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RE: New Journal - AM6 This Round - forbes - 05-07-2015
whats up guys, another quick update stage 3 day 30
im noticing i wanna start arguments more, im getting heated at times. Im sure im just bringing that part of myself that I kept it for too long and ill dial it down soon
i gotta start meditating regularly again and get better emotional control. Ive of course learned its ok to feel emotions, only anger, but theyre not things you should keep in your heart. let go of the anger as quickly as it comes
im black and im dealing with my anger towards cops lately. this unlawful killing of my people is getting ridiculous. not just black people, but the way they attack all races is ridiculous
im moving out the country asap, working on getting my forex trading down and going from there
im averaging about 11-12 hours a day on the subs, gonna hit about 380 hrs this stage, working on getting it closer to 450. im loving the stream cause i can play it louder without noticing it
im also a bit more impatient lately. even when waiting on things at the store. the way it breaks down is whatever i gotta do (order, decide, move something, etc) i dont think about it, so im essentially done with it as i think to do it, then im waiting on the other party. Again im gonna meditate to work on that, but on the bright side im developing the sense to not have my time wasted
i feel heavier, not weight, but presence. When I speak i feel my words more, i feel emotions more, when i move i own the space im moving to more, when I dance i care less than ever. Tyler from RSD talked about that in terms of getting more solid, like once you get good with women theres only so much more to learn. He spoke about game becoming like wood or steel, I guess its really owning everything more
Naturals always say congruence is the most important thing. I agree cause women have a 6th sense for fakery. And as someone who grew up bad with women and I now have some game, i realize the hardness metaphor. Its essentially being more congruent wiwht the behaviors and the subcommunications of a high value sex worthy man
similarly am6 is helping me (probably through naturalizer) become more congruent with myself and to doubt myself less
gotta go get some shit done, later guys
RE: New Journal - AM6 This Round - forbes - 05-08-2015
day 31 stage 3
its funny how i didnt notice a lot of changes with stage 3 until i got above 300 hours in, it makes sense for differences to be more pronounced with more xposure though
im feeling a fire now to get all areas of my life together. most of my life i worked on 1 or 2 at a time to my detriment, i gotta get bette with time management so i can become better
still getting very impatient and frustrated. still trya figure out if thats completely good, and strike my balnce between, in book terms "The Power of Now" vs "48 Laws of Power". i know a lot of the stages smooth out edges from previous ones
i feel more intense than ever now. i dance when i drive all the time, its how i enjoy my way to where im going. now i care even less about people staring (they stare a lot, i go HAM lol), and i move more intensely
im getting more and more comfotable with the grey area between my Gentleman and my Wolf. I had the thought today "where in the spectrum should i fall, i exhibit contrasting behavior all the time"
i realized why does it matter exactly what i choose to be, just BE! Different circumstances call for different parts of my personality, its a range, and i should free myself to act through any version of me through the spectrum of my personality
also meditated today for the first time in a while. I wanna work on my presence so I know to trust my heart in situations. I'd always have initial reactions, then overthink things logically, then be confused as to what i should choose
i know now the first is usually whats in my heart, but can also differ based on situations. Thissounds weird, but I know ive gotten smarter. i think cause of the subs im able to move out of my head easier and evaluate things from different angles more
i have big breakthroughs on my own development pretty much every week now. Just becoming the best version of myself
Thats all for now guys, my birthday is next week May 13th, turning 27. The person im becoming is definitely the best gift i couldve gotten myself. gonna head to a hotel on the beach tomorrow with the fam for mothers day
im gonna holla at some chicks cause i should. Just had the thought, now im committing to it personally and declaring it here. Hold me to it guys, ill come back with either stories of failure or success, either way writing the story is the part im gonna enjoy
Peace Beasts Keep Killing Shit!
RE: New Journal - AM6 This Round - forbes - 05-08-2015
(05-06-2015, 07:45 AM)QuantumEnthusiast Wrote: Holy ****. Thanks for that RSD motivation video man. It made me slightly teary eyed so I'm certain it released and cleared some sort of resistance in me, as well as affirm something. Beautiful video. It's about enjoying it as it comes as you go in the direction of what you want instead of being attached to the labels and ideas of how it should be. Just being free, independent, present, and enjoying life.
Yeah man, I'm excited for RSD and Tyler. The transformation of him and the company over the years is amazing. Mechanical PUA to a natural guy who enjoys and loves women that wants to genuinely help others overcome their limits not just in regards of women but also in life itself. Love it.
Hahaha you've watched Elliott Hulse too? Man I'm so damn grateful for these two people, Elliott and Tyler. Helped me immensely, I can't verbalize how grateful I am for them.
