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RE: AM6 - Andarras - 06-04-2015
Hey Ben, I mainly use podcasts as ways to connect with and find people of particular interests. For example, I like Sex Lab with Lara. The most recent one is titled 'How to feel your woman' by a guy named Bryan Reeves. I haven't listened to many so I usually select them based on topics, the people they interview, and my gut instinct
Some topics from the last one are juicy dance of sexuality, feeling your woman, sexual potency and mindful sexuality. The other thing I like is this guy has written for some interesting sounding websites such as Elephant Journal (I like their stuff), Raw Attraction Magazine, Sexy Conscious Awake, Good Men Project.The ones I am going to check out are:
Sex Lab with Lara
Nice Guy Dating - I listened to one today where his ex-girlfriend was sharing her thoughts on an interaction her had with a woman. I like seeing the female perspective. He has one I want to listen to that deals with things like asking for permission with asking, moving too much, penetrating her space (all sound very masculine
The Art of Charm - they have a good one on banter
Expanded Lovemaking
Sex - Tantra and Kama Sutra
Taste of Sex
The Real Man Mindset - they have an interesting podcast on The Art of Erotic Dirty Talk
The Authentic Masculinity - really interesting stuff on this one
The New Man
Today was a cool day. No anger or negativity; I have figured out it is caused by the Qi Gong and energy practices I do. Which in my mind means that I'm clearing the way for the subliminals to do some deep level work
I tried recording my dream last night. I woke up, had some memory of the dream. Grabbed my phone to type and it was gone. All I managed to type was that the dream was about an ice hockey championship. That doesn't even ring a bell. I couldn't remember if I was competing, I think I was though.
I attended my first, but defnitely not last, Qi Gong class. Gained some valuable exercises/practices and some insight. Now that I'm journeying into uncharted territory it's good to know that each week I can pick the instructors brain and get ideas, plus connecting with other people who are on this path is really cool.
Some really bizarre things happened in the class. We did one where you drain the energy from your brain into your heart, then drain it down into your dan tien (abdomen). The idea is by drawing the energy out of hte brain you drop into the body. Then imagine all this energy increasing in heat and energy in the dan tien so it gets really hot. Afterwards I asked him why the heat was centered over my left kidney and he thought that was great. Essentially he said the energy was sent where it was needed which was my left kidney. The kidneys are said to be the sexual centre of hte body. Its said the sexual energy comes from the kidneys. After that exercise I then noticed my ears were burning hot and he said that the kidneys and ears are connected energetically.
We then did healing smile and healing sounds for each organ. The idea being that each organ houses a certain emotion and by sending healing smiling energy and sounds into them you nourish them and remove the negativity. The thing I noticed was when I got my sexual organs the healing energy wasn't as strong so the instructor advised that I should focus more on that area.
I spoke to the instructor about my goal of radiating sexual presence and he said that all of these things will firstly remove the negativity that is blocking the flow and that will ultimately lead to that presence.
There were two cute girls that came together. I spoke to one, great vibe, and I was leaving so I just introduced myself to the other girl. She seemed raptured, like energetically excited to talk to me, and it could be my imagination but when I shook her hand it felt like she held for just a split second longer.
It's too late tonight but tomorrow I need to go through my original practice again to bring up the next level of clearing. Once I become more connected to the two girls at the class I want to ask them how they perceive me at the end of the class, just to get an idea if they have an energetic sense of me.
RE: AM6 - Andarras - 06-06-2015
Nothing too exciting to report today. I did my energy practices so will be interesting to see if I have any adverse reaction tomorrow. I haven't today. I'm thinking that if I don't then the Qi Gong stuff I learnt at the class on Thursday may have helped with that. I actualy want to get angry because it's a clear and visceral sign that the work is having an impact.
Before I started on the subs I'd been doing a few weeks of other practices and one girl noticed the change. She admitted she used to be uncomfortable around me and that it was a huge change. She's going to something I'll be at in the next day or two so it'll be interesting to see how she responds to me.
