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RE: UMS v3.1 - Which Is to Be the Master - ReconGunner - 08-20-2025
Stage 4
Cycle 1 of 4
Given that each cycle is 7 days, 4 cycles is "as close to one month as possible".
First cycle has seen some interesting internal effects.
The first two days I my blood sugar dropped dangerously low overnight, within a hour after the loop completed. The next night I had an old type of dream come back; the one where I was trying to pack everything up for travel. The context of this one was completely different, though. And my adult son was in the dream this time. Then, last night, the final day off of this cycle, my blood sugar dropped again.
The blood sugar looks like subconscious resistance to me. The dream is likely related to what I mentioned previously in this journal: "The cost of your new life is your old one. Stop negotiating." That's what that recurring dream has always meant, I believe - that I've been subconsciously "negotiating" what to carry forward, trying not to leave anything behind. Which is interesting, because I have consciously wanted to move forward and leave some things in the past, even before that first run of EHPRA.
Externally, I had registered for certification training offered by my employer. That training took place last week, and I completed it and then tried a practice exam. Without any additional study, I scored 77%; passing grade for the certification is 80%. So with some additional study I will easily pass and get the certification.
Interesting note here is that the instructor for the live class was very good, one of the best I've ever had. And he was very optimistic about the career prospects for the students in the class. My initial reaction, which I kept to myself, was a resigned skepticism. On reflection, though, as this cycle of stage 4 continued through the weekend, I changed my outlook. There is no reason why I cannot achieve the kind of career outcomes he was talking about. My reasons for skepticism are all based on past experiences; achieving UMS will happen through different experiences.
If a 4 year college degree is supposed to be a positive life changer in terms of professional and financial outcomes*, how much more spending less than half that length of time with UMS v3.1? I'm not worried about how long it will take; not anymore. I have the tools - all 4 stages of UMS v3.1 - and I have a plan - run UMS v3.1 up to four times in a row with a month break in between each run. And that plan is flexible to respond to changing conditions.
*Far less so than it used to be, these days.
RE: UMS v3.1 - Which Is to Be the Master - ReconGunner - 08-27-2025
Stage 4
Cycle 2 of 4
Less noticeable activity. Internally, almost none at all. Slowly getting back to my regular workout schedule; because of moving I had dropped to nothing for a few weeks and very little for several weeks before that. So I'm detrained and coming back, physically and motivationally. I need to buckle down and get the certification I took the class for.
Externally, the proceeds from selling the old house have been very useful. I replaced some old gear, added a few items to my home gym, and got some car repairs done. Based on a comment from Shannon in another journal about UMS having a mild "celebrity effect", I've become alert for any signs of such. The closest I can recognize is that my wife has been a bit more attentive. We currently have out-of-state visitors staying with us; that may be an additional, external motivator for her.
I've also been a bit more active on these forums; feeling more confident that I can make good contributions to the conversation.
UMS is coming. Gradually, then suddenly. Still in the "gradually" stage. I'll get there. And I'll stay there; it will be persistent.
RE: UMS v3.1 - Which Is to Be the Master - ReconGunner - 08-27-2025
Supplemental
There's some internal shifting going on. I feel a generalized anxiety - not an anxiety attack, and not any kind of dread. Just strong anticipation with no conscious focus. Priorities seem to be changing, small and subtle at the moment. Somehow it makes sense that things would start to be more noticeable halfway through Stage 4.
RE: UMS v3.1 - Which Is to Be the Master - ReconGunner - 08-31-2025
Supplemental
I have a very strong dream last night that has left me unsettled all day. In the dream, my wife was either in the process of leaving me, and having an affair, or had already left me and either found someone else or was continuing with an affair from before she left; I don't recall those specifics. What has stuck with me is that in the dream she was making as much money as I was and that was the key factor in her leaving, finding someone else, etc.
Some deep fears exposed there. First, of only being valued and respected because of my income. That's a definite fear: "if I achieve UMS then there will be no financial barriers to her leaving, taking half my resources, etc." Consciously, while that is not a desired outcome, I have to be willing to accept even that. Even while achieving UMS, I have to honor other people's choices for their lives, even if their choices impact me negatively.