I understand everything you're talking about and resonate with it. I just haven't referred to as God because of all the dogma people attach to the word. You can call it God, Universe, Divine or Consciousness, or whatever you want, but yes, like you said, we are all here as extensions or manifestations of it to have an experience of life and explore. Life truly is amazing once you stop being attached things because nothing is constant in life except change. Dance the dance of life bro, good luck!
whats up quant, glad you liked it man. Watch em all, im responsible for half those views lol. Yea bro, life isnt black and white, learn to dance in the grey zone. We crave uncertainty as humans, but we crave certainty as well (tony robbins on 6 human needs), gain that certainty in yourself. Become more grounded, then enjoy the uncertainty of the world
rsd is the best man. I agree on the change. i came from a heavily religious background, i didnt lose my virginity till like 23. I had opps before, but so much blockage from how i was raised. I literally had the hottest chick on this cruise i was on grab my dick in the hallway and start making out with me. My though was i shouldnt take advantage of a drunk chick. Now post rsd, i just know women love sex more than men, i thank them every day. Make sure to look for a free tour locally
Im all over elliot hulse's stuff too, he has a blog elliothulse.com with great blog posts as well. I also recommend eric thomas and les brown for motivation. For pickup i recommend cory skyy and jason capital, also david x is the f-ing man
I know what you mean on dogma, just had this convo and 3 different pov's with me, my mom, and sister. at the end of the day, everyone believe what you choose, youre living your life not anyone elses.
one of my favorite quotes:
"Everyone is taking their own path up a mountain, no one path is wrong. The only person wrong is the one running around telling everyone else their path is wrong"
my bad for talking about religion, honestly though I consider it spirituality and since I am a spirit, its gonna inevitably come up time and time again in my journal.
No offense to shannon or the guy who posted the warning (thanks actually), but if anyone really has a problem with what were talking about in MY JOURNAL about religion or anything else, please kindly fuck off and keep your opinion to yourself. I'm me and im gonna keep this shit real as fuck. The amount of embarassing shit ive said till this point lmao
if my journal gets deleted look out for the blog coming soon
gotta go guys, just had to reply here. Have a bomb ass weekend guys
RE: New Journal - AM6 This Round - Benjamin - 05-09-2015
Quote:No offense to shannon or the guy who posted the warning (thanks actually), but if anyone really has a problem with what were talking about in MY JOURNAL about religion or anything else, please kindly **** off and keep your opinion to yourself. I'm me and im gonna keep this shit real as ****. The amount of embarassing shit ive said till this point lmao
if my journal gets deleted look out for the blog coming soon
No actually.. it might be your journal but it is not your forum and it's my job here to keep up the rules.. so it's not simply my opinion.. my opinion doesn't count into this. In fact in any other situation i'd happily have the very discussion about what you're talking about..
But that attitude isn't going to help here.. nor is telling me to fuck off so cut the attitude and show the same respect i've shown you.
RE: New Journal - AM6 This Round - forbes - 05-13-2015
This post is just gonna be an apology. I apologize Benjamin, I more meant the "f off" to people who'd be offended by religious stuff. My bad, understanding you being somebody upholding the rules here, of course it wuldnt be okay to say that
youre right its not my forum, I'll save my more religious stuff for my own blog, I'll keep my posts of God or so for the future. Rules are rules for a reason.
Oddlly enough, I feel like stage 3 made me asshole, like a really sharp sword. Stage 4 seems to be evening me out.
RE: New Journal - AM6 This Round - forbes - 05-13-2015
Alright today is May 13th, turned 27 today.
i finished stage 3 midday on the 10th, this is my stage 4 day 3 entry
as far as end of tage 3, i see some road rage rearing again. I gotta learn to let go. Even today (13th) some woman didnt stop to turn at a red light almost hit her car as she was swerving like a dumbass through lanes
surprisingly that came out more pg 13 than i was originally gonna post about her in my head, but I'm tryna release the hate towards here. I mean i almost crashed into this woman on my birthday and spilled my food
but looking back on it now, it was such a waste of energy to let anyone fill my heart with malice like that. Oh well, stage 4 definitely helping me find some balance.
stage 3 was definitely a sharpening, losing more of my ego andjust being free in myself. RSD material is gold for this, i hope its ok im posting links, but these ones really helped me consciously process a lot of things on become an alpha male
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PMnOZ9XRxZY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-27aYpgJoIM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HAoqvXUG7WQ
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G1LQs7NbTOs
and if you want one on female psychology this one will blow your mind:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0UCnCkR-pk4
the first one are just on freedom and accepting yourself, awesome material. last one is on how women become attracted and how to tell the difference in the two types, and how to play it
also forex wise, ran into some problems. the group i was in made some bad calls, still my fault for anything.