I scavenged through scribd's documents and found some interesting ones to read. I'm going to do the energy practices again today, and add in the special set of kidney-related ones. I need to transcribe those as they're aprt of an hour long video. Doing the practices probably takes 20-30 minutes tops. Also need to do the Healing Sounds and Inner Smile today, that I did during the class.
Something really interesting I'm noticing is that when I stretch I feel more alive. Normally I stretch to unwind tight muscles, but I'm noticing that I have an energetic or maybe a more ehannced feeling. It's really cool.
I'm also noticing that more and more sources are leading me towards viscerally imagining sexual situations with girls to strengthen and exude my sexual presence.
Another thing I did was I started looking through the daily deals we have here. Not sure if this is a worldwide thing but some websites offer companies a way to promote deals. Sometimes 60-90% off as a way to promote themselves. Paid $30 for an hour-long accupuncture one which I am going to take up in the next week or so. And there area bunch of massage ones, but I'm more interested in keeping an eye out for a Reiki one. There's also some really cool course ones for cheap.
I also had a freaky as hell dream last night. Even when I woke up I could only remember fragments. I think it was a girl I liked and she lived in a small suburb next to where I grew up. I seem to recall being on the train with a bunch of people going to my home town and I got off at her station. I think I asked her out but she said no. She was lying in bed when I asked. As I went to walk out I think I heard her crying. Her friend came out of the room (she wasn't there originally) and I scared her. She said that some guy had ended things (I guess she had a partner and he broke up with her). Her dad came home and was swearing about the guy getting on train (maybe he followed the boyfriend?). As you can tell I'm not exactly sure what happened, it was like I had pieces but not the whole thing.
The crazy part is that it was the town next to where I lived (which is about an hour from where I am now) and I was on my way back to where I used to live except I haven't lived with my parents for about 4 years and had no reason to be going back there. The other weird thing is the online girl lived in the suburb that this girl lived in. Maybe my brain was processing the online girl situation...
RE: AM6 - Andarras - 06-06-2015
Forgot to add, I also want to start trying out Natural Grounding again. For those who don't know it's said that by watching (with no expectations) videos of Eastern performers the polarity causes you to become more masculine. The idea being that true feminine spirit will cause a man to become more masculine which is pretty common. They say that Western media (singers, performers, etc) are all sexualised - sexualised dance moves, lyrics, outfits etc) whereas some Eastern performers actually seem to glow with a genuine feminine.
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RE: AM6 - Benjamin - 06-06-2015
Yeah Natural grounding goes against what AM6 is working on so it would just conflict, Shannon has talked about this a few times.
RE: AM6 - Andarras - 06-07-2015
Thanks guys, I'll leave the natural grounding then. I've found something even more exciting anyway. I'm really getting into bodywork. Got a sexual feldenkrais audio program yesterday. Did the first part - sexual presence - last night. It's just simple small movements that make you aware of all the parts of the body that are involved. I noticed I started becoming more in tune with my energy, especially the next day. Woke up and tapped my kidneys plus a spinal flow. Suddenly the energey sensations were so much more intense than normal. The idea of feldenkrais and other bodywork techniques is they unlock the body which in turns increases the access to energy and sensations.
I noticed when I was on the bus and I noticed this really attractive woman. Instantly I felt connected to my desire for her in my body. Was so good.
I found some really interesting sounding books today on bodywork practices. One apparently helps to unlock the negative emotions in the body. Got lots to read and practice tomorrow.
I did my energy practices yesterday and today. Didn't notice any anger arise, although I think a minor amount came up tonight. That's great, it means that the blockages are maybe smaller now.
Still getting about 19-20 hours a day on the subs. Noticing what appears to be much more centredness and a bit more leadership. I was going to social drinks today and someone asked where we should meet. I wrote back and said where I was going to be. Then later when the group couldn't decide where to go afterwards I made a suggestion and that's where we ended up going.
There was a really cool girl in the group. We had an in.