And the opposite fear. "If I do not achieve UMS, I will continue to not be respected by others; I will remain powerless and helpless, unable to even take care of myself." As I've mentioned before, one of the ways I define UMS is "having enough to be able to fix any problem that can be fixed with money; everyone has problems that cannot be fixed by money." I realize now that the deeper motive there is powerlessness and helplessness in the face of those things that can be solved by money, and a lack of respect from people who sense that powerlessness in me and do not respect me because I am helpless.
Granted, UMS will not automatically cause others to honestly respect me. But that powerlessness that causes some to withhold respect or even actively show disrespect will no longer be a factor.
And yes; when I am satisfied with the results from UMS I am definitely planning on AM7. With AM7, I will either not be worried about respect from others, or I will be respected because of who I become. Probably some of both.
Until then, the quest for UMS continues.
RE: UMS v3.1 - Which Is to Be the Master - ReconGunner - 09-02-2025
Supplemental
If things are happening, might as well journal them.
Completely different kind of dream last night. Something brand new. I dreamed that I was at a food vendor and the lady behind the counter was making me a pizza. The way that she interacted with me made me think "I need to journal this because it looks like the Celebrity Effect." - within the dream.
At lunch today, I was having tacos made. The interaction with the lady who was making my tacos made me think about the dream, and the Celebrity Effect.
This is exciting. It's a "calm excitement"; I recognize that good things are breaking through, but I am overall on an even keel with a positive tone.
I never wondered "why Stage 4?"; having experienced it, the benefit is crystal clear.
I'll still run UMS again until I'm satisfied, or until I've run it four times in a row, with the instructed one month break between runs.
RE: UMS v3.1 - Which Is to Be the Master - Shannon - 09-02-2025
So what is your take on "Why Stage 4?"
RE: UMS v3.1 - Which Is to Be the Master - ReconGunner - 09-02-2025
(09-02-2025, 01:57 PM)Shannon Wrote: So what is your take on "Why Stage 4?"
Stages 1-3 are prep, one step at a time. Like making a path. Things that get turned up are dealt with in the time available in each stage.
Stage 4 is walking the prepared path. Part review, part demonstration. And anything that's been turned up in the earlier stages is easier to spot and address.
I believe that successive runs will keep building the path further, until the destination - UMS - is reached.
RE: UMS v3.1 - Which Is to Be the Master - Shannon - 09-02-2025
That's the goal.
RE: UMS v3.1 - Which Is to Be the Master - ReconGunner - 09-04-2025
Stage 4
Cycle 3 of 4
A day late; life was busy.
Nothing new to add to the above. One more cycle, then a month to rest and bloom.
RE: UMS v3.1 - Which Is to Be the Master - ReconGunner - 09-10-2025
Stage 4
Cycle 4 of 4
And with two rest days, Cycle 4 of Stage 4 is complete.
Next up, four weeks break as prescribed. Expecting some bloom, too. After that, Run 2.
The last couple of listening days my mood reversed. I had to consciously turn all of the reminders of the negative into motivation to get better results.
Then I got a call from a professional recruiter. The position he was recruiting for is just a bit beyond what I can fit at the moment. He was very positive about upcoming positions that he anticipates needing to recruit for. Based on the position he reached out about, any of the new roles he'd be looking to fill would include an increase in salary.
Which brings me to an overall observation. recently, I have been getting unasked for and excellent advice on money management. That's important for UMS - you can be broke at any level of income - but it also highlights that what I'm still defining as UMS for me requires a substantial income increase - not just the kind of salary increase a new job role would bring. That's still a gap I need to fill - how to make that kind of income leap, ideally in a way that leaves me independent of any regular employment.
Three more runs of UMS to go. It's going to be interesting.
RE: UMS v3.1 - Which Is to Be the Master - Benjamin - 09-10-2025
It's interesting how you attract certain things related to the program, like the good advice on money management.
It's funny on BAMM (I only got to maybe stage 3 or 6, I don't remember) several of us got attempts at dodgy mlm type people trying to contact us. For me it was an old coach of mine who was dodgy and pressured/guilted me to buy a big package of sessions yet didn't help me much.. contacted me with this sudden awesome (dodgy) opportunity!
The good thing was I said no to it and I called him out on it strongly, sadly I don't think I called him out on his coaching stuff at the time but I should have. Maybe that was the point of it, to get me to be able to detect this stuff and say no to it.