mostly through headphones, so that's a major factor I'm guessing.
RE: Robstar's journey to alphahood - robstar - 08-27-2015
Lots of crazy women-based dreams last night. Today I'm noticing I'm feeling tons of sadness and nostalgia for past times in my life, times when I feel like I had more spirit, and enthusiasm for life. For that reason I'm considering running WM next, to get back the playful adventurous spirit I had when I was younger. That said my mind may change, especially since I've got another 3 and a half months to go of AM
RE: Robstar's journey to alphahood - robstar - 08-28-2015
I don't know what to make of this.. I got messaged by a girl I kissed at a party literally like 5 or 6 years ago..
Hey. I don't know if you will even remember me but you came up on my friends I might know page. Anyway I met you years ago at my cousin Sig's birthday and we had a great time that night. You messaged me to catch up a few days later and I kind of never got back to you. I just wanted to say sorry and hope you're doing well.
Shannon
So random!
RE: Robstar's journey to alphahood - robstar - 08-28-2015
I'm guessing she was dating someone when we kissed. Otherwise how would I have made that much of an impression for her to remember me years later yet she didn't wanna meet at the time?
RE: Robstar's journey to alphahood - SargeMaximus - 08-28-2015
She clearly wants to meet you now.
RE: Robstar's journey to alphahood - Geodude - 08-28-2015
(08-28-2015, 01:52 AM)robstar Wrote: I don't know what to make of this.. I got messaged by a girl I kissed at a party literally like 5 or 6 years ago..
Hey. I don't know if you will even remember me but you came up on my friends I might know page. Anyway I met you years ago at my cousin Sig's birthday and we had a great time that night. You messaged me to catch up a few days later and I kind of never got back to you. I just wanted to say sorry and hope you're doing well.
Shannon
So random!
She wants your dick.
She probably saw all those videos of you singing and got so wet that she HAD to msg you.
RE: Robstar's journey to alphahood - robstar - 08-28-2015
Hah, most likely fellas. I'll suss it out.
RE: Robstar's journey to alphahood - robstar - 08-31-2015
Had my fwb over today and wow I haven't been that sexually dominant since SM! Was losing it a bit during my time off subs but it was back with a vengeance today.. I easily took the role of master and she was my dirty little slave girl. Made her cum like 5 times so I'm pretty happy with that
RE: Robstar's journey to alphahood - robstar - 09-18-2015
Starting the infamous stage 3 tonight...
Not sure what to say about stage 2. Something's definitely moving but I'm not sure exactly what. I'm finding myself contemplating my future and the way I wanna live a lot. I'm feeling called to freedom and adventure, and I know that the stable "9-5" life is not for me. I'm currently in Croatia with family, which while nice, has been quite hard, as I've had a yearning to start furthering my life and there's not much I can do here. I'm kind of dependent as well, as I'm staying with family, don't have a lot of money and don't have an international license. My intense desire to be independent has been strong.
I've been cycling between extremely insecure and euphoric and confident, often multiple times a day. Today I went to the beach by myself, and there were 3 cute girls near me, took me about 10 minutes to muster up the courage to ask them to watch my bag while I go in the water lol. Then when I got back, I made some small talk, they were friendly and inviting but I felt awkward and left saying I wanted to get food. Then the next time I walked past them, the cutest one said "Hey" in an inviting way, and all I could think to say was "See ya!". So much self-hatred in that moment.. That being said, this stage of AM last year I doubt I would've even talked to them. The majority of girls I've slept with have been through social circle game, so this is definitely a sticking point. This stage is making me think about where I am, rather than deluding myself into thinking I'm some kind of pimp just because I've had more sexual partners than the average guy!
Finally, the dreams have been insane, dreams about past girls, being confronted by other men, monsters, fears etc. Looking forward to seeing what stage 3 brings, and knowing that even if it's brutal it'll be worth it!