At one point we were talking about fifty shades of grey. She asked if I was into that sort of thing. I then asked where her limit was. She thought about it for a second and then said it was a bit personal. Funny though, previously I would be really humiliated and would feel majorly awkward. But this time I was feeling a minor bit of discomfort for a second, but then I was cool.
I had a really interesting experience with another girl. The girl in our group convinced two random girls to join us. I didn't chat with them too much, but one I was talking to her and she was looking left and right. Made me really uncomfortable so I wandered off. It wasn't like she was looking away from me as though she didn't want to talk with me. I did feel a bit of disconnect from her. It was like her body was angled away from me, but not a lot. It was like at one moment she couldn't lock eyes with me. Her eyes literally darted left and right. Maybe my sexual presence was active and I wasn't even aware of it...
The girl from the group, when she left she looked like she wasn't going to hug anyone. She kind of waved at us but I put my arms out and she came up, grinned and gave me a hug. Then said she loves hugs and insisted on getting one from everyone. I'm pretty sure if I hadn't offered she would have left hugless
It's pretty crazy how much I feel my body now that I've started on body work. I think I mentioned this before. Even just sitting here curving my upper body left and right is sending pleasurable sensations through my back and spine.
RE: AM6 - Benjamin - 06-07-2015
Ooh what is the feldenkrais prorgram called? I've done some in the past and it helped me feel alot looser but I didn't know there was a specific sexual version.
I've started doing Male Sexual Qigong anyway and plan to see how that goes.
RE: AM6 - Andarras - 06-09-2015
Hey Ben, it's at https://www.achievingexcellence.com/Sex-The-Feldenkrais-Way-For-Men-and-Women.html - pretty good although I think it caused me neck pain, probably from my body not being used to being in new movements, or I strained my neck too hard in one of the exercises. It was really tight yesterday and almost fixed today.
Each morning I sit up in bed and do kidney tapping and warm my kidneys, plus a spinal flow. So much more feeling when i do that kind of thing now.
It's funny, I actually forgot about all this. I put the sub on last night and spent most of the day in my room so left it on. Figured I should turn it off for a couple of hours before I go to bed.
Spent today hunting through the net looking for apps to try and track my life. I want to start quantifying things in my life. Some of the really advanced stuff can even take two metrics and compare them together. Or just show them in charts under each other. Say for instance someone tracks their coffee intake and sleep amount/quality. They might notice if they drink a coffee before bed, then their sleep for that night might be less. Some apps will automate stuff on your phone as well. I had one a while ago that uses gps to track where you move to and you can tag certain places such as your workplace and it will count how long you've been there.
I want to start working on habits. I never eat vegetables so I've bought a kilo bag of frozen veggies and a bottle of coleslaw dressing. Aim to have some veggies with sauce at least 4 nights a week for a month. That way I can track digestion, as sometimes I get bad digestion issues.
Another website texts me at 10 am in the morning to so I can update to say I've taken a multivitam, or take it if I've forgotten.
The girl I was supposed to see yesterday never texted me, although I know in my gut it wouldn't have worked out as she has too much on her plate. She apologised today and asked what day I was free during the week. I only really had one day so said if she wasn't free I could catch her at the social drinks that are coming up.
Tomorrow starts the final week of Stage 1. Then on to stage 2!
I also had a dream that I think was freaky a couple of days ago. I was walking a little fluffy dog down a river promenade but from what I can gather the dog was walking me. I had it on a leash but I was walking really fast as though I wasn't in control the dog was. This dog was tiny. I'm getting out of peoples way and trying to dodge people. Then at one point I had no choice and I let the leash go and leapt over something then ran after the dog to grab the leash. At some point another dog sniffed my dogs butt (well I think it beloned to someone and I was looking after it for them). My dog suddenly squeezed into itself so it was a tiny little ball of fluff and had a disgusted look its face haha. It took me forever to fall asleep afterwards.
RE: AM6 - Benjamin - 06-09-2015
Cool thanks, i'll hve a look. I noticed that in the past doing feldenkrais that initially my back or whatever may be sorer or hurt during a session but then after a few sessions it would loosen up alot. It may be the same with the neck.