i had an interview today, went well. I should get a call back today or tomorrow, the guy really liked me. im gonna keep doing forex on the side and build my account for a couple months. Before I'd risk too much or be greedy tryna make more on a trade cause i was trading to make sure i could pay bills. When i lost, i lost big
now im gonna build my account safely, and a bit slower, then make sure what i can safely withdraw weekly while still growing my account is something i can live well on. I dunno if ive mentioned it before, but im wrking on leaving the country
im black and theyre killing us out here. even in illinois theyre banning black people's concealed weapons permits even if theyre fully qualified with no criminal background, its a huge lawsuit against it now
if you havent noticed, obama also nationalized the police force. were turning into a police state, im not sticking around for the shit to get worse. I suggest everyone do the same
Again today's my 27th birthday, learned a lot, im more serious about life than ever now. I'm gonna chill and grind for a minute and dip. It one of my homegirl's birthdays too so im heading out with her and some other friends this weekend
its been a while since ive been out, im gonna go sober. I dont wanna drink and develop my personality around that state of mind. Im still tryna work on my success with women, so i dont want liquor slowing me down. ive never been able to, i always wanted liquid courage, but i think AM6 makes for a better substitue
ive also started a 90 day reset, no porn, I used to be bad with that shit. like 20 videos open and purely for quick stimulation, thinking back that shit was dark
only 4 days in but i feel better already.
im thinking what to right, but ive got nothing. Im at peace right now with my life, right where I am. Most of all i learned to be thankful for what i didnt like about myself, because it helped me want to develop. Bt i also must let go of the not liking, and most of all be thankful for the growth and focus forward
i have self worth issues at times, still working on it. But today, at the milestone that is 27, even though with some financial setback and losing thousands, even being single, and without a job. (I smiled when i said that). I know I have the power to still make all my bills, make more than ever with forex, and get all the girls i want. On the way down, I learned the tricks to go up. More like I remembered the tricks up a,d learned how to avoid the trips back down
ima spend a little time alone today. i like reflecting on birthdays as milestones. im really liking stage 4, its soothing
Later guys
RE: New Journal - AM6 This Round - eternity - 05-13-2015
happy birthday bro
RE: New Journal - AM6 This Round - Benjamin - 05-13-2015
Quote:This post is just gonna be an apology. I apologize Benjamin, I more meant the "f off" to people who'd be offended by religious stuff. My bad, understanding you being somebody upholding the rules here, of course it wuldnt be okay to say that
youre right its not my forum, I'll save my more religious stuff for my own blog, I'll keep my posts of God or so for the future. Rules are rules for a reason.
Oddlly enough, I feel like stage 3 made me asshole, like a really sharp sword. Stage 4 seems to be evening me out.
Thanks man, that's cool.
Happy Birthday.. hope you encounter some nice girls today
RE: New Journal - AM6 This Round - Darkness - 05-13-2015
(05-13-2015, 04:16 PM)Benjamin Wrote:Happy birthday , manQuote:This post is just gonna be an apology. I apologize Benjamin, I more meant the "f off" to people who'd be offended by religious stuff. My bad, understanding you being somebody upholding the rules here, of course it wuldnt be okay to say that
youre right its not my forum, I'll save my more religious stuff for my own blog, I'll keep my posts of God or so for the future. Rules are rules for a reason.
Oddlly enough, I feel like stage 3 made me asshole, like a really sharp sword. Stage 4 seems to be evening me out.
Thanks man, that's cool.
Happy Birthday.. hope you encounter some nice girls today
RE: New Journal - AM6 This Round - QuantumEnthusiast - 05-14-2015
Happy b'day bro. Keep killing it. Thanks for sharing those RSD videos.
RE: New Journal - AM6 This Round - forbes - 05-15-2015
Thanks everyone for the birthday wishes
i didnt approach anyone at the hotel. A lotta cuties, but a lotta chicks i wasnt sure of on age, and a lot with boyfriends, still an excuse, i shoudlve found out instead of specualting
im consciously processing my social anxieties better now, im going out tomorrow night with some friends, gonna meet chicks sober. im confident ill be fine, just gotta give myself permission, bust through a couple approaches, and build social momentum
today's day 5, heading into the weekend feeling great. i start a new job monday, should be pretty easy. ill trade on the side and build savings while paying off debt
im glad you guys are liking the videos. i see these guys killing it and it inspires me, i gotta break through my unbased fears
its hilarious that i still have approach anxiety from time to time. statistially i think i get good reactions from chicks more times than not. gotta focus on the good, im going sober so i can build my social personality around that state of being instead of using alcohol as a crutch, im building that core confidence
im gonna start cory skyy's affirmations again, it lines up with what AM6 sets out to accomplish, so I believe itll be fine. ill figure it out as i go
despite the losses trading ive learned strategies to win now, and aprtnering with two friends were gonna begin tracking our wins, then selling memberships to a facebook group. We wanna build it to 300+ people, $10,000 a month for each of us . So I'll make back the money in time, gotta focus on refining our strategies because ethics wise I want to help people and deliver results
27, life is good. I wish you guys the best, again thanks for the hbd's I appreciate the love. Be safe this weekend guys and do something that scares you
"On the other side of fear is the peron you most want to be"
Peace