What is the kidney tapping and spinal flow designed to do?
RE: AM6 - Andarras - 06-12-2015
Ben, the kidney tapping is supposed to activate the kidneys which are said to be one of the major organs in Eastern belief. They are where our energy is produced. Spinal flow I think is used to stretch the spine and the tissue around the spine. It feels amazing haha.
Been a while since I've posted an update. Not noticing anything crazy different. I think because I initially wanted to do the Women Magnet program I'm looking for the results I would expect from that. I get a smile here and there. Definitely more internal strength though. I was interested in this girl and she kind of dragged me along a bit. She forgot once or twice probably because she has a shitload on her plate. On the day I would normally message the girl to confirm we were still meeting but because I had already asked her when she was available I didn't.
I'm really getting into my bodywork practices. I purchased a Power of the Pelvis Feldenkrais program from the same place I got the sex one. My bodywork stuff has a couple of main focuses. One is to improve posture, two is to improve energy and physical access to the body, third is for health, and fourth is the expected result of these which primarily at this stage is women. When the pelvis is locked the entire body is put out of alignment. I used to do a program that was sort of based on some of these and I could notice instantly that my hips had opened.
I'm doing Feldenkrais the sex one. About to start the pelvis one tonight/tomorrow. And I'm slowly reading a book on Alexander Technique. I get the feeling that Feldenkrais is more focused on cultivating awareness of the minute details of movement and opening to the sensations whereas Alexander Technique is more about changing small things to adapt posture. For instance the basic move is to lift the head a couple of millimetres which automatically lifts the top of the spine upwards as well.
I was pretty excited the other day. My Qi Gong classes are on Thursday nights, moving to Wednesday from next month. There's also a Feldenkrais class on Thursday nights, and another one on Sunday. I'm going to check out the Sunday one and then next month try and get to the Thursday one.
Oh, and a weird thing has happened recently. I'm suddenly craving vegetables. I rarely eat vegetables. I might buy a kilo of carrots and munch on them over the week but that's the extent. I found this cool points type website, HealthMonth where you pick certain rules and you lose life points if you fail on any given day. It's pretty cool, but literally at work I'll be thinking about my vegetables that I'm going to eat tonight. I'm quite skinny though so I need more calories than vegetables can offer, and I'm also trying to scrimp. So I have a dollop of coleslaw dressing mixed with half a tablespoon of macadamia oil. Plus either a second dinner of simple sandwiches or a tuna and mayo mix. I've got this calorie counter that scans barcodes and estimates how many grams per day/week I will gain/lose based on how many calories I've eaten.
I think it's the Qi Gong. You do a lot of internal focusing, and paying attention to the bodies organs.
RE: AM6 - Andarras - 06-12-2015
Wow, I just did 2 of the 4 pelvic practices. I'm definitely going to be aching tomorrow with all this spinal work haha.
It's kind of strange. Part of me wants to slouch but my spine is holding me in way better posture. It's like I'll drop forwards then suddenly almost instinctively pull myself back. Even when I sat on the end of my bed I was much more straight-backed than normal. Sitting in front of my laptop on the bed though, and now my back has curved.
RE: AM6 - eternity - 06-12-2015
dude i'm sorry i'm chiming in so late; but one piece of advice i have for you is to release expectations from what you are going to get out of the sub. the more you're focused on what it's going to do to/for you, the less of a chance you're actually giving the sub to work its magic. I know it may sound weird, but it took me 5 months of running AM6 to figure out that I was getting in my own way and that "set it and forget it" really means set it and forget it. And it's even weirder that we are encouraged to post our results here but forget that the sub is playing in the background.
I totally relate to the excitement of just starting AM6. I had the intention of doing SM3 the whole time, but AM6 has a hell of a lot of juice in it.. I'm starting to value AM6 far more than I valued (prospectively) SM3, and I think you will be happy with the internal results you get from AM6. Just don't expect them
RE: AM6 - Andarras - 06-13-2015
Thanks Eternitys_child, yeah I do tend to set and forget, but I am also paying attention to what's going on around me. I think journaling makes sense actually, because otherwise at the end of the six months you may not be aware of how much has changed.
I'm curious though. Will later stages of AM help transform negative/limiting beliefs and thoughts? I'm noticing now that I'm getting way, way more attention from women after doing posture work that I'm not able to follow through. It's like my mind relates the attention to posture, rather than 'me'. I figure eventually once my mind accepts that this 'new' posture is now standard that the attention will be related to me.
The attention I'm getting is now making it crystal clear to me that I don't really have any excuse. It's making it blindingly obvious when I don't approach that cute girl for example that I'm holding myself back. Is part of that covered through AM or WM?
I didn't realise until last night how much my posture has changed. It was when I was walking towards the bar that i realised I couldn't see my feet lol. I would always have a slight downward view that saw my feet. Now I can't see them haha.
I need to start getting back into NLP and Emotional Release. I dropped the ball on that one but now that i"m getting the attention it helps show me more clearly where I'm limiting myself.
The attention I got last night was insane. One girl who I haven't seen in a year was all giggles. Guys I knew were constantly getting my attention. One guy who I've met once before was talking forever, whereas last time he wasn't as talkative.
A guy I've known for a while was standing so damn close when he was talking. I was a little uncomfortable, but normally I'd be super uncomfortable unable to hold eye contact. Not any more.
One girl was there with her husband. When I tried to shake her hand twice she didn't shake it (she was foreign and I think she misunderstood) but then later the host introduced us and she literally lunged at me for a hug. Then later she's talking to me, runs her hand down the side of my body to my hip then has her hand on my ass. Did that sort of thing a few times.
A procession of girls walked past me on the dance floor. The one in the front practically straddles my leg for a second and dances (she didn't make eye contact with me though). Some random girl kind of waved at me at some point.
At about 8pm, so not too late in the night, I'm walking towards the toilets. There's space for say 1.5 people so generally guys turn their shoulders to make space. Some guy walks sideways, goes 'woah' and raises both his hands in the air. I've never had that reaction so not sure if he was being stupid or was intimidated by my presence?
Seemed like lots of girls made eye contact with me. Another girl I know, I caught her looking at me a couple of times.
When I was at the bar earlier in the night, there was like half a body space between me and this girl. One of her girlfriends slides sidways into the spot. Normally I'd shift but stayed where I was. The thing is her underarm was brushing my arm (pretty sure armpit is an erogenous zone haha.
Oh and there was this big, bigger girl. She came up to me and she looked lost. I then realized she was starting to hyperventilate. Turns out she's really shy and was freaking out because we were in a jam-packed club. So she fled to find a seat. Later she walks past me with her workmate and says she's leaving. She then grabs my hand and presses it against the skin of her upper chest for me to feel the cold sweat she's broken into lol.
Crazy night lol. Oh and I noticed an increased dominance/assertiveness. The staff needed our people to clear some space so they could remove furniture. So I start splitting the crowd. One of the girls followed my order and asked what we were doing lol. And my mate that was supposed to come out, I was chatting to him about how people seemed to look to me for leadership at the last social drinks when the organizer disappeared. He said when direction is needed he always looks to me lol.
RE: AM6 - Andarras - 06-14-2015
Man, Feldenkrais is awesome! I found a class that runs on Sunday afternoons. I got there about 30 minutes early and the lady was happy to just hang around and chat. The class was great, lots of new movements and she said she would see how i performed during the class as I've only done my Feldenkrais through audio programs. She was also impressed by how much I changed after only about 2 hours of sessions over 3 days. And I had an eye-opening experience. At the end when we were in the relaxation mode I suddenly sense that my right shoulder was higher than my left. When I focused on it something gave way and it sank down the floor. So I lifted it and let it drop and it went back to the raised position. Then I remembered that I have a winged scapula (shoulder blade) on the right and she said she would do something different next Sunday to help me with that.
I probably need to focus on shoulder work for my posture next, now that i've got the general spinal and pelvis part sorted, or at least working on